A Lady's Journey to Life: August 2013

Wednesday, August 28, 2013

Living Equality - Self Acceptance Support - Day 341

I always admired my sister Sue because she had a calmness within her that I couldn't match. I wanted it, like a point of not needing attention from anyone, she was content within herself, didn't need praise, and had it all so to speak. I on the other hand really enjoyed praised, thrived off of it even, and desired attention from others like there was something missing within me that I needed others to help me find. Not realizing that the whole time I was missing this point that Sue was showing me through her expression, how to be gentle, how to be content with myself, how to live with who you are and accept that point of self within a point of ease as this is how it is, this is what is real, me here living in this body in this world

Now, I have started to implement this point within myself and started to really stop the superficial ways of how I lived within self judgment, the beauty system desires, comparisons, competition, but accept myself for who I am. From this acceptance of self births the opportunity for self change because you allow yourself to see the potential for real and live it through the practice and process of change that will be necessary to walk. Where before, I would not even be able to move at all because I would constantly be split within myself judging myself and comparing myself, and thus compromising myself to in fact really be able to change because I wouldn't allow it, I didn't see it, and thus didn't understand that I could be the change I was looking for. So acceptance of self is key I have found to be able to move beyond the boundaries of ones accepted and allowed behaviors of self compromise, and see the change that in fact actually exist within self, it's a potential that I missed easily because I was already defeated within myself before I even started, with the starting point that self judgment encompasses, that being that self is not good enough.

But through allowing myself to accept myself and live this in my day to day living, such as stopping the line of thought that I often cycled within of showing to myself how others are 'dissing' me, this in my mind only being played out, just from one movement of another I took personally, and so self acceptance allows me to take that step to stop the trigger point and change in that moment by accepting me for me. And with consistently stopping the energy of what self judgment produces anger and disappointment for instance, these energies will deplete and lessens each time I stop and say no more, I accept me for me. So I am slowly but surely walking, understanding, learning, and integrating the change I am realizing of myself and what I am capable of beyond anything my mind could have ever imagined me to be and I am grateful for myself and proud I have made this stand and am living it until it's done.

The mind as my thoughts, beliefs, ideas of myself always thought of me being less, bad, inferior, and thus I would compensate by forcing superiority, aggression, and jealousy on and towards others as abuse and myself as self abuse. Stopping the mind and the thoughts that generate such behaviors has supported me immensely to be a person of self integrity where I can stop and change myself to let go of these thought patterns and change to accept myself and see the change that is possible. Through this, one can become a pillar in ones world and reality, a support for others, as they see change and thus you are showing them through your living how to change, it becomes a garden of support that is grown from your self and out into your world and reality and grows and grows from a single seedling eventually into a forest seen from afar all within and through yourself and your stand as the principles of life in equality and oneness and doing what is best for all, this is the future of the world we all want to see develop, a place where our children are safe and we are all supported.

So Sue among others was an example for this point that help support me and see the change that I could gift myself through not going into competition and making it real through actually living it. The point is it's easy to think one is this, changed and supporting life, but it has to be proven in time and space through one's self honesty, so that is why I keep repeating the lived point, we have to live the change actually in reality for it to be real, that is what this process is for. As we push our boundaries from beyond what we think of ourselves and into living this change, our supposed boundaries will grow wider and wider until eventually there is no boundaries left and all we see is ourselves here living the change we saw we were capable of. Breath and support yourself in the process being walked at desteni to become beings of integrity through changing ourselves to go beyond the mind's beliefs, and into actual real physical change to be our highest potentials. Join us and let's walk.

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Parenting - Perfecting the Human Race - Part 4
Parenting - Perfecting the Human Race - Part 5

The Metaphysical Secrets of Imagination - Introduction
The Metaphysical Secrets of Imagination - Self Image and Imagination- Part 1
The Metaphysical Secrets of Imagination - Self Image and Imagination- Practical Support - Part 2
The Metaphysical Secrets of Imagination - Comparing Images and Imagination- Part 3
The Metaphysical Secrets of Imagination - Comparing Images and Imagination- Practical Support - Part 4
The Metaphysical Secrets of Imagination - Positive Self-Image Relationship - Part 5

Relationship Success Support - Connection Personality
Relationship Success Support - Introduction
Relationship Success Support - Intimacy Personality (Part 1)
Relationship Success Support - Intimacy Personality (Part 2)
Relationship Success Support - Intimacy Personality - Part 3
Relationship Success Support - Intimacy Personality - Part 4

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Monday, August 26, 2013

How to Stop the Too-Muchness Delay - Day 340

Here I am looking at a point that came up when my feet started to feel swelled, like there was air in them and a lot of pressure. I looked at them and they were not swelled in terms of physically, but had the feeling that they were inflated. So I looked at this point within my life, and I saw this point of swelling and specifically the feet as a point of trying to walk too much stuff at once and thus become spread out committing to too many things and so not being as effective as I could if I was doing less and had more focus and time to dedicated to less amounts of commitments. Stopping the point of spreading myself to thin and trying to walk too many things at one time, hence the inflated feet feeling.

