So am postponing the point I have been walking in regards to Men are strong, Women are Weak as their is a point or a few points that came up today that require some self forgiveness and correction immediately.
I work for my father's business, and so he asked me today to investigate a gadget he is having some issues with. I was in the process of investigating the issue, and had to go in his office to check on some things while on the phone with tech support. As I was sitting in his desk, I had the thought that 'I should look and make sure my passport is in where it's suppose to be'. I checked the spot where they always are, and all the other usual passports were there, but mine. Immediately, I go to blame and the memory of where when I told my mom I was going back to SA and she said kiddingly, she is going to take my passport and hide it. So I assumed that she took it and did something with it, and I within myself allowed the rush of anger and thoughts of blame and diminishment to start to accumulate.
I went to her desk and asked her, 'did you take my passport?', she looked at me and was uncertain. Last time I went, she did take it and put it somewhere and so she couldn't remember if it was the case this go around, so she was uncertain and was worried and upset the whole day because the passport was missing, and I was assuming and essentially blaming my mom that it was her fault that the passport was gone. Later, we figured out it probably was not her because she was 'pretty' certain she didn't take it and my dad thought that she didn't take it as well, so my next victim of blame was my ex-boyfriend! whom I haven't seen or really talked to in months now. So started to accumulate thoughts of blame towards him, and follow them, where I wanted to text him with some attitude and ask him where my passport is because I assumed he stole it somehow as a memory I was holding onto of him.
This call didn't occur because I looked in the spot I was figuring it was, and I found the passport, the same place I put it few days after I returned from the farm about a year ago. So to correct this point, I see I have to walk the point out in self forgiveness in blaming others in an attempt to prove myself right and that it has to be someone else's fault because I don't make mistakes, and trusting memories as real life when they are essentially made up with an origin I don't know nor can't remember myself. So being self righteous and abusing others in an attempt to prove this point to myself, and using others as collateral to make me as ego more within the attempt to be seen by others as the best and right.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to assume that another is to blame before I physically investigated all the scenarios that are here to be investigated and find the solution to the issue that was at hand, in this case where my passport had gone. I realize and understand that when I go into an assumption it is based on my mind ideas and beliefs based on memories that are not here but from the past where it is distorted and not accurate as it is not real, but coming up within illusions of pictures and thoughts that I am not certain of as they are coming from a place within me that I can not tangible investigate and find it's origin/source immediately thus I realize I can not trust it as I am not absolute as here. Thus I realize and see it is always best to walk the physical, stop the thoughts of assumptions as memories and find the solutions to the problems at hand as that is what is the matter, when I go into the assumptions, I am going into the mind thus deliberately abusing life for my own self interest as I see that this point of going into the mind is me trying to prove I am right, and thus abusing life within the name of self interest as memories as illusions coming from the mind which is not absolute but uncertainty.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to go into the mind and abuse life within my assumptions about the matter at hand and thus immediately go into ego and find fault in another because within myself I am 'believing' that I am right. I realize and see that when I go into assumptions as belief that I am not actually here in reality and thus I will compromise myself more times then not as I am not on solid ground and can easily be misled as I can't see what is here as memories and thoughts aren't here, but in other dimensions which aren't tangible nor substancial, so easily I am able to get misled and lost within it, thus I am not here and lost. So I realize when I walk within and as the physical in the points where I assessed the passport could be without projecting blame and stopping memories and thought accumulation, I would have walked the steps to the solution as the point that I found the passport in was my initial assessment and was able to be physically walked and resolved if I but made the decision to stick to the physical and walk what is here in equality and consideration of all as me.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to go into blame towards my mom and my ex boyfriend based on this desire within myself to be right and others wrong, so I can prove to myself like tallies on a wall that I am a winner and that others are loser because I am still desiring to have power over others where I want to be seen as the best and gain that acceptance of this from others. I realize and see when I allow the thoughts to accumulate of blame towards others I will use this to gain power for myself and thus use this energy as the thinking generates to fuel the ego and cause the abuse that will be the outflow to the emotion and feeling reactions that I participate in when I go into blame and separation towards another. I realize and see when I miss reality as I am stuck now within the thoughts and the accumulation only grows as I am fueling the energy as these thoughts and thus I act out this accumulation of thought energy that I have fueled now by thinking about it where I yelled and got angry at my mom and was about to call my ex boyfriend and give him some attitude to show that he is in the wrong and I am the one who is going to be right so thus fueling my ego, separating myself from life and abusing life, which is accepting the mind and my own enslavement as I realize I am not my mind as accumulated energy, but life one and equal to all and thus have the opportunity to live this if I but will it.
