Acceptance: Giving Self Back to Self - Day 509

In honor of my friend and fellow process walker, as she 

journeys on to a new beginning, I will continue to hold her here within

me as how she stood and lived as an example of strength, perseverance, steadfastness, kindness, and gentleness to continue on in my journey until it is done. 

Thank you Cathy Kraft for all you have done to support me, you are loved and will be missed. 

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Acceptance for me has been quite a process of mental strain, I have been figuring out how to accept myself, after all the points I have faced, all the mistakes, all the judgments, and all that is not my best, how can I possible accept myself and actually mean it. What I realized is that it’s got nothing to do with the words or phrases swirling around the word of acceptance such as ‘how can I’ or ‘am I able to’, but simply living the word acceptance, accepting who I am in this moment period.

So I want to redefine and open up the word acceptance because it’s a powerful word and has supported me within my process of accepting myself as I have for many years been insecure and doubtful of who I could become and accepting myself in a way that is satisfying. I didn’t understand that what my mind was bringing up about me was more in relation to ideas, beliefs, projections, illusions in fact that I have created through thinking, and I was misinterpreting living this word as acceptance based on what was coming up in my mind, trying to live up to that to be accepted rather then being here and actually physically living the word in what is here as me in each breath. For example, I can’t deny who I am in this moment, that which I am weak in and that which I am strong in. What the mind wants to do is make the weak something to be resisted and suppressed and only focus on the strengths, though doing this I deny the actual reality of who I am and so shut me out or limit me from actually understanding what those weakness are and creating ways to strengthen them.

So living the word acceptance is merely an action of accepting all of who I am in this moment here, not denying any part of myself, so I can stand equal to all the information and understand who I am within it. This also one has to take the personal out of it, take the positive and negative charges out of the information that one is seeing, such as a destructive thinking pattern of seeing myself as ‘not good enough to succeed’ for instance. Accepting that this thinking pattern is actually happening within me, not making it as if it is true and thus absolute, but that it is a part of me at the moment, but I can always change. I am not limited nor stuck in absolutes of what I am existing as in any given moment, if I don’t resist myself within it, but accept it for what it is.

Resisting is a cool flag point as well for this point of moving through what is here as self that one is not seeing supportive, cause if you resist it, you will tend to shove it away, not wanting to look at it, and thus again deny that which is actually in reality existing within you, a unsupportive pattern. Though if resistence happens then one will loop in the pattern over and over again because one is not actually facing it, accepting the responsibility that it is self as it is existing within self and self is living it out, and the pattern will continue to persist because it is a part of who one is and how one has created themselves. We can not ever run away from who we are, this is impossible as we have actually physically created it over time, we walked the steps to have the unsupportive pattern exist within self as it is, and so with living the word acceptance, one can embrace the pattern that is unsupportive, and walk the correction process to change.

Acceptance is the act of starting the process of self responsibility for who one is and if one moves self into the understanding phase of the change needed, and then living the corrective change, then the pattern that one was once resisting is now becoming a point of transcendence. So the point of this first blog on this word is that acceptance is required of self in all actions to walk the process of self change, and the key to self change is when one take responsibility for self within what one is accepting and change to be the best one can be to live in their highest potential.

I am not promoting nor saying that acceptance is just a point of accept what one is and then just living into it and not changing, no that is self dishonesty, change is required in this process either of strengthen one’s weakness or supporting others to do the same. Living this word acceptance in such a way is supportive to stop emotionally reacting to who self is in the good and bad of self, and walk what is necessary in full openness and humbleness to be able to see what is necessary and understand how to walk the self change to what is best for all.

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What is the Physical Showing Me? Stomach Nervousness - Day 413

Writing the Pattern out the Physical is Showing:

Looking within the direct seeing of the physical, the stomach nervousness, the acidic nature of it, causing it to burn in my stomach feeling like I am creating holes within my physical flesh, this the physical consequence of the energy allowing to be created over and over again everytime I go into this nervousness. This being physically lived through the disease that has manifested in my physical body called Crohns disease. The point that is causing this is with a group of people where I judging my physical features and judging and comparing myself to them based on this point of seeing myself inferior to them. This only causing my physical to get damaged in this way due to the point that I am creating it.