Within this obviously I have to look at priorities, I have to make money and live in this world, so my jobs and remaining stable within this is the first commitment priority I must continue to walk. The other commitments I am walking I are becoming more and more as I commit to more and more, but I find that I am not becoming very effective within the one's I have already committed to and currently walking. I will as a solution drop some lower priority things I do like leisure time things as well as stop committing to things altogether until I am satisfied with walking effective in everything I am committing to currently.

Another point I will walk self forgiveness on is wasting time and not staying focused during the times I set to do the responsibilities like writing or studying I have allotted for myself to do, and so get distracted with other stuff, entertainment stuff, and not push myself through the resistance to just do nothing. This has come up often in my process, and I am finding staying consistent day by day, each and every day is the challenge I am facing and need to transcend. Walking through points I really do not want to do, but must do to stay on track of things and do the best I am able to, and really I am able to do these things, I have time and ability, it's just I go into desire and want to rest or relax. And now my rest/relax ration is unbalanced and I am lagging in my responsibilities and my effectiveness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not stay committed to the process of consistency and commitment of my decision to walk this process as myself in self change and taking responsibility for myself to it's fullest, and so becoming ineffective to the best of my ability in the tasks I am doing because I am not putting my best effort in.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I put a little effort in that no one will notice and see, and so it's fine to just do it once in a while, when I know within myself I am being dishonest and can do more, be more, and have more of an effect to support the message of oneness and equality and doing what is best for all life in all the mediums.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into and feed resistances with thoughts such as 'i will do it later' and 'i am so tired, i can just do it some other time' and 'i really don't feel like doing it now, let me just watch/do/go here first' and so I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as my mind to direct me into self compromise willingly and with my understanding, and so give into self interest and compromise to be just a robot operating on impulse rather then my directive action in what I will as a life being for real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to listen to thoughts such as 'i will do it later' and 'i am so tired, i can just do it some other time' and 'i really don't feel like doing it now, let me just watch/do/go here first', and allow these thoughts which I realize are not real in terms of what I direct as my own self will in what is best direct me into living in resistances and not getting what i realize I can get done done, and so compromise my self effectiveness and the effect that I can have to help create change within myself and so within this world, as within so without.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give into resistance so I can have my self interests met, and not have to push myself and do the work that I resist doing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist moving physically in what needs to be done as my part, and so become a hindrance in my own self application when I realize I can do more and be more by not accepting myself to fall and feed resistances when they come up as they are not real but the mind feeding me to stay as a controlled source rather then I walk my own self control and directive principle.

When and as I see i am going into resistances and avoiding doing my responsibilities, I stop and breath, and realize this is the mind trap in which I allow myself to remain stuck in ineffectiveness instead of pushing myself through my resistances and expanding myself in my living and what I can do.

When and as i see I am desiring to go into my self interest and just get distracted by entertainment, I stop and breath, as I realize this is a waste of time and will lead to me being less then what I could be if I pushed through, and I realize who I want to be is a person that pushes through and lives extraordinary as how Bernard taught me, I am life and so I must live this for this to be real, and so I realize I must actually live and become equal and one with the physical as this is life and actually live as how the physical lives, consistent, constant, and in what is best for all one and equal.

I commit myself to write out for each day my priorities to work through and give myself a list to follow as a guide to see what needs to be done, and thus I commit myself to walk this list to make sure they get done.

I commit myself to breath and move myself immediately when a point opens up to walk.

I commit myself to move myself through resistances and do what I can do each day to the best of my ability.

Sunday, August 25, 2013

Irritation and Impatience Self Support - Day 339

Here I have been walking irritation and impatience for most of my process, and I have realized that within participating in such outflows of my behavior towards others, it's based on an accumulated amount of backchat thoughts or thought patterns that are in the form of blame and self victimization to stand as an artillery type defense to in the end justify the behavior I lived out in becoming irritated and impatient towards another. Usually this comes in the form of speaking loudly, yelling, and being battle like in my words, trying to win and defeat the other, but this I have found only defeats myself as I lose self trust and self integrity within who I really am as life one and equal with all others here and thus my opportunity to change the life of another as well as myself in a growth and expansion that will be beneficial and support a better outcome.

Now, I had a chat with a fellow destonian and she suggested to use the point of irritation as a point to cross-reference where I am at in terms of my walking this point of stopping it and becoming the directive principle in these moments to do what is best for all. So I have been looking at this and practicing it, and I am seeing that I have made progress, but I still go into irritation often. I find the backchat is usually based on an accumulation of pictures in my mind where I blame the other from past moments I judged them for, and made me right. So it's a point of self interest, desiring to be able to get my own way and have others bend at my whim so I can have the desired experience I was going for using the mind as assuming and only certain moments considered to thus be only advantageous to me being right and me getting my way.

A dimension of self forgiveness and self correction I will walk is this point of going into the past and making past moments part of my decision making in the here moment, and thus replaying the past over and over again in this here moment causing conflict, separation, and more conflict.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to bring the past in moments of memory as pictures I have stored in my mind where I judge another as wrong and me as right, and held this assumption/particular moments only as absolute truth and then bring it here to be used by myself in self interest to justify my action of irritation and impatiences toward this other, and so accentuate conflict and separation rather then seeing the other as my equal, letting go of the past as it's not here and thus not reality, and walking as a point of solution in directive will in what is best for all as I would want to have done for me, and so be a living example to all that I touch throughout my day and life as this is all that really matters.