Within this I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to go into blame and anger towards my mom and ex boyfriend based on the fact of this desire to prove to myself that I am right because I desire to be seen as the best among others and thus when I prove that I am right within such instances where I call another out and then was correct I will use this against others to make myself look better and diminish the other so thus I can grow in my ego presence and show that I am dominant, I am the best, and thus I am very smart because I can see that others are doing stuff 'wrong' and I was 'right'. I realize and see that this whole play-out of blame and being 'right' is a game I am playing with myself because I am not accepting myself and thus using others to show myself that I am smart, I am right, I am better, because within I am not seeing myself as such, so abusing others for my ego to feel good and thus abusing life for my own limited happiness as acceptance through energy accumulation as separation which will never last and very limiting to how I realize I am as life one and equal as this physical existence as I am life and I am physical.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to go into backchat blame towards my mom and diminish her within seeing her as dumb because I was judging her that she can't remember anything instead of standing here one and equal as her as myself and seeing that I didn't know if I took it and put it somewhere or not thus seeing I am doing the same thing I am blaming her for and using backchat as a secret point so I can feel good about myself while another is compromised but I realize I am only compromising myself as I am showing life who I am as an abuser as I chose energy over what is best for all thus I will lose in the end as I as energy will end.
Thus I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to abdicate my self responsibility to stop the blame and projection onto others and investigate for myself what is here to be investigated, stop the blame in an attempt to not have to face myself as 'wrong', and stand as the solution where I accept all as me and understand that all points must be considered before I rush to judgment.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to live within the polarity of right/wrong towards life and what is here within my world and instead walk with life in equality and realize that all here is me and that life here is not trying to harm or do me wrong, but walking for now in 'imperfections' until we are here as one in perfection, so it's to understand I am the other and that I am the 'fault' thus I myself have to walk the correction and stop the faulty living within and as myself as I am it in the moment it occur anyway as I am the creator of all I am living and experiencing within and without of my world as I am all that is here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to blame my ex boyfriend and thus follow thoughts as memories of him in the past were I blamed him for what he had acted like and thus held it against him and still am not seeing that I accepted and allowed it within my world and thus am participating within and as this point myself, so it's to stop my blame and the memories in relation to my ex and walk here within self correction were I equalize myself with the life here as the physical and walk with those that are here to walk with and thus stop my blame by stopping the memories of the past and support life here one and equal to how I would like to be supported.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to abuse life for my own happiness and thus disregard the physical reality and what is actually happening here and only be a mind as assumptions, blame, and disregard to life. I realize and understand that this is not who I accept myself to be, I am life and thus I am not only a proving point and a desire to be more, but am here with and as life in equality and thus I can in a single breath stop this participation of blame, anger, projection, ego as self righteous, memories as thoughts, and stand in equality in the physical and come to practical solutions where no one is harmed and life is honored. I realize to walk a new world as myself I must stop the blame and ego as self righteousness, and walk in humbleness as the physical reality to solutions that support all and consider all equal and one to myself.
Self Commitment Statements to follow.
