Showing posts with label honor. Show all posts
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Sunday, March 10, 2019

The Gift that Keeps Giving - Self Forgiveness - Day 578




I am taking on a 30 day challenge of writing self forgiveness out in my blog every day, this to get back into the flow of writing my blog and working on daily points I face. I do lots of sounding self forgiveness and changing myself, I walk my process every moment, this process at desteni with the tools of self forgiveness and self honesty has become a part of the fabric of who I am, it has integrated into my cells is how I describe it, and it's due to consistency in my application, this similar to playing a sport and practicing. It is physical integration through repition, self will, and self creation.

Self forgiveness has been an extraordinary support in my life since I started practicing it many years ago, I can understand and so experience a release of the pattern and system I forgive and so giving myself the opportunity for transcendence by living the realization as correction from the self forgiveness itself.

This tool will always be here for me as I will always be here for myself, it is an eternal tool that is here for all to support all, it brings one back to themselves as life. All of life is now in the process of forgiving ourselves for what we have created as we see in this world many ills are occurring and so equally when I look in myself, many ills are occurring and have occurred. Though through forgiveness I can take each and everyone on and find solutions, live the courage to change, and in fact walk that change into my life and so all life as we are interconnected, equally as one.

Self forgiveness is a gift and it continues to give me the gift to eternal life, I see the alignments, one just has to walk it through this door and change oneself in honor of all life until all that remains is self here and so it is done.

Day 1 starts tomorrow!
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Monday, November 30, 2015

Family and Competition: The Pressure that Builds - Day 487



What causes the child to rebel against there parents as I had within my childhood? I mostly translate it to the fact that I didn’t know how to really connect with them in the way that my inner being desired. There was also this disconnect in a way that was created through words or the resonance of words that drove me to have inner conflict and anger outflowed into my world because I couldn’t articulate what it is I was wanting from my parents and what it is that I was experiencing within me, I had no idea what it was, though this inner voice was there and it was powerful. This obviously created frustration on both ends of the spectrum, myself were I would be chastised and partitioned away based on my parents not really having the time nor the real patience to hear me and get to the essence of what I was looking for. With my parents, where they didn’t have the opportunity or the know how to really connect with me on a deeper level and understand from a point of view that was necessary, they couldn’t walk this based on survival. And this is not to blame my parents or blame any point within myself or my childhood, but a real self honest understanding of what creates such a rift between parent and child growing up and into adulthood.

One of the key factors was money, there was always pressure and stress in relation to money and also there was also a pressure and stress within myself to live to a certain standard. This was impulsed from many directions in society be it schoolmates, billboards, tv, magazines, neighbors, celebrities and what I had or didn’t have was always running in the back of my mind. Everybody wants to be seen as the best/cool and no one wants to be seen other then this, so there is also this stress going on to be accepted, and within this, the parents are the only way for the child to fulfill this requirement to gain acceptance in their childhood. We had enough though there was always this feeling within me that I wanted more, there was never enough, I was always feeling inadequate in some way or another, and my parents not able to satisfy this self anger of not having enough, this rift started to form based on the idea that I had created that there must be something wrong with me or my family because I can’t get what ever one else has.

This then stemmed into my family structure where I started comparing myself to my sisters and seeing that I am not this and I don’t have that skill, I need that to feel fulfilled, but I don’t know how to get that. So there was not only the pressure of the outer world to be accepted, I was finding there was also a pressure within the family, the place were you are suppose to be most safe and comfortable, much was communicated between everyone and it was a lot of mental and physical pressure.


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Thursday, November 26, 2015

Family and Competition Part 2 - What Causes Lack? Day 485



So within my last blog I spoke about how the education system initiates children into the system within competition from the get go, showing us as adults who we are within what we are doing, does it register and do we even care that we are creating our entire society and what we do within it from a competitive starting point. I mean even at five years old, I became stressed and anxious within going to my first day of school, this is not the best environment for children nor what I would want any child to have to endure. We tend to use the excuse of “oh but it’s human nature, this is just how it is” or “they will survive, I mean I did and look at me, I am successful, I worked hard, I survived”. But again is this the best we can do? Is this how we want our children to be experiencing their worlds? Why not have a place were all are welcome, there is a place for everyone, everyone is accommodated, and we create solutions and tools to facilitate the best environment for all. 