When and as I see that I am going into a point of justification through memories and pictures from my past of another in only certain moments or considerations to make me right and the other wrong, I stop and breath, and realize that this will only cause more conflict with the other and thus create more conflict within me and my living, and so more abuse and separation to be sorted which is not necessary and unacceptable.

I commit myself to walk the point of breathing through the reaction to go into my mind and bring up the past the moment I see the energy activating as irritation and the mind go to view the artillery I will need to justify my abuse, and do not participate within these pictures as I bring myself back here in the physical body as breath and release this energy through breathing and earthing it back to it's source through my feet into the earth.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that who I am is more 'right' then other people, and so live from this starting point in separation with the physical reality and the physical facts of the matter in the realization that we are all here and we are all equal as life, and so I forgive myself that I haven't yet accepted and allowed myself to direct myself in self will as the directive principle of equality and oneness of all life as self to walk solutions with others in moments where I am seeing that there is a point of potential conflict, through my own words and living actions and support the other as I would myself to come to solutions in what ever would be best to resolve the situation and so stop conflict from manifesting and thus stopping encouraging it.

When and as I see that I am going into a point of self righteousness and not considering the other in equality and oneness, I stop and breath, and realize that I am compromising the opportunity for self growth and expansion with another that could/may develop within sharing myself in integrity and support and supporting the situation to come to a solution that will be best through me becoming stable and not reacting, and so bringing forth life and not separation in the moment that opened up to bring this forth.

I commit myself to when I see that I am going into a point of self righteousness, realize and immediately stop and see what it is I am doing so I can stop the line of thought that will trigger the desire to win and direct myself in the outcome that will be best through self honest practical considerations.

I commit myself to walk the point of bringing myself back to my physical through breathing and dedicating myself to my decision and commitment to walk with others in equality, finding solutions, and supporting others in the best way I am able to as I would want for myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become more interested in my own self desires/wants/needs then that of considering the other I am in the moment living with, who they are or where they are in their life, but only desire to have my interests met and me win and me be right, and thus create an immediate conflict with the other due to not living the equality principle and disregarding them through become reactive as impatient and irritated and thus creating abuse as my starting point and living out.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live in such a way where I deliberately abuse others for my own self interest and to have my desires met, and so not consider the other equal to myself but make my considerations, desires, wants, and needs more important when I realize that they are not in fact real what is real is the life I am here with and considering them as how I would want to be consider always.

When and as I go into a point of desire, want, need, and not consider the other as my equal, I stop and breath, and realize this will lead to abuse and self compromise, which I no longer accept and allow of myself. I realize that these desires, wants, and needs come from my mind as made up scenarios not based on facts, but based on pictures and memories and judgments I have made and accumulated within me to use to get what I want and make the other less then me to get this want or desire met for myself. I also realize that I must stop these mind illusions and bring myself back to what is real, my physical body, my breath, and what is physically happening in fact in my world always considering all parts equal and one to how I would consider myself.

I commit myself to walk the point of bring myself back to the physical through breath whenever I see a movement within me to react to another in self interest and not in consideration of the other equal to myself.

I commit myself to stop my point of self interest wants, needs, and desires and walk the equality equation finding the solution that will benefit both or all involved respecting and honoring all parts of this reality equal and one to how I would like to be treated myself.

I commit myself to stop all mind reactions through letting them go through self forgiveness and self corrective living and use the living of patience as myself through walking what is best for all no matter how long it takes and what I have to give to receive this outcome because I realize that what is best for all is best for me and so it's common sense to do so.

I commit myself to live common sense and live words as me in the directive purpose of what the words mean in physical reality through walking the process of redefining each and every word I would like to live with myself and with others until I am here and live direct with myself as this physical reality, aligned to life one and equal in what is best in all ways through the words I speak equal and one to how I live them, so it's clear and always understood by all.

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Friday, August 23, 2013

How to Live Patience - Day 338

So I have written about patience in the past, and found it throughout my process of changing myself to be able to live what is best for all in all moments has steadily become a point I can support myself with. I would like to be more steadfast within it and more disciplined, but that will come with time and actually living it, so I am not yet satisfied nor at a point where I can say I am living patiences.

I am going to place the word definition here to look at what the word means in this world:

Patience - the capacity to accept or tolerate delay, trouble, or suffering without getting angry or upset.

Interesting because I have been looking at anger today as I see this is a main trigger point within me when I go into reaction or conflict with another. It's quite cool though because through practicing patiences within my process and becoming more disciplined within stopping going into thought patterns or reactions, I have been able to see more clearly when I go into anger for instance, it's like an elephant in the room so to speak, it's quite obvious. And I find I still once I react in anger and release it through my words and actions, I go into a point of disappointment within myself like i should have known better and I should have stopped. But here it's important for me to remember that this point of judging myself is only causing a point of inner conflict and so will take longer to move through the point which will inevitable have to be transcended, and so it's quite pointless to keep judging myself for something that happened, and so just move through it and correct it.

Anyway back to this relationship of anger and patiences, patiences I have found is a stability point for me when the reality is showing me that it garners it, and the mind reaction to this reality has always usually been a point of anger and annoyance as blame and assumption toward whatever it is that was not whatever I approved of or desired to happen or get. So I have found patiences is an application of life, of equality, of unity with others, as you are putting yourself in the others shoes and thus ensuring that the other is or will eventually become equal to you in whatever it is that you are looking at or sharing that the other has to walk a process to learn and/or integrate within themselves.