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Tuesday, July 10, 2012
Sunday, July 8, 2012
Day 79-Men are Strong, Women are Weak Part 1
Looking at this point that came up within speaking my vlog tonight about the point of me and judging myself as not being feminine enough as a women. I see within myself I have created an idea since childhood that women are weak and men are strong, so thus lived into this point of being more masculine/male because I desired to be strong and seen as strong as I was a competitor and wanted to be seen as the best within all I did thus I had to be the best and thus I saw I had to create myself more as a male. Within myself however, I have an inclination to be more masculine in terms of my expression, so I am this within my natural expression, but will not and do not limit myself by any sort of definition of how man and women should be or define ourselves by, but simply live in how we see that we would like to express and be free to express in this way equal and one to all in what is best for all life.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to from my childhood create an idea that men are stronger then women based on the way my parents were within their relationship where I saw my dad was more dominant and was the final say in terms of the decisions of the family, and my mom was more the one who was the care taker and had a say, but not like my dad who was more forceful and dominant then my mom. I realize and see within holding on to this idea of my parents as strong and weak in terms of the layout of their relationship and the dynamics of our family structure that it was based on the structure of the family system in society of how men were seen and pushed to be the strong and heads of the household and thus seen in a more of an authoritative and dominant place within this world/society/family and is not what is real as I realize what is real is that we are equal and have equal responsibility to create whats here in all facets of life to be best for all and not separate ourselves into gender roles as strong/weak based on society standards/traditions.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to hold onto the idea that because of what my dad was like growing up as dominant/strong/a decisive force in my life I assumed and associated this is what all men were and that they within themselves are the ones who are able to take on more of a leadership role and do the points within the physical that take strength and are challenging, were I identified myself and related to my dad within this because within myself I had the desire to be in this way as well, strong physically and capable physically to handle and do what is necessary to be done to get things moving and solve problems. I related to my dad and thus became more infatuated with him were I saw him as a 'god'head and that he is the one that is the best in my family because he is strong and I saw that he can do anything, he was able to always fix things and answer all my questions that I came up with, and thus grew more of an infinity to him and grew a desire to be like him because of the power I saw he held within the role he played in the family. I realize and understand that my desire to be strong and the best within my world placed judgments on points within my world, where I defined others by this strong weak point based on the idea that those who were strong physically, dominant, and decisive where the ones I wanted to be like, and thus I associated the strong with male as the figure in my life who exemplified this was my father. I realize and see that strength is not defined by what one can do physically or who one is within their sex, but is based on who one is within their living and how they are in regards to life, do they live in equal and one to others and respect others and self in this regard.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to hold onto a desire to be like my dad growing up because I desired to be strong and seen as strong by others and thus I push myself to be within this male role and push myself to compete with men so I can be within myself knowing that I am the best because I can beat men and be equal in what I am doing and essentially prove that I am just as strong as men.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself within myself to desire to prove that I am able to compete with me to myself as I held a standard of perfection within myself and I would only see myself as this perfection point if I was able to beat all points within my world and I saw this within beating men as they were the strongest and the competition was always based on sports.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to desire to beat others and define myself as the winner.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to hold onto a standard of perfection and push myself to be this winner so thus I could see myself as perfect.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to see life within strong weak within physical capabilities and thus define life within this way.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to see life within a strong/weak polarity based on dominance within the demeanor of the being and always associate and connect this to being male based on the stature and shape of their physical and their role within society as the head of households.
To be continued....