This is most certainly possible, we are using the above excuses and one’s like those to avoid and not face the change that is inevitable within each one. We don’t want to change ourselves, we don’t want to change our minds, we don’t want to walk the talk so to speak of creating a better world because as we know this best for all society is not going to create itself, we in fact have to create it, build it, endure the trials and tribulations, the failures and miss-takes, everything this will take. And another point I have realized is that this world is not going to come about one that is best for all and considers all if each one doesn’t change within themselves to accommodate such a society, if we want to create peace and harmony, we have to do that internally in our own worlds/self.

Each (human) being is a universe, and so with great knowledge comes great responsibility, but the fruits of the labor put in is a world that will be heaven on earth, who can deny such a world and a world we can birth for our children to come who in essence is each one of us. So competition in our worlds is showing one thing currently and that is that we are not living life, but surviving, we are not finding solutions, but existing as the problem, we are not walking with others, but trying to destroy and become better then others. This I have found is due to the inherent insecurity each one of us feels about ourselves, so this point of insecurity and so superiority we all cycle within has to be investigated, corrected, and transcended to see the solutions that lie beyond that play out. This all takes a process and has already been walked by many on this earth, which is the desteni I process. It takes years of dedication and discipline to walk this journey to life, but there is no other choice for all those who stand within a self integrity and honor for life, we must get this done.

Here I will walk some self forgiveness on the point I mentioned in my childhood and the competition that is driven within the education system currently. This so I/we can support the solution of what is best and creating an equality within the education field.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe myself to be in competition with other people in my world based on a standard test that is placed on humans to gauge where they stand and how to systematize there living.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a system in place to limit and diminish the creative expressive ability of human life into standardized testing to put human life into categories where it’s easier to be controlled and hoarded around to facilitate the system of slave/master mentality we have made a way of life here on this earth.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to taint innocent life with survival and fear of survival based on the belief that some lack and some are more worthy in this physical earth, when I see, realize, and understand that there is neither lack nor fear that is necessary on this planet and that all things can be measured and walked into what is best based on the physical mathematical equations to see this through.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become greedy within myself where I desire to have more then others and create an experience for myself of more, when I see, realize, and understand that this experience is only a fleeting one and will never truly fulfill me, but only continue to diminish me as I continue this quest for more and so within that create equally create the experience of lack.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within the systematic experience of survival where lack is displayed and survival needs are developed through this belief based on the greed of self interest and desire for more.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into a point of self judgment when I do these things of harming life instead of forgiving myself, moving to the correction which is walking what is best for all, and moving into solutions immediately that will facilitate the best outcome for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become enslaved within my own creation based on following experiences of energy instead of remaining balanced here in breath and realizing and so living the principles of life that is here one and equal and doing what is best for all which will always create the best life for self in all ways.

When and as I see I am going into a form of desire and greed to gain more then another, I stop and breath, and realize that this will create the experience of superiority which will then in turn cycle through the experience of insecurity causing survival to activate and lack to become manifested.

I commit myself to let go of the desire to have more and walk what is best for all in all I do and live.

I commit myself to let go of the experience of superiority where I see I am more and then take more, by standing within an integrity of myself by stopping this thought and solving the problem which will create what is best for all involved.

I commit myself to stop the experience of lack and realize all the gifts already here in my life and living reality.

I commit myself to be grateful for life and my breath and stop the experiencing of not enough.


I commit myself to change myself to be the best version of myself and walk solutions so the children to come are respected and honored as equal physical beings the same as self here.

I will continue in my next blog, thanks.


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Friday, August 16, 2013

Bernard Poolman– A Man of Life – Day 332



Bernard Poolman’s passing came as a shock to me, I had to read the email a few times to get the words I was reading through my head, and finally accepting the implication of these words that Bernard is died. I admit that in that moment, I went into a constriction and fear, with thoughts such as ‘what does this mean for me?’, ‘who is going to share with me the insights I need to become life?’, ‘why did he have to go?’, ‘how is the group going to stand without him?’ you know, selfish questions only regarding myself and my own benefit. So it’s interesting that I allowed these types of thoughts to come up showing to me that I in fact am not standing because I was living for his approval, his direction, I was waiting for his say, and not actually stepping into the principle of what he was living as, being my own stand, my own directive principle, and thus his equal. And so I was dishonoring him and the principle of life he stood as through this idea and desire to ‘wait and see what Bernard has to say’. Now, he is gone and I am alone, his last words etched into my physical of ‘make it count’ and this I commit to do, to give it everything I have to ensure that I indeed make my life count and be a plus one to accumulate a world of honor and integrity. My life is about finishing the work here on earth Bernard set forth, what he prepared us for through the years that we as a group have been walking together, and ensuring that life prevail and we create this world the best it possibly can be, heaven here on earth, and this only possible through living equal and one with all life as self. Living principled in always considering the whole rather then my own self interest in doing what is necessary to be done to create this world best for all.