But of course within this, one need to be self honest as self honesty is the key, because patiences by itself is not the key to living one and equal with life and all it's gifts, no, it is determined and lived out based on who the being is within the application of living patiently. So it all again goes to who you are, what you are living in each moment, and how you are applying yourself within what is happening in reality. For instance, one can be patient, but do it in a point of harm like in war or conflict, and so it's not simply to be patient in your living that matters, but what matters is who one is within the living patiently, it all is determined by self.

Another point that just occurred to me with being patient is the desire or need the mind creates within self to move quick, the mind as we can see is always moving very fast, we are thinking in the future one second, then we are in the past the next, then we are thinking about the burn on our leg that is beginning to become irritated with the sweat from the heat, and then we look into the crowds and we are judging another for the way they dressed so 'abnormally' that day, then back in the future to the party that's scheduled for tonight, then over to next friday where I have to work a double shift, then back to the present where that bill is overdue and a fear is immediately created and I accept as me, so we are moving and actually really zooming through our minds in all sorts of direction and all sorts of dimensions creating feelings/emotions and really energy movements, and thus we are constantly wanting to move quick and go fast through our day/life, never being able to sit still, be here, and just simply breath with nothing moving within, it seems impossible.

But life, such as the natural world as we see lives patiently, slowly, a plant growing from a seed to a mature tree/flower/bush takes a significant period of space and time, our physical bodies take a significant time to grow from a baby body to a mature adult body, it doesn't happen at the speed of a thought which is quite unnatural as it's movement is so quick, but a tree growing or our physical bodies growing is all real, is all natural, is all physical, and so it takes space and time, and patiences to see it to maturity.

So this is a cool analogy to realize that what is real, what is natural, what is physically applicable requires patiences, we require patience to live here in the physical and become the life we really are, this taking a process of self purification to really in fact live and become. We have to slow ourselves down and walk the process back to the physical, back to breath awareness, walking one breath at a time, breath by breath, stable, which indeed will require patience to see through to it's completion. This I am currently walking, and this application of slowing down I see has absolutely supported me to walk the change that I have walked so far and I know will support me to walk the rest of the points that are required to be life here as the physical.

Life I have realized is patient through supporting unconditionally within what has to be done no matter how long it will take, and allows adaption and correction when the principles are not being lived in what is best for all, but there is an end point realize, it will not continue as is so don't haste, we must remain self honest and walk the change as is necessary and required. So I will continue to apply patiences with myself until I am satisfied that I live this word as myself. Patiences redefined in it's living expression is a slowing down of self to align with breath in what is here and walk what is necessary in ensuring what is best for all until it is a reality.

Wednesday, August 21, 2013

Weakening of the Physical through the Mind - Self Commitments to Live - Day 337

In continuation of this blog:

Weakening the Physical through the MInd - Day 335

When and as I see myself go into a inflexibility and suppressing my expression, I stop myself and breath, and realize that in this moment that I am going into suppression, I am allowing the mind to take over my directive will and direct me into the polarity of inferior/superior play out through the cycle of happy/sad, and thus accept and allowing my external to influence who I am on the internal, realizing that i no longer have to live in this way because I realize who I am, I am life and am the directive principle of myself and realize that I can direct myself into all life ibeing equal and one in what is best for all.

I commit myself to not accept myself to go into the mind when I see a fear come up of others and thus I commit to breath and continue to express myself and accept myself as equals within and as each moment as what is happening as I see within the moment to be expressed, pushing to see reality direct in what is actually happening.

I commit myself to move my physical to bring me back to the physical through breathing and looking around the room, become here within myself and aware ofmy body and not allow thoughts of suppression and compromise to accumulate.

I commit to stop my mind from directing me into self judgment and judgment of others by not allowing these thoughts to continue, and stopping them as soon as I see them come up.

When and as I see myself go into a fear of another or what others are thinking of me, I stop and breath, and realize that this is all in my head I am making these thoughts and fears up within me where I don't know what others are thinking and thus there is no need to fear, as I can direct myself within and as who I am, I don't need others to tell me who I am, I have to stand within myself and direct myself to be able to direct as the directive principle to create this who I am, self create me as life, I must walk my own self stability and stop being directed by the external world of who I am.

I commit myself to breath and not accept myself to go into thoughts of what others are thinking as I realize it's completely illusionary and not relevant.

I commit myself to breath and stop fear as there is no need to fear, I face my fears and walk that which I fear walking to show I can walk it and that it is in fact all in my head, using common sense of course in terms of physical fear, (like not stepping in front of a car or moving bus).

When and as I see I am becoming inflexible within my movement and self direction, i stop and breath, and check what is gong on within me that i am suppressing and not expressing myself freely here as breath.

I commit to move myself through this inflexibility and remain steadfast to walk through all the points where i m still showing inflexibility and correct the patterns through writing the tools and living it and practice expressing freely here as breath in consideration of all as equals.

I commit myself to accept myself and accept my expression, and stop the judgment, and remain walking the perfection process of who I am and so be able to stand here alone and as all as one and equal.

