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Saturday, October 31, 2015

Time and Process – Day 482

One of the sayings I have heard for a while and never really integrated was this one, “All of nature never rushes, yet the grass still grows, the tress still stand, the bees still buzz, everything get’s done in nature within the rhythm of nature itself”. I paraphrased that, though I am assuming the point is clear for this blog. What I have always resisted was to slow down enough based on the speed and movement of nature, which in essence is the movement of our physical breath. In and out, in and out, there is a rhythm to our breath, it is not fast nor is it slow, it is simply a movement of hereness I would call it. When you become aware of your breathing and stay focused on it, the mind stops and you suddenly hear all the earthly noises, the cars moving outside the window, the heat radiating through the vents, the stillness of the room, the birds chirping in the trees outside the window. There is so much going on here in breath that I have been missing because I am in my mind listening to the thoughts and the pace of thoughts and the mind movement which is fast, super fast.

The fear that exist within this seemingly ‘natural’ noise that occurs within the mind is that without the noise, what’ll happen? There is a belief of the uncertainty that without hearing the noise of thoughts and having the mind which is so familiar guide us and talk to us and think for us, we will be lost, we will not know how to function, we will not even know if we will live? Though, this breath is always here, no? I mean it is in fact keeping us alive, the mind doesn’t give us the breath of life, what that is, what gives us life is our physical body. Now, this is an important realization I have found that the physical body is equal to nature as they are both part of this earth, which is the physical existence itself. Nature and the physical body are both made up of the same organic material and they each have a breath of life within them. So this breath of life of the physical body is then equal as life of nature itself, we are in fact one and equal with nature itself based on the physical reality we live in. So that point of walking at the pace of the breath of life is in fact a rhythm we can all live within because just as nature does not rush, does not fret, does not react to it’s circumstances, but in fact lives and within that get’s everything done, this can also be applied to us human beings cause we are the same, we are physical, we are life, we are breath. We can get everything done if we walk as breath, in the mind this is not so easy.

I have found that I waste more time and energy when I rush in my mind as thoughts and emotions and fears, then when I am becoming aware of myself within what I am doing, being specific, applying myself in my breathing awareness. Life becomes more simple and more rhythmic when I am here, When I am in my mind, things become more chaotic, unclear, and more emotional, I am more apt to judge myself, to ridicule myself, and so this I will also do to others in my environment causing a seperation and a isolation that is suppressive and limiting. When I am in breath, there is an understanding to it because within myself I understand why and how I am doing something because I am in fact present with myself and the task as this breath awareness creates an awareness of the here moment, what is happening in reality, and so I am become more precise and create more perfection within reality. This breath awareness also creates an an accessiblity to see my mind move and how to stop it in moments because when you are here in breath you are moving slower, more precise, and with more presence, which counteracts the speed of the mind which is fast and filled with emotion. This takes time and patience as you walk the tools of self forgiveness, self honesty, and self correction, but if you stay committed and disciplined in this venture, you will align with breath and start to let go of the minds control and direct it as yourself.

I have always had a deep affinity and respect for nature and this was due to the fact of this aliveness, stillness, and gentleness that I was present within when I would stand within the middle of the forest, and witness that there is no force, there is no emotions, there is no conflict, no bickering, there is just hereness, living, and existing. So a realization to walk with is that time is not relevant within walking this process in the sense that it does not determine who you will be, moving faster then what it’ll take to walk a point will only in turn make the point extended and draw out cause of not being here in breath and so missing what is here and moments of opportunity to change. And so not being here where life is, but in my mind thinking about how I want things to move faster, there is a consequence and that is that you fuel the mind's illusions and miss yourself here as life. Breath is the key to being here where life is as the physical reality is what is real, the mind is illusion as it's based on dimensions within self, these we can't see or touch, but it certainly effects our day to day living. Walking the desteni i process has moved me within my daily application of it from mind chatter to breath awareness, it takes dedication and patience, though it is worth every moment. Enjoy your walk.