Self Forgiveness on Pattern of Nervousness/Anxiety:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become anxious and create energy of an acidic nature within my body due to the fear points that are created within me of seeing myself less then others and fearing being viewed in this way by them as less then due to this judgment I hold that I am not able to compete because I am not physically equal to them in our picture.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my physical form within a limitation of image only and compare image only to others in a way to try and gain feelings of appreciation and admiration from others through being better looking and thus creating the opposite as a conflict point within myself of this idea I have created that I have to be beautiful to be accepted. And so I experience the opposite as being ugly and thus less then those who are beautiful. I realize this creates always a polarity within me of separating myself from all that are here who in the physical are in fact equals to me, we are not separate based on image that is illusion we are here as life as we are all physical and we are in fact equal as the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a physical reaction within my physical body of acidity and burning of the physical stomach line based on using my mind only to interpret reality and what is here happening within what others do to me or act towards me creating a specific relationship with these actions or sayings in where I take it personally. I realize that it is not personal but more a point of showing the physical reactions of what is here and has to be transcended in the moment for me and for others to let go of the physical as image, as ideas, as pictures only, and see it for what it is here as one with all life, no matter the form, and thus being able to direct the point into a stability of realizing that we both equally have the right to be here and enjoy this expression within what it is and what it will be in the potential that is always here to be one and equal with the life within and as the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have this relationship of how others look, behave, or speak around me determine who I am within my beingness, I realize that I as well as all are not perfect within what is here and thus have points still that need aligning when relevant, but what is here is here and thus I walk the equality of what is here within what will be best for all until it is done.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to cause physical harm to my body as disease in my stomach from the fear and nervousness where I created this belief that I am at a lost within myself, I need something more, I need more entertainment points for me to be able to be satisfied instead of realizing I am already here, I already have the point to walk to be here and thus access my real potential as life to support what will be best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create burns in my stomach based on judging my physical body and not seeing it as good enough.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my body as not good enough based on a mind interpretation of how others I perceive are seeing me as my body instead of standing as my physical and with my physical in acceptance instead of looking for it out there.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not accept myself within the point of my physical image and thus I realize I need to unconditionally let go of the desire to be more or better and see what is here direct as physical life in each moment as it really is as physical beings living and breathing.

Self Correction of the Pattern of Anxiety/Nervousness:

When and as I go into any movement of judgment or perception of how others see me and go into thoughts of taking it personal as ‘they are seeing me as ugly’ I stop and breath, and immediately let go of the thought, breath through the energy, and release the energy through breathing until it is clear. I can walk the point of allowing the other to do what they do and focus on my own communication, my own physical movements, and what the other is saying within learning from them to be able to align and direct myself in the best way possible to support what is best for all.

I commit myself to stop the fear of judgment of my physical by committing myself to let go of all and every thought or energy of burning sensation or tightness in my stomach, and move myself to focus on my physical, my breath, and what the other is saying.

I commit to listen to the words regardless of the movements of the other.

I commit myself to focus on what is being said and stop specifying on what the person is doing.

I commit myself to let go unconditionally any and all gestures others make towards me as I realize that it is a physical point and that is what is here to be faced by each one.

I commit myself to push through the point of limiting myself due to fear and inferiority, and walk the process in all moments to align myself with the fact that we are equals.