I commit to walk the process of letting go of me as my personality, me as fear, me as the mind definition of limitation, me as a name, I commit myself to walk to the self that is here as a whole and individualized to ensure what is best is life and this is in fact so within self until it is done.

When and as I see myself less then others and that I am weakened, I stop and breath, and realize this is my mind in self defeatism and self sabotage to not have to walk what I have to face, I realize that this is not who I accept myself to be and I must continue to persevere and face myself through accepting who I am and continuing on the path of correcting myself until I live equal and one to the physical as breath.

I commit to stop compromising myself through judgments.

I commit to stop competition with others as this is not real as I am competing with myself as we are equals here as the physical and thus all one.

I commit to stop comparing myself to others as its useless and irrelevant cause self is all that exist.

I commit to not accept the mind in separation as who I am, and walk the correction to stop the mind in seperation and align myself with life and direct myself in this way here as the breath in physical reality.

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Why Try When I Can Live - Day 336

So a lot of times I speak of 'oh, I will try to do this' or oh 'I will try to do that' and my partner pointed out to me one day that what are you trying to do, why not just do it? And I hadn't really ever considered that point before because I would say 'try' so automatically, just like how it is, I will 'try' and thus that's all I can do, like a point of self defeatism before I even walk whatever it is I am 'trying' to walk.

I found that within this statement that I make, it gives room in the back of my mind to escape, to not actually live the words, to not have to give it my all, but I can say 'oh I tried, so that is good enough' never living extra-ordinarily, never giving everything of me, never giving it 100%, and it's like why have I never considered this, why am I not giving it everything of myself, why am I not living 100%, and this goes for all of us humans, what is it that cause us to be a weakened version of ourselves when in reality we can be exceptional, the capabilities we each have in our own individual ways each and everyone that breaths on this planet is beyond the mind's comprehension, and can make for a world that is nothing as it is now, something that is truly extra-ordinary.

I mean why do we not live in such a way, I have found for myself that it's a belief system, a thought or a pattern of thoughts in my mind that I can't do it, saying things such as 'it's too tough', 'I am not smart enough', 'I am not good enough', 'I just can't', but what I have learned and what is shared through the desteni research is that the mind in how we think about things and believe in is not real, it's not physical meaning it's not who we really are.

We are in fact physical beings, we exist here in reality in our physical bodies, that is why we as destonians are walking a 'process', we are walking back into the physical, merging again with our physical bodies, point by point deconstructing it, understanding it through writing and introspection, forgiving ourselves to release us from the mind attachments and illusions, and changing our living in the physical to what is real, being here as the physical and with the physical through our physical bodies in each moment here, considering all others equal to ourselves, and doing what is best for al. Because have a look these are all real things, we are equals as the physical and so we all have a right to life, we all require what is best to live a life of worth, and so once we live this as who we are we will create the foundation for the extraordinary life that we all want to live and create, right? I mean come on we all have had enough of the strife, the struggle, the suffering, the destruction of the home we live on, we can all live in this world and create a systems of equality for all, we are equals and this is the truth and reality of what is here beyond the mind, beyond the illusions, beyond the self interest, beyond the desires, beyond the fears, life is here and it has always been here.

So it's interesting because I never before really considered how self compromising and self limiting I lived my life as well as how often in this specific case of self limitation I used the word 'try' to manipulate myself into not having to actually move myself for real and give it everything I have. This, to get out of my responsibilities and not face the person I had created myself to be, in fear, inferior, less then who I really am as life, and so I stand and walk the process to correction. This is what I learned from Berarnd Poolman, he taught me and all others he met to not accept and allow a limited version of ourselves, we are in fact life, we have the potential of life within and as who we are, this life is what allows us breath, is what gives us breath, is the self empowerment that exist here within principled living, but we are not yet here as life because we are in our minds seeking energy in self interest.

If you look at the physical, we are all just flesh and bones, made up of the same organic matter, everything else that is not physical organic matter here in reality is made up in our minds, is not real, the beliefs, the ideas, the religions, the self definitions, the fantasies and imaginations, and so we have to question and understand why we pretend, why we create illusion, why we limit ourselves to a life of hell as beliefs and self definitions, these answers and more are found in the Desteni Research involving the mind. So I will stop trying to live, but actually live for real through physical movement and action as myself, this is my commitment to life, I will live here and bring life within and through me until it is in fact all that exists, life here one and equal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within the desire to escape my responsibilities and use words half haphazardly to pretend I am doing what I say I will do when in reality I am just escaping having to face my fears and face myself, and really change my living to be something that is of worth and will stand within and as this physical reality as truth.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use words as a point of hiding my true intentions of not wanting to face myself and thus accept fear to direct me by continuing in my trap of self sabotage and existing as the mind in energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can lie to myself in believing that if I say I will 'try' then that is good enough, that I put in some effort and that my intention was good, but never actually committing to giving it everything of myself, living fully with all of me in each moment I breath.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live from fear only and exist within fear of living instead of giving myself the chance and opportunity to break free from this fear and live within the commitment of really doing it and use breath to walk the points through.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hide from myself due to fear of others and fearing what will come of this if I face myself in the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear facing feelings that will come up and emotions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself within who I am to fears, emotions, and feelings when I realize and see that these are illusions created in my mind, what is real is the physical and what is to be lived to create equality and do what is best for all through self honesty is within and through the physical as me as my physical body as breath.

