Day 168 – Spitefulness is Nasty – Self Correction

I commit myself to when and as I see that I am going into a spitefulness based on a perception of not being seen in a particular way, I stop and breath, and correct this point with stopping the thoughts and not participating with other until I am clear and able to stand equal to the other in consideration of the other as myself in what is best for all.

I commit myself to when I see I am going in to a perception of how others should be or are thinking or seeing me, stop and breath, and focus on the physical, also focus on myself and what I am walking within becoming aware of my actions and words and aligning that which I am aware of to be equal and one in what is best for all in the situation I am in.

I commit myself to stop spitefulness by stopping going into this point of validation through others actions towards me by focusing on my own self equality and standing stable, I commit to stand here in stability as I process myself from the mind as illusion as thoughts, stopping this from directing me, and move into my physical body in slowly but surely directing myself within the physical in what I see in common sense to help those I am with in the best way I can through walking a self equality here stable and clear.

I commit myself to stop taking things personally by walking the realization that it is not about the external world, but who I am in relation to it within myself, and so I walk and commit to walk what is best for all as this is what I would want myself - what is best, so focusing on aligning the all points I live into an equal consideration with all the life I am interacting with in relative terms.

I commit myself to stop the desire to be seen in a specific way and thus push myself to walk humbleness and challenge the point within my self programming to act and be in a certain way, so thus I develop my own self expression and stop existing within the programming of desire to be a specific design.

I commit myself to stop the action of only doing or moving within a desire to get a positive outcome and thus I commit to walk the correction of seeing the physical in what practically has to be done, and stop the drive to do something or be someone to gain a feeling.

I commit myself to stop this point of revenge within stopping the desire to be accepted by others and thus I commit to stop the blame onto others when I perceived I haven’t been accepted, by pushing the acceptance of myself within and as each moment, and walking the correction within accepting what is here as me and correcting what is not aligned to what is best for all within and as my daily living.

I commit myself to let go of feelings and walk what is here in the physical direct and in self support of who I am as life and what is best for all in the solutions and process I walk to create this best way of life for all in the physical, focusing on the facts within physical practical reality and stopping the mind as thoughts, emotions, and feelings from directing me.

I commit myself to stop this point of addiction to feelings as energy, and walk the correction as living from the physical, living from breathing, and stopping my participation in energy as emotions, feelings, thoughts, reactions, really any separation from what is here as myself as life. I commit to walk each moment in acceptance, until I am here and moved by nothing but my own awareness in directive will for what is best for all.

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Day 167 – Spitefulness is Nasty – Self Forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into spitefulness when I find that I am desiring to be seen in a particular way and when I find that my reality or the people in my reality are not aligning with my desire to be seen in this specific way as special, better, more, I will go into reaction as spitefulness as I have perceived this as a personal attack and thus feel invalidated. I realize that within and as this point of desire to be seen in a certain way, I will use spitefulness to get my self-interest met with any means necessary to thus fulfill this desire of being perceived by others as the best..

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to thus within this desire to be seen within a positive in validation through others participation with me, I will activate spitefulness when I am not receiving the positive outcome from the other through my perception of how they are interacting with me. I realize that when I go into perceiving how others areseeing me or thinking about me, I am in this moment devaluing myself and my power in the physical, based on going into separation and desiring to be seen within a specific outcome, and then going into a deeper dimension by getting spiteful if I am not perceived in the way I desire, which I will act out in being nasty towards the other for no reason but my own self interest of not being validated.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to base myself and my living on the perception of how others are thinking about me and thus go into abuse and harm as spitefulness when I am perceiving within myself that I am not being seen in a positive way by the other, and thus I will not get my positive feeling from them, and thus based on this not getting my positive feelings I will be spiteful because I desire that and will go into deliberate revenge to get back at that being I have blamed for this perception I made that I will not be getting my positive feeling from them. I realize the unacceptable nature of this pattern where I create dimensions in my head that are not real or based on no facts, but done within self interest because I will not be able to generate positive feelings from the other because they are not validating me and thus will go into the deliberate action of abuse because I didn’t get what I wanted, I didn’t get my energy fix, and thus because I have not accepted myself here fully, I am devaluing myself as well as the life I am living for the mind, for ego, for a ‘fleeting’ feelings of feeling good.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only exist within my self interest in only caring about my self feeling good or feeling validated because I am not giving this to myself, I am not accepting myself and thus putting this responsibility on others when I won’t even give this to myself and thus within my world I will create a war with others just based on this fact that I don’t accept myself and I seek others to make me feel good. I realize that I have to let go of this point of self interest of wanting to be seen within a specific way as ‘good’ or ‘special’ or ‘admired’ because I am separating myself from that which is not this and thus believing that these polarities points are who I am, so thus I create the conflictand friction in my own world by participating in this desire to be more and being spiteful when I don’t get what I desire and thus blaming it on the external when it has to do with the internal and not accepting myself here.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted myself here in humbleness in the realization that I am life and I am here within the opportunity to become life again, and thus deliberately being abusive and spiteful because I want a specific outcome or a specific reaction from another so I can have good feelings for myself. I realize I will never be life because I am not life in such abusive ways of being as spiteful, which cause me to be an abuser as I am only existing within what I can get and what I want never considering the other as myself in anyway whatsoever. So until I decide to stop this separation within my own self interest of this desire to be more then who I am here and be ok with that, and stop the resistance, I will never be free but always a slave to my mind because I am existing as the mind, as a parasite, as a abuser of what is here and what is real, life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to spite life and abuse life for my own gain within feeling good within myself, I realize that this is an addiction to energy movement, and thus I commit myself to stop this point ofaddiction to feelings as energy, and walk the correction as living from the physical, living from breathing, and stopping my participation in energy as emotions, feelings, thoughts, reactions, any separation from what is here as myself as life. I commit to walk each moment in acceptance, until I am here and moved by nothing but my own awareness in directive will as what is best for all.

Self Commitments to Follow. Thanks for reading.


Interview Support:

Reptilians – When Energy stops and Substance/Physicality Remains – Part 60

Reptilians – From Energy Experience to Energy to Substance/Physicality – Part 61


For Further Support, Please check out Links:

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Creation's Journey to Life
Earth's Journey to Life
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