Cool Support to Help Transforming Nervousness to Self Empowerment:

Deconstructing Nervousness - Atlanteans - Part 89
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Overcoming Nervousness (Part 2) - Atlanteans - Part 91
Sounding Self Forgiveness for Nervousness - Atlanteans - Part 92
Finalising Nervousness Support - Atlanteans - Part 93

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Perfect Others While I Stand Imperfect Within - Day 385

Today I want to do some self forgiveness on my desire to control others in the direction I think they should walk rather then allowing others to walk there way and directing the situation if I see I have faced the point and can support another equal to myself, not in a way that is domineering.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to control another within the thought that ‘they don’t know what they are doing’ and justifying that I have to go and help them how to do something.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to assume that others don’t know what they are doing and so they need my help.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see others as less competent then me and that I need to ensure I direct things with them, so the work can be complete on time.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed anger towards others within a backchat that they don’t know what they are doing and are going to screw up my interests.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed anger and irritation to direct me towards others based on a belief that I know more and others don’t know as much as me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to have others do what I want instead of ensuring I communicate with others to ensure there is an agreement of movement and a point of accountability equal among all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to follow and participate in the backchat of ‘others are going to screw up’ and so become pushy towards others rather then approach with a point of inquiring rather then being a know it all.

I forgive myself that have accepted and allowed to not see, realize, and understand that I am going into my ego of desiring to be more with others and perfect outside rather then face my inner world where I feel inferior to others and see myself as quite messed up.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see myself as an inferior and thus compensate on the outer world and act superior to them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not walk the correction of working on myself within who I am in writing and continue to direct myself in polarity of inferior/superior.

I forgive that I have accepted and allowed to blame others for the inner discord I feel, and so become reactive in my outer world instead of sorting , stopping and not moving myself until I have sorted out the point in self honesty and walked the correction and proven to myself I have change before I direct others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to control others cause within myself I don’t feel in control of who I am.

More to come on this.

When and as I see I am going into any actions of control towards others, I stop and breath, and realize I am not sorting and looking within to see where I am in fact not feeling in control within myself.

I commit myself to stop reacting and directing others in a controlling way.

I commit to find the pattern within myself and sort it out in self writing before I direct towards another.

I commit to put myself in the other shoe and direct others within self trust after I have proven I am stale in the point by walking it over time.

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Day 294- Self Judgment – Backchat Breakdown – Thought #3 - Lack in Self Confidence

 

Please reference these blogs, for further context to this quote below:
Day 291 – Self Judgment – The Voice of Unreason
Day 292- Self Judgment – Back Chat Breakdown – Thought #1
Day 293 – Self Judgment – Backchat Breakdown – Thought 2

“I am too far gone for this to work out and be able to be stable with another, I am not able to stand stable, I am too fucked up to be able to have a guy be into me and have it work out.”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only continue to see and recognize the past, the past as me as an abuser to myself, and not stand and stop this point forevermore as the solution I see I am walking for myself and is possible as I continue on this journey to life, self freedom in self honesty and self responsibility.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself by what the thoughts in my head are saying to me when in no way are they supporting me to become a human being of stability and self sufficiency - where life is lived in equality, and thus I realize this is something not to take for reality because life for real is equal and one as unconditional support, and thus I must change my starting point in thisrelationship with myself as my thoughts to align equal and one to life which is in the physical and as the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a disappointment within myself as being let down based on believing the mind reality of my backchat as a self defeatism outlook and thus live within my world in depression because keeping telling myself and living out that I am not as good as another, when in reality I am making this entire thing up and sabotaging myself because of fear of changing myself within this point and seeing who I am without fear by walking as self expression within this point of being with another.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live in self sabotage and continue to follow the backchat of self defeatism based on fearing rejection and having to face the reality of being rejected by another.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge those who are rejected by others as lower in status then those who are accepted, and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see, think, and interact with others in this regard as less then if they are rejected and more acceptable if they are accepted by the group.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to change my expression to fit into a group, and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within self compromise to be accepted and not have to face this point of rejection, but thus live the point of devolution of self as freedom as this is in no way freedom of self as life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attach the word failure and the experience of a lower standing then others within this point of being rejected by others, when really this is a point that is not in alignment and thus is not able to be walked at this time when I am rejected within my reality, it’s not to take it personal, but just realize it’s a point to let it be for a moment until another opportunity comes to support if I am able to.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a relationship with myself based on the negative experiences in my past, I realize I must let these go to move on and become here able to see me for real in my physical environment as my physical body, and direct myself in my expression as I walk and expand myself within what it means to be one and equal with life as me as I face my world in self awarenessand self responsibility to life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be a perfect ideal for others to worship and praise and give me nice feelings not realizing this will create the polarity play out of the negative of myself based on the intensity of my participation within the thought, feeling, and thus living action of these play outs, and so equal and one creates the same in my world but just within opposite energies extremes, both creating the same outflow to these consequences, separation with life and separation with myself.