When and as I see that I am using the word 'try', I stop and breath, and I realize that this is a point of self abdication to not have to face who I am and change in reality and stay in illusion as the mind.

I commit myself to correct myself in making definitive statements of who I am and who I will be in each moment that are direct and clear.

When and as I see I go into fear and desire to escape myself and my responsibilities, I stop and breath, and realize that this is limiting my living and wasting time.

I commit myself to let go of the fear when I see it comes up as it's not reality based, and find the solution that is relevant to come to a point of stability and walking what is best for all considering and living within the physical reality.

I commit myself to consider all before myself in seeing that I am part of a whole and it's not just me.

I commit myself to always consider my responsibility here and how life has to change, to be best for all through the living of this through me and thus live as an example for all others who can see and hear as I have seen and heard.

I commit myself to stand as an example of life here in the physical and stop the mind as illusion as thoughts, feelings/emotions, imaginations are not who I am, and thus I commit to direct the mind in my will as who I am as life one and equal to all that exist in the physical as what is real as this is life.

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Monday, August 19, 2013

Weakening the Physical through the MInd - Day 335

Within my physical I had pain on my left knee as well within my left hip, and within the pain there was like a weakness, like I could feel the knee as well as the hip area where the pain resides as weakened or compromised. Within these two areas the hip and the knee, they are indicating my self expression in the hip and flexibility, showing that as I exist within the energy of self compromise in my expression and becoming inflexible within who I am in each moment, this pain will continue and become worse if I don't change. So here going to walk some self forgiveness on inflexibility and suppressing my expression with others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to base through fear, fearing others thoughts and judgments towards me and so suppressing my expression and becoming inflexible within what I will do and what not through believing if i fully express myself in that moment I will be vulnerable for abuse by others not realizing that I in fact judge and have secret thoughts about others that I don't want to face and stop based on the power it gives me that I can see and say 'i am better', this just showing the separation and inferiority I am existing within myself compromising my opportunity to be life for real.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear others and thus fear expressing myself openly and freely.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself within my own mind create judgments of others when they do something or say something I see I can gain from instead of realizing that when I judge another I am condemning myself into self compromise based on the fact that I am really judging myself and creating a split within myself of polarity such as good or bad, where in reality this is not so, we are all here and we all have the ability to be and do what is best through equal opportunity and the divinity of all bring life.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to become inflexible within what I will do and not do due to fear of exposure and I realize that not going beyond my comfort zone and pushing my expression will only keep me trapped and caged into a limited version of myself and of my capabilities.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to create a judgment against life not realizing that when I judge i judge myself and so I will always be compromised in what i do because I am not seeing what is real and what is here, and thus never will be able to direct the situation into what is best because I am in competition to reality wanting to be the winner in these judgment scenarios.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to exist within this energy where it eat's away at my physical body and thus I am eating away at my ability to be free and fully expressive by compromising my ability to move myself in expression in the expansion that is possible in each moment letting go of fear and pushing my limits in every increasing ways forward to see who I really am in each moment stopping the trap of judging self.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear what others think of me and fear being expressive around others as I stop these judgments against others, I stand here with the self realization and an awareness that all life is me and that I need to embrace and accept life equal to me to realize that we will only live free when we accept each other and support each other to change as we support ourselves in equality.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe myself to be weakened based on my past and how others have treated me, and thus realize that the past does not define me and that it is not for real in terms of what i am picturing in my head, i realize I have to let go of the past and bring myself to where i am here in what i am doing in each moment of breath, making each moment a new moment of self expression and making it count substantially for the betterment of life.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to take others words towards me personal and see myself in the eyes of others rather then who I am within and as the eyes of me and my physical, perfecting my own self living realizing that everyone else is in their process and thus must walk the same process as well, I must stand as a point of support and direct as I have realized myself and stop taking things personal because it's not personal we are just mind systems existing in illusion and this is not life, what is real is me as the physical and who I am in my living with and towards others and myself to create life for real through the actual living and movement of myself.

Self commitments to follow.

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Sunday, August 18, 2013

Pills over Berries, are We Blind and Dumb? - Day 334

We have developed a trust so completely within the medications and the chemicals we put into our body as the cure for all, not considering or really ever doing researching on what the effects of these chemicals will have on the body all the while the reality is showing adverse effects. I am not saying that there all medications are harmful and bad, but that we rely too much on what corporations create for us rather then what the earth provides for us unconditionally as our natural mother. We don't use what makes sense as natural products and build from this for our physicals, but chose these chemical's created in competition and survival to be used for healing, allowing cut throat production, which creates holes and weakness in the product only for the benefit of a few to make a lot of money to use as our remedies. Animals and plants use nature for it's growth, substance, and living source, but we as humans do a real incoherent thing, we bottle things up, put a price tag on it, and make it about the value and worth of the now created product rather then the actual health and life that is being effected within the moment these products enter the body and start effect and creating consequence within the organic and biological chemistry that is functioning in real time every moment of breath.