2012, desteni, eqafe, equality, father figures, head of household, journey to life, men are from mars, men are strong, men vs. women, women from venus, women weak, family make up, family dynamics, family ties, mother, father roles
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to from my childhood create an idea that men are stronger then women based on the way my parents were within their relationship where I saw my dad was more dominant and was the final say in terms of the decisions of the family, and my mom was more the one who was the care taker and had a say, but not like my dad who was more forceful and dominant then my mom. I realize and see within holding on to this idea of my parents as strong and weak in terms of the layout of their relationship and the dynamics of our family structure that it was based on the structure of the family system in society of how men were seen and pushed to be the strong and heads of the household and thus seen in a more of an authoritative and dominant place within this world/society/family and is not what is real as I realize what is real is that we are equal and have equal responsibility to create whats here in all facets of life to be best for all and not separate ourselves into gender roles as strong/weak based on society standards/traditions.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to hold onto the idea that because of what my dad was like growing up as dominant/strong/a decisive force in my life I assumed and associated this is what all men were and that they within themselves are the ones who are able to take on more of a leadership role and do the points within the physical that take strength and are challenging, were I identified myself and related to my dad within this because within myself I had the desire to be in this way as well, strong physically and capable physically to handle and do what is necessary to be done to get things moving and solve problems. I related to my dad and thus became more infatuated with him were I saw him as a 'god'head and that he is the one that is the best in my family because he is strong and I saw that he can do anything, he was able to always fix things and answer all my questions that I came up with, and thus grew more of an infinity to him and grew a desire to be like him because of the power I saw he held within the role he played in the family. I realize and understand that my desire to be strong and the best within my world placed judgments on points within my world, where I defined others by this strong weak point based on the idea that those who were strong physically, dominant, and decisive where the ones I wanted to be like, and thus I associated the strong with male as the figure in my life who exemplified this was my father. I realize and see that strength is not defined by what one can do physically or who one is within their sex, but is based on who one is within their living and how they are in regards to life, do they live in equal and one to others and respect others and self in this regard.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to hold onto a desire to be like my dad growing up because I desired to be strong and seen as strong by others and thus I push myself to be within this male role and push myself to compete with men so I can be within myself knowing that I am the best because I can beat men and be equal in what I am doing and essentially prove that I am just as strong as men.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself within myself to desire to prove that I am able to compete with me to myself as I held a standard of perfection within myself and I would only see myself as this perfection point if I was able to beat all points within my world and I saw this within beating men as they were the strongest and the competition was always based on sports.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to desire to beat others and define myself as the winner.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to hold onto a standard of perfection and push myself to be this winner so thus I could see myself as perfect.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to see life within strong weak within physical capabilities and thus define life within this way.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to see life within a strong/weak polarity based on dominance within the demeanor of the being and always associate and connect this to being male based on the stature and shape of their physical and their role within society as the head of households.
To be continued....
2012, desteni, eqafe, equality, father figures, head of household, journey to life, men are from mars, men are strong, men vs. women, women from venus, women weak, family make up, family dynamics, family ties, mother, father roles
Saturday, July 7, 2012
Day 78- Compromising My Body for Others
I am doing self forgiveness on compromising my body by desiring to look more feminine by putting earrings in my ears, and thus abusing my body by making deliberate holes, when I didn't really care either way but I did it for societies/others approval because I see myself quite masculine. My body has since rejected all earrings in the ear by making it very itchy, irritated, and always closing up so it's very painful to try and put them in. So I since a while now do not wear and will not wear any earrings, and am sorry I compromised myself for approval by others because I am not accepting myself.