When and as I go into a point of desiring to resist another due to the backchat thought I am thinking of self sabotage, I stop and breath, realizing that this will create a point of self imprisonment of my own making listening to illusion as my mind in the backchat program of keeping me suppressed, and all the while suppressing my expression in the physical where instead I can be using my gifts, my communication, me living to expand and grow who I am with my world and the world at large for the outcome of what is best for all as I build this relationship within myself as myself equal and one.

I commit myself to let go of all thoughts of backchat of self sabotage through breathing and not participating in not a one of these thoughts through forgiving them, letting them go, and continue to walk as the physical, embracing me within my physical body and moving through the points I am resisting building my integrityand awareness as self trust.

I commit myself to find the solutions within the points that I fear through understanding the fear, and moving through that fear by facing it, and finding the path that will transcend it be it through my own push of self action or standing stable in a point of desire to move in energy, I remain focused on what the matter is here and that is life in what is best for all.

I commit to stop all self interest for me to be happy and gain a point of status, and so I commit to continue to walk all my breaths here in the pursuit of life in oneness and equality through and as myself as I transcend the control of the mind as the directive principle of myself to my own self direction in common sense here within and as the physical.

I commit myself to let go of the emotion of failure and disappointment within myself and stand as the realization of how far I have come, what I have changed within me, and what I can give to others to support with this change in all areas I touch and expand into as I have done this already for myself.

I give as I would like to receive, which is the way to life in freedom for all.


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Day 293 – Self Judgment – Backchat Breakdown – Thought 2

Please reference these blogs, for further context to this quote below:
Day 291 – Self Judgment – The Voice of Unreason
Day 292- Self Judgment – Back Chat Breakdown – Thought #1

‘how are we going to be able to discuss things, I am too ugly in my face and my face is deformed for him to look within my eyes long enough to like me”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my face as deformed and ugly based on my mind's eye seeing it in self judgment through creating this picture in my head based on my imaginations of how I saw myself due to being picked on in school and the ideas I had in my head of how much of a loser i am because of this.

I forgive msyelf that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a loser because i was picked on in school.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe my mind within imagination as less then and ugly and play this out in reality seeing myself less then others and inferior.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge deformation and beauty within this world as if it is something that is inferior to other human beings, I realize this is a gross mistake and cause me to become separated from all life forms here as well as myself as we are all different in expressions equally yet all one life force here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define life and then judge it as bad/good when i realize it is all here as me as self, and thus I am one and equal and thus responsible for all that is here, within and without.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto this idea of myself as someone who is ugly because within me I have an ideal playing out that I desire to be beautiful above others and gain more attention and praise for myself over others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make my life about self interest in desire to be more then others and seek attention to have good feelings about myself all the while creating this polarity play out of imagination of who I am within my mind due to defining me by my external world and reality through pictures, and not what is real here within myself and what I do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see myself as less capable then others based on believing this imagination play out and the moments in my mind saying in thoughts that I am this picture of imperfection, when in reality I am just a human being living in this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the physical body in all and any part as separate from any other part of whole of the body and thus create a polarity as ugly/beautiful, and thus causeconflict within myself as my physical body something that is can not change and thus is not able to live up to this ideal and thus definition putting me in a path to nowhere constantly in conflict with myself and my physical body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept this backchat thought that I am ugly and deformed and thus not desire to approach or be with this potential person because I see myself as inferior and already see it ending bad because he will probably not like me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist in this pattern of self sabotage, and thus continue to act in ways where I am creating a point of demise for myself and thus create the instances of my self sabotage by existing as backchat and listening to them through living them out by sabotage myself with others in my world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not go and meet the other person due to following this thought that I am not good enough for him and he will probably not like me because of the thought saying and I agree that I am so ugly and not ok looking.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to listen to my thoughts instead of walking the physical with the other, what is real, what we communicate about, how we interact, what is the reality like, instead of going into a point of self defeatism before even meeting.