This lack of concern of the consequence on life in what we consume not only falls within medications, but also the foods we eat and the liquid we drink, consuming man made chemicals designed to create feeling and experience within the person rather then the consequences it will have on the physical and how it will effect it adversely or beneficially using trickery and sly marketing tactics. Consuming food that has been genetically modified, drinking liquids that creates holes in bone, eating fast food that has unknown fibers within it unable to be identified, all of this in the news recently, I mean why do we allow and accept consumption on any kind with our bodies that is not to it's benefiting it and knowingly causing harm and preventable diseases create weakened human beings. Never mind the abuse and suffering we are causing to the animals we consume, test on, and sell as well as the raping and annihilation to the earth for the ever growing demand of the resources that is most definitely finite in it's limits.

Suggest to watch these documentaries for more on the deception within the food industry and pharmaceutical companies for profit:
Big Bucks, Big Pharma - Documentary
Food, Inc.
Earthlings
The Century of the Self - About Psychological Manipulation of the Masses

But unfortunately we do this on a daily basis, we accept and allow ourselves to consume for pleasure, for feeling good, for an experience of enjoyment, but in the end what is physically happening to the body is harm, abuse, and decay eventually and the harm, abuse, and decay of our environment and the natural world as well as the animals, plants, and the ocean life. And this is not something that happens quick, the sickness, disease, or weakness in the body and our world, it takes years to manifest, but sooner or later it will in deed manifest and create a too late scenario because we did not want to see the truth of reality and thus the truth of ourselves, we are abusive and don't take responsibility for the consequences we create as such.

And this suffering is all preventable, we can live in a way that is a mathematical certainty of creating the best life for everyone, through equality and oneness and doing what is best for all. Their are foods we know and understand that if are eaten will create a balance in the body, the natural foods that create substance and benefit to the body as well as ways to create things that is balance with nature and the resources she provides. But unfortunately we don't utilize these natural substance to heal and benefit the body and create systems that is best for all life, we have allowed the corporations and the elite in this world to take over and dump us on a pile of human created shit, our shit as we created this shit that is here, and if we don't clean this shit up, we are in for some serious shit that will create the end of us. If it's not obvious by now, this is our last life to make this a place that is best or we perish as we have not given the life that was given to us, thus we don't deserve life, we have squandered our chance to be life. So this is our final decision, will you be part of the solution and stand with equal life and the equal money system in the interim solution as the living income guarantee or will you be part of the problem and end at death, the decision is for you to make and walk, so make your life count and live what is best for all because that is what will be best for you always.

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Saturday, August 17, 2013

What Does it Mean to Walk Process and Never Give Up? - Day 333

I have found in my process a resolved strength within me based on my decision to never give up because I know through this decision that no matter what happens and what I face I will walk through it and find a solution. Now this doesn't mean that my process or the points I had faced or will face will be any easier, it simply means that I have a clarity within me and thus a simpler way of walking my process because I already know the decision I will take in all instances that may or might occur, and that is that I will never give up on myself and see it through to a solution or stability. Through this decision and living it for some time now, I have gained trust in myself because I have proven to myself that I can live this by actually living it and walking through some tough points.

I am not done of course, I have much to walk, but this stand within myself has supported me immensely to see each point I face through and not allow myself to get sucked into the mind in self pity or self defeatism. I have found this decision to be solid within me because of the respect I have of life and truth I see as self evident in the principles of life in who we are as one and equal to each other as the flesh, and the obvious creation this will bring forth if/when we as a group as humanity live this with each other and for each other never giving up on ourselves until all is one and equal as life. This takes a dedication within self and this application of never giving up is the living out of this dedication to in the face of the untruth which is our world of abuse and dishonor of life, to continue in the resolve that one day the truth of who we are as one and equal will be the natural order of how we live and I as life have changed to be a person that respect and honor life one and equal to how I would want to be respected and honored.

This application of never giving up I have decided upon ensures within me the inevitability of change, and I have already seen and witnessed this within my process because over time eventually change occurs. And I have fallen many times in many points this is how it is, but the point is that I always continue on and never give up. So when you find yourself at a point that you feel like you just can't go on, it's too much, you can't do this anymore, this is where the decision of this application to never give up will be useful especially because even when it does get tough, the direction forward is clear, you will not give up, ok done, I know what I have to do, I continue, I use the tools, I forgive myself, I see the change that is needed, and I move on.

Another helpful application I have applied in my process within points that seem tough or I fall in is the application of not judging myself for the fall and simply continue to move on, this also applicable to the decision to never give up because within this you will fall and you will see it is very difficult at times to get back up, but it's important to learn and accept yourself when this point of falling because it will happen many times, it's part of learning and change. And once the point has moved meaning I have found a stability again after the fall through breathing and when the energy release, I go 'ok, what happened there, why did I fall?' And then I find the points that I fell on or was dishonest within, and I walk the tools of self forgiveness, and I give myself the understanding to walk it through to correction and eventually it sticks, and I have changed.

So along with living self honestly, breathing as a stability, writing in self forgiveness and self introspection, and changing my living, my decision to never give up on myself and life here in what is best for all that I/we are walking remains here always within me and as me as I continue walking my process to life. And so never giving up on myself essentially has been a solid support for me to know that this process in a sense is already done, I just have to keep walking until I/we get there, when that is is irrelevant because it will be, so that's ok, I am ok, and I just keep walking because I realize I will never give up on myself and so I will be who I am as this statement until it is done.