I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to see/realize/understand that I am acceptable and ok just the way I am here, that I don't have to distort or change my body or image to become acceptable in the eyes of others or society, and so to do this is based on the fact that I am not accepting myself here and thus am judging myself due to an idea.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to desire to change my image and appearance to be more feminine by putting earrings in my ears because I see myself as masculine and that I am quite boyish in terms of the way I dress and carry myself as I do not enjoy the makeup, dressed up look, but prefer comfortable, casual dress. Here I judge myself as masculine and see this as a negative experience as I realize that I am judging this masculine look as being a lesbian, and I don't desire people to see me as this.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to judge this look of being masculine within a fear of others seeing me in this way and thus assuming that I am a lesbian based on my look because within myself I have judged others look and judged them for being a person who is homosexual as a 'gross' thing.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to judge homosexual behavior as a gross thing based on the fear of myself being this and having others see me in this way.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear being homosexual based on the stigma and cruelty others show people who express themselves in this way, and thus I fear the ridicule and stigma of being homosexual but realize and creating the abuse and separation I don't want for myself. I realize that this is not who I am and thus I stand up and stop fear and judgment of others expression and who they are and live here in breath with all life equal and one and treat others how I would like to be treated.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear others thoughts about me if I was a homosexual and having to face that person based on actually projecting my own prejudices against those who are homosexual and believing that that is what others are thinking of me when I dress more masculine and casual.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear being homosexual based on the fear of humiliation from family and friends.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to judge those who are homosexual and actually fear them being attracted to me or liking me.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to place my own fear of being homosexual onto others and thus go into a blame towards them for the fear that is actually existent within myself and who I am as a being.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to desire to prove that I like men so no being will think that I am a homosexual.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear being called a homosexual by others.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to go into anger as violence when my sister called me a dike back when we were fighting when I was younger and I punched her across the face.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to use physical anger as violence onto others because I fear facing myself and who I am within myself.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not allow myself to be free with all life within my world and the world as a whole and thus do not discriminate nor judge any being based on any point that is there preference, and only act when life is not being supported equal and one and life is not being honored in the best way possible for all, allow and accept life as me in all ways.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to hold on to fear of who I am as a being based on rejection and thus change my physical body or appearance to please others and miss myself within compromising my physical and my self integrity as who I am within myself and stand as the being I am one and equal with all and this include respecting and honoring myself as well as my physical body.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to cause abuse and pain to my body when I pierced holes in my ears for the satisfaction of others and society approval instead of realizing the only satisfaction I will attain is through myself within being true to myself and not compromising who I am for others but always standing and living within honor and respect of who I am as life and stop compromising myself through fear.
When and as I go into this fear of being seen in a way that I don't desire such as being seen as a homosexual, I stop breath, and let go of this fear and judgment I place on being homosexual. I realize and see no matter who one is within themselves and their expression as long as no abuse is being done within self honesty and life is honored and respected in what is best for all one is free to live and be who one wants to be in terms of who they want to partner up with or express themselves with or as. I stop my fear of this and stand within my own expression in what I would like to do in all facets of life equal and one to all and to self as well, and allow myself to live and express in self comfortability.
When and as I desire to change my physical to please others or society, I stop and breath, and do not accept myself to go into this point of self compromise and self sabotage, by standing up and facing others as myself, challenging others beliefs and ideas of what society or people should be or look like, and just walk my expression. I stop compromising myself for others and honor me and respect who I am within myself in all ways as life should be.
I commit to stop fearing others expressions within who they are and walk with and get to know others in equality for real stopping the illusions of thoughts, judgments, and ideas, but physical on a real level see who the person is over time and access in common sense and in self honesty equal and one to how I would like to be treated and walk what is real here in physical reality.
I commit to stop fearing what others think of me or who I am within how i express myself and thus stop fearing my own expression. I commit to allow myself to express myself in freedom and without limitation and stop the fear of living me.
I commit to stop the judgment of others within who they are and how they express themselves and allow all life to live without limitation as mind delusions and walk equal and one with others as how I would like to be treated.
I commit to stop abusing my body and physical for the mind as fears and ideas of myself so thus I commit to take responsibility and face myself in who I am here in all ways by self investigating and forgiving myself for the points that do not honor life as myself in oneness and equal, and always walk the correction to direct myself as life in decency and what is best for all.