There was so many words Bernard shared with me/those around me/in the group/in videos/blogs that spoke to me either directly or indirectly that caused an impact not just on this 'me', but the potential of who I can be as life fully realized, and in this time of knowing and working with Bernard I have become a being who will stand up for life no matter what needs to be done. Bernard inspired this within me through his selflessness, his determination and directive will, his insight into the depths of who I am, his service to others, I mean man he never stopped, he never quit, he never complained, he always no matter who or what the case was supported and assisted them in his very direct but gentle way,  he walked whatever it took to give another a chance to self realize who they are as life, he was absolutely amazing to observe and learn from, he was the greatest teacher I have ever had. He showed me what it means to be here and be life, to live this through living breath by breath, his example inspired me to be in service of life in all it’s forms until life is equal and one here as a living principle on this earth because this is what I would want for myself. ‘I give so I can receive’, Bernard lived these words beyond death and made them life, and so showed me the way.

Bernard once said ‘I will be last’, and what he meant by this is that he will be last in the benefiting of the gift of life until all are one and equal in the physical, he was nothing but self less and shared himself unconditionally in ways that I would never have considered possible, he has done the impossible and made it real, and showed me and everyone he has met that we can do it to, we can do the impossible. This was his gift, he was life and he shared in all ways possible how to be life with each and every person he met and came into contact with. It seems impossible to be able to stop the mind, stop thoughts, have a 'nothingness' (as he often called it) inside self, live breath by breath, but Bernard is the evidence that it is indeed possible and thus will be the living example that stand through all time to be a benchmark for life 'potential' to live a life for real, and so no matter what - life will prevail.

Bernard was a man of life and lived this absolute, in which I am grateful and humbled, and honor him by committing myself to live this as well until it is done.

Some quotes By Bernard:

"I am not a leader, I am just a man, I am your equal and you are mine."

“You must become me as I am you, so that we can trust each other no matter where we are, no matter who we are.”

“Each one will first scare themselves shitless with doom and gloom, then bring it back to self, direct self and stand up. Each must go through this – that is the point of equality.”

"Free Choice as the choice that leaves all free and end all abuse is the Desteni way."

"See, it's really all about who you are in each relationship and how you see every other part in your Existence. You Decide. And thus, through that Decision - Create Reality and Relationships that Form the Experience."

"When you run out of things to forgive yourself for, a person may then have a right to condemn others their behavior but anyone who has looked at and forgiven every inch of themselves and vowed not to allow themselves the same mistakes again would not contain a heart capable of blame. A heart with that great of knowledge of themselves would live nothing but solutions."

"Feelings are Never Valid as an Integrity Assessment, Feelings are Always Dishonest because they are Done from the perspective of Enhancing one’s illusionary Reflections of the mind."

"Self as Eternal, as Real Does Not Exist until You are in fact Life and that is Evidenced in All of Everything that You are a part-of, where you completely Understand All Form, All Mechanisms, All Relationships – Until then, Self is just Potential and May Never Exist for Real – but in this Temporary Consciousness for a Moment, you’ll be Able to Look in a Mirror and Ask the Question “Mirror, Mirror on the Wall: What is the Self in it All?” and Unless that Stands Clear Eternally that This is Life: There will be No Self For Real."

"There is so much possible in the physical - unless one is just living like a zombie, hoping things will get better and using the mind as a mirror where you stare at your own image and try and improve it through your imagination. In you must exist nothing of 'you' in any picture-form. It must be a complete living expression as the functionality of every word...that makes a word alive."

"When a child is angry --one must communicate and help the child understand the energy they experience as feelings--this is done through helping the child to define the energy with words--you will for instance say--do you feel like you really do not like some one because they are better than you or get more than you? that is called jealousy--is that how you feel? So one will explore each possible feeling/emotion till the child can relate --then one discuss it and help the child make sense of it"

"If you are Life you will find a way to bring all to life as equals in a way that will always be best for all. If you are not life, you will react and have several insane stuttering giggles while you pretend you know better and can justify why life is not supposed to be equal."


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