Friday, August 16, 2013

Bernard Poolman– A Man of Life – Day 332

Bernard Poolman’s passing came as a shock to me, I had to read the email a few times to get the words I was reading through my head, and finally accepting the implication of these words that Bernard is died. I admit that in that moment, I went into a constriction and fear, with thoughts such as ‘what does this mean for me?’, ‘who is going to share with me the insights I need to become life?’, ‘why did he have to go?’, ‘how is the group going to stand without him?’ you know, selfish questions only regarding myself and my own benefit. So it’s interesting that I allowed these types of thoughts to come up showing to me that I in fact am not standing because I was living for his approval, his direction, I was waiting for his say, and not actually stepping into the principle of what he was living as, being my own stand, my own directive principle, and thus his equal. And so I was dishonoring him and the principle of life he stood as through this idea and desire to ‘wait and see what Bernard has to say’. Now, he is gone and I am alone, his last words etched into my physical of ‘make it count’ and this I commit to do, to give it everything I have to ensure that I indeed make my life count and be a plus one to accumulate a world of honor and integrity. My life is about finishing the work here on earth Bernard set forth, what he prepared us for through the years that we as a group have been walking together, and ensuring that life prevail and we create this world the best it possibly can be, heaven here on earth, and this only possible through living equal and one with all life as self. Living principled in always considering the whole rather then my own self interest in doing what is necessary to be done to create this world best for all.

There was so many words Bernard shared with me/those around me/in the group/in videos/blogs that spoke to me either directly or indirectly that caused an impact not just on this 'me', but the potential of who I can be as life fully realized, and in this time of knowing and working with Bernard I have become a being who will stand up for life no matter what needs to be done. Bernard inspired this within me through his selflessness, his determination and directive will, his insight into the depths of who I am, his service to others, I mean man he never stopped, he never quit, he never complained, he always no matter who or what the case was supported and assisted them in his very direct but gentle way, he walked whatever it took to give another a chance to self realize who they are as life, he was absolutely amazing to observe and learn from, he was the greatest teacher I have ever had. He showed me what it means to be here and be life, to live this through living breath by breath, his example inspired me to be in service of life in all it’s forms until life is equal and one here as a living principle on this earth because this is what I would want for myself. ‘I give so I can receive’, Bernard lived these words beyond death and made them life, and so showed me the way.

Bernard once said ‘I will be last’, and what he meant by this is that he will be last in the benefiting of the gift of life until all are one and equal in the physical, he was nothing but self less and shared himself unconditionally in ways that I would never have considered possible, he has done the impossible and made it real, and showed me and everyone he has met that we can do it to, we can do the impossible. This was his gift, he was life and he shared in all ways possible how to be life with each and every person he met and came into contact with. It seems impossible to be able to stop the mind, stop thoughts, have a 'nothingness' (as he often called it) inside self, live breath by breath, but Bernard is the evidence that it is indeed possible and thus will be the living example that stand through all time to be a benchmark for life 'potential' to live a life for real, and so no matter what - life will prevail.

Bernard was a man of life and lived this absolute, in which I am grateful and humbled, and honor him by committing myself to live this as well until it is done.

Some quotes By Bernard:

"I am not a leader, I am just a man, I am your equal and you are mine."

“You must become me as I am you, so that we can trust each other no matter where we are, no matter who we are.”

“Each one will first scare themselves shitless with doom and gloom, then bring it back to self, direct self and stand up. Each must go through this – that is the point of equality.”

"Free Choice as the choice that leaves all free and end all abuse is the Desteni way."

"See, it's really all about who you are in each relationship and how you see every other part in your Existence. You Decide. And thus, through that Decision - Create Reality and Relationships that Form the Experience."

"When you run out of things to forgive yourself for, a person may then have a right to condemn others their behavior but anyone who has looked at and forgiven every inch of themselves and vowed not to allow themselves the same mistakes again would not contain a heart capable of blame. A heart with that great of knowledge of themselves would live nothing but solutions."

"Feelings are Never Valid as an Integrity Assessment, Feelings are Always Dishonest because they are Done from the perspective of Enhancing one’s illusionary Reflections of the mind."

"Self as Eternal, as Real Does Not Exist until You are in fact Life and that is Evidenced in All of Everything that You are a part-of, where you completely Understand All Form, All Mechanisms, All Relationships – Until then, Self is just Potential and May Never Exist for Real – but in this Temporary Consciousness for a Moment, you’ll be Able to Look in a Mirror and Ask the Question “Mirror, Mirror on the Wall: What is the Self in it All?” and Unless that Stands Clear Eternally that This is Life: There will be No Self For Real."

"There is so much possible in the physical - unless one is just living like a zombie, hoping things will get better and using the mind as a mirror where you stare at your own image and try and improve it through your imagination. In you must exist nothing of 'you' in any picture-form. It must be a complete living expression as the functionality of every word...that makes a word alive."

"When a child is angry --one must communicate and help the child understand the energy they experience as feelings--this is done through helping the child to define the energy with words--you will for instance say--do you feel like you really do not like some one because they are better than you or get more than you? that is called jealousy--is that how you feel? So one will explore each possible feeling/emotion till the child can relate --then one discuss it and help the child make sense of it"

"If you are Life you will find a way to bring all to life as equals in a way that will always be best for all. If you are not life, you will react and have several insane stuttering giggles while you pretend you know better and can justify why life is not supposed to be equal."