When and as I go into a point of seeing myself as less then others in my backchat thoughts, I stop and breath, and realize that this will lead to self sabotage and self defeatism, where I will likely avoid the situation and facing my fears and thus allow the mind to control and lose my self empowerment.

I commit myself to breath through all backchat thoughts, and walk the physical point of facing this point that I am trying to avoid, see what comes of it in reality, and allow myself to experience life and living with others.

I commit myself to stop this point of sabotaging myself by stopping the thoughts when they arise or become aware, and expressing myself openly and freely.

I commit myself to stop the self judgments of who I look and how I act, and thus allow myself to just be here and exist with others in my world.


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Day 292- Self Judgment – Back Chat Breakdown – Thought #1

Please reference this blog, for further context to this quote below:

Day 291 – Self Judgment – The Voice of Unreason

‘this is not going to work, your too all over the place, he’ll want someone more stable and calm’ 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept this thought as real and thus contemplate ending any chance or interaction with this potential partner due to this thought that I am not ready, I am not someone who will be good for him, I am not stable enough.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe what my mind was saying and follow that through potentially sabotaging the whole meet up due to fear instead of looking at my progression in the physical, how I have changed within and as my own dedication, will and action, and stopped this point of sabotage of myself with the mind that is not in fact real or fact.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trust my mind over my physical action, and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to follow my mind as the illusion of thoughts telling me who I am instead of standing within my own self doing and awareness of who I am by how I live and how I have changed.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear rejection of this potential partner and thus create scenerios in my mind where I used in the past to sabotage myself so I don’t have to face this potential of possibly being rejected.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use my mind in my own self interest in the past to not have to face my fears, and thus blame the mind for what it is that I am doing as sabotaging myself instead of taking responsibility for myself and realizing it is me as the mind that has to change, I the directive principle of my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to sabatoge myself and thus use and abusethese backchat thoughts of less then beleifs to do this with and make me not move and push through my fears.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use illusions as thoughts and thus backchat thought of seeing myself less then to justify my existing in fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed fear to direct me in my living instead of directing myself in common sense and what is best for all.

When and as I see myself going into my mind and following backchat thoughts of self sabotage, I stop and breath, and realize that these thoughts are not who I am and are not real. I realize I define and thus am able to direct myself in my own awareness based on how I live in the physical and who I am within my beingness.

I commit myself to not accept this thought of ‘this is not going to work, your too all over the place, he’ll want someone more stable and calm’ to direct me by speaking this is not real it’s my backchat, and breathingthrough this thought, and walking the path of the physical, facing my fear.

I commit myself to check and see what is the point that I am abdicating to the mind by accepting this backchat thought, and bring this point through writing and correction so it stops having power over me.

I commit myself to move within physical awareness and not participate in any backchat thought that arises by not participating.

When and as I see that I am going into fear and following this backchat due to this fear, I stop and breath, and realize that fear is not who I am and I am not bound by this fear. I realize I can move beyond fear by facing it and finding the point that is able to be walked to support to stabilize myself and walk what is best for the situation.

I commit myself to move my physical body through this fear by pushing myself to face the fear, find the common ground within the points, and walk the physical solution in self honesty to support me to be stable, find this point through writing, and push myself to live it.

I commit myself to find the trigger point for this fear and push this point to face it and stop it from controlling me, and in this case stop the thoughts from directing me by focusing on what is physically real and that life is equal and one.


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