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I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to see/realize/understand that I am acceptable and ok just the way I am here, that I don't have to distort or change my body or image to become acceptable in the eyes of others or society, and so to do this is based on the fact that I am not accepting myself here and thus am judging myself due to an idea.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to desire to change my image and appearance to be more feminine by putting earrings in my ears because I see myself as masculine and that I am quite boyish in terms of the way I dress and carry myself as I do not enjoy the makeup, dressed up look, but prefer comfortable, casual dress. Here I judge myself as masculine and see this as a negative experience as I realize that I am judging this masculine look as being a lesbian, and I don't desire people to see me as this.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to judge this look of being masculine within a fear of others seeing me in this way and thus assuming that I am a lesbian based on my look because within myself I have judged others look and judged them for being a person who is homosexual as a 'gross' thing.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to judge homosexual behavior as a gross thing based on the fear of myself being this and having others see me in this way.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear being homosexual based on the stigma and cruelty others show people who express themselves in this way, and thus I fear the ridicule and stigma of being homosexual but realize and creating the abuse and separation I don't want for myself. I realize that this is not who I am and thus I stand up and stop fear and judgment of others expression and who they are and live here in breath with all life equal and one and treat others how I would like to be treated.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear others thoughts about me if I was a homosexual and having to face that person based on actually projecting my own prejudices against those who are homosexual and believing that that is what others are thinking of me when I dress more masculine and casual.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear being homosexual based on the fear of humiliation from family and friends.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to judge those who are homosexual and actually fear them being attracted to me or liking me.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to place my own fear of being homosexual onto others and thus go into a blame towards them for the fear that is actually existent within myself and who I am as a being.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to desire to prove that I like men so no being will think that I am a homosexual.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear being called a homosexual by others.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to go into anger as violence when my sister called me a dike back when we were fighting when I was younger and I punched her across the face.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to use physical anger as violence onto others because I fear facing myself and who I am within myself.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not allow myself to be free with all life within my world and the world as a whole and thus do not discriminate nor judge any being based on any point that is there preference, and only act when life is not being supported equal and one and life is not being honored in the best way possible for all, allow and accept life as me in all ways.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to hold on to fear of who I am as a being based on rejection and thus change my physical body or appearance to please others and miss myself within compromising my physical and my self integrity as who I am within myself and stand as the being I am one and equal with all and this include respecting and honoring myself as well as my physical body.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to cause abuse and pain to my body when I pierced holes in my ears for the satisfaction of others and society approval instead of realizing the only satisfaction I will attain is through myself within being true to myself and not compromising who I am for others but always standing and living within honor and respect of who I am as life and stop compromising myself through fear.
When and as I go into this fear of being seen in a way that I don't desire such as being seen as a homosexual, I stop breath, and let go of this fear and judgment I place on being homosexual. I realize and see no matter who one is within themselves and their expression as long as no abuse is being done within self honesty and life is honored and respected in what is best for all one is free to live and be who one wants to be in terms of who they want to partner up with or express themselves with or as. I stop my fear of this and stand within my own expression in what I would like to do in all facets of life equal and one to all and to self as well, and allow myself to live and express in self comfortability.
When and as I desire to change my physical to please others or society, I stop and breath, and do not accept myself to go into this point of self compromise and self sabotage, by standing up and facing others as myself, challenging others beliefs and ideas of what society or people should be or look like, and just walk my expression. I stop compromising myself for others and honor me and respect who I am within myself in all ways as life should be.
I commit to stop fearing others expressions within who they are and walk with and get to know others in equality for real stopping the illusions of thoughts, judgments, and ideas, but physical on a real level see who the person is over time and access in common sense and in self honesty equal and one to how I would like to be treated and walk what is real here in physical reality.
I commit to stop fearing what others think of me or who I am within how i express myself and thus stop fearing my own expression. I commit to allow myself to express myself in freedom and without limitation and stop the fear of living me.
I commit to stop the judgment of others within who they are and how they express themselves and allow all life to live without limitation as mind delusions and walk equal and one with others as how I would like to be treated.
I commit to stop abusing my body and physical for the mind as fears and ideas of myself so thus I commit to take responsibility and face myself in who I am here in all ways by self investigating and forgiving myself for the points that do not honor life as myself in oneness and equal, and always walk the correction to direct myself as life in decency and what is best for all.