More Support on the topics of Time and Process:

Time Dimension Compression Possession
Energy Trumps Physical
Never Enough TIME

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Equal Life Foundation - Site

Friday, August 23, 2013

How to Live Patience - Day 338

So I have written about patience in the past, and found it throughout my process of changing myself to be able to live what is best for all in all moments has steadily become a point I can support myself with. I would like to be more steadfast within it and more disciplined, but that will come with time and actually living it, so I am not yet satisfied nor at a point where I can say I am living patiences.

I am going to place the word definition here to look at what the word means in this world:

Patience - the capacity to accept or tolerate delay, trouble, or suffering without getting angry or upset.

Interesting because I have been looking at anger today as I see this is a main trigger point within me when I go into reaction or conflict with another. It's quite cool though because through practicing patiences within my process and becoming more disciplined within stopping going into thought patterns or reactions, I have been able to see more clearly when I go into anger for instance, it's like an elephant in the room so to speak, it's quite obvious. And I find I still once I react in anger and release it through my words and actions, I go into a point of disappointment within myself like i should have known better and I should have stopped. But here it's important for me to remember that this point of judging myself is only causing a point of inner conflict and so will take longer to move through the point which will inevitable have to be transcended, and so it's quite pointless to keep judging myself for something that happened, and so just move through it and correct it.

Anyway back to this relationship of anger and patiences, patiences I have found is a stability point for me when the reality is showing me that it garners it, and the mind reaction to this reality has always usually been a point of anger and annoyance as blame and assumption toward whatever it is that was not whatever I approved of or desired to happen or get. So I have found patiences is an application of life, of equality, of unity with others, as you are putting yourself in the others shoes and thus ensuring that the other is or will eventually become equal to you in whatever it is that you are looking at or sharing that the other has to walk a process to learn and/or integrate within themselves.

But of course within this, one need to be self honest as self honesty is the key, because patiences by itself is not the key to living one and equal with life and all it's gifts, no, it is determined and lived out based on who the being is within the application of living patiently. So it all again goes to who you are, what you are living in each moment, and how you are applying yourself within what is happening in reality. For instance, one can be patient, but do it in a point of harm like in war or conflict, and so it's not simply to be patient in your living that matters, but what matters is who one is within the living patiently, it all is determined by self.

Another point that just occurred to me with being patient is the desire or need the mind creates within self to move quick, the mind as we can see is always moving very fast, we are thinking in the future one second, then we are in the past the next, then we are thinking about the burn on our leg that is beginning to become irritated with the sweat from the heat, and then we look into the crowds and we are judging another for the way they dressed so 'abnormally' that day, then back in the future to the party that's scheduled for tonight, then over to next friday where I have to work a double shift, then back to the present where that bill is overdue and a fear is immediately created and I accept as me, so we are moving and actually really zooming through our minds in all sorts of direction and all sorts of dimensions creating feelings/emotions and really energy movements, and thus we are constantly wanting to move quick and go fast through our day/life, never being able to sit still, be here, and just simply breath with nothing moving within, it seems impossible.

But life, such as the natural world as we see lives patiently, slowly, a plant growing from a seed to a mature tree/flower/bush takes a significant period of space and time, our physical bodies take a significant time to grow from a baby body to a mature adult body, it doesn't happen at the speed of a thought which is quite unnatural as it's movement is so quick, but a tree growing or our physical bodies growing is all real, is all natural, is all physical, and so it takes space and time, and patiences to see it to maturity.

So this is a cool analogy to realize that what is real, what is natural, what is physically applicable requires patiences, we require patience to live here in the physical and become the life we really are, this taking a process of self purification to really in fact live and become. We have to slow ourselves down and walk the process back to the physical, back to breath awareness, walking one breath at a time, breath by breath, stable, which indeed will require patience to see through to it's completion. This I am currently walking, and this application of slowing down I see has absolutely supported me to walk the change that I have walked so far and I know will support me to walk the rest of the points that are required to be life here as the physical.

Life I have realized is patient through supporting unconditionally within what has to be done no matter how long it will take, and allows adaption and correction when the principles are not being lived in what is best for all, but there is an end point realize, it will not continue as is so don't haste, we must remain self honest and walk the change as is necessary and required. So I will continue to apply patiences with myself until I am satisfied that I live this word as myself. Patiences redefined in it's living expression is a slowing down of self to align with breath in what is here and walk what is necessary in ensuring what is best for all until it is a reality.