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Friday, July 6, 2012
Day 77 - The People Pleaser Character
I see at work that I go into this people pleaser character to try and either make another like me or make it easier for me.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to go into a inferiority towards others and thus desire to please them so I can be liked and seen as acceptable by these others as I am judging myself and seeing myself not as worthy as them. Within this I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to hold a judgment against myself that I am not as worthy to others and thus go into inferiority because I see myself as not as capable and thus have to do something to be able to be equal again with these people, thus I will go into the people pleasing character to build myself up within myself and give them a good experience with me so I can get the liking back in return. I realize and understand that within this way of living of separating myself from others and believing that I have to please others to be liked because I see myself as not as worthy as others is sabotaging myself as I have accepted myself as weak among life here and that I will not be able to stand equal but will fall as I see myself in judgment. I realize that I have to let go of the judgment of myself as weak and thus be here within the principles and reality of life that we are, not what we believe ourselves to be as that is ever changing and done based on delusions within thoughts as the mind as pictures and ideas, but be able to live in real life in the physical and become equal as the physical as what is matter is it is real here as the physical and base life on this simplistic truth as this is who I am here physical one and equal with all that exist.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe the thoughts that I am no good and unworthy and thus living into these thoughts, which will make them real. I realize that when I accept myself as these thoughts of unworthiness and no good I will live this out as I am responsible for me and create who I am, so thus the correction and what I commit myself to is to walk all thoughts that are separations from who I am here as life in self forgiveness to thus be able to purify myself and see the pattern and correct the pattern by walking it in my life and living the correction, so I am taking responsibility for myself and living the truth of myself, that I am equal and one and thus will live this in fact in the process to purification as self realization in self correction through self forgiving my faulty ways.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to see others 'strengths' within who they are in comparison to myself and thus judge myself based on compering who I am to them. I realize that within this comparison I am not in self honesty and thus only following my judgments and thus desires to be more. Thus I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to go into comparison towards others based on desiring the others strengths as I see and believe that I can not be that, thus go into jealousy towards the other and go into backchat as nastiness to try and make myself seem better because I feel less then based on holding onto this jealousy and comparison. I realize that I must stop the judgment of myself and others in polarities of weak strong and thus define people from this.
I commit to stop judging and comparing life and see life for what it is here in equilibrium where all are walking their process at different levels and all have different 'talents' in all different areas, thus I stop comparing myself to others and walk here within and as who I am as life as all others.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to go into jealousy and thus nasty back chat of diminishing others because I allowed this jealousy to take me over because I don't accept myself. I cause abuse within myself by judging life and thus diminish myself because I am the life I am diminishing within my back chat and being jealousy about. I am not limited within my expression in relative terms and neither is anyone else, thus I stop my separation through stopping my participation in jealousy and backchat, and accept myself as well as all others and appreciate others as I would want for me.
I commit myself to stop pleasing others through fear and seeing myself less then but live within reality in the physical and stand within the principles of what is best for all in equality and oneness and respect others as well as myself as equals nothing more nothing less.
I commit myself to stop judging myself as less then others and sabotaging myself with others and stand up and walk in the physical with and as others as equal. I don't accept myself to diminish myself thus I stop all judgments as they come in breath of myself and all life.
I commit myself to stop all backchat based on my desire to be like another and believing I cant.
I commit myself to stop jealousy towards others based on believing I can't have what others have thus stopping desire and expectations and living here and being free of wants and desires and expectations by stopping participation and realizing that I have always been here and am here in all-ways.
I commit myself to be humble and work with myself to thus walk self acceptance by stopping the thoughts, ideas, and judgments that I am not as worthy, and thus stopping this with all life and letting go of the desire to judge in each breath and standing here with life and living equal and one as how I would like for myself.
people pleaser, being liked, having friends, jealousy is always nasty, jealous person, not worthy of life, equality, solutions, self help, desteni, process, journey to life, equal life, 2012
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to go into a inferiority towards others and thus desire to please them so I can be liked and seen as acceptable by these others as I am judging myself and seeing myself not as worthy as them. Within this I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to hold a judgment against myself that I am not as worthy to others and thus go into inferiority because I see myself as not as capable and thus have to do something to be able to be equal again with these people, thus I will go into the people pleasing character to build myself up within myself and give them a good experience with me so I can get the liking back in return. I realize and understand that within this way of living of separating myself from others and believing that I have to please others to be liked because I see myself as not as worthy as others is sabotaging myself as I have accepted myself as weak among life here and that I will not be able to stand equal but will fall as I see myself in judgment. I realize that I have to let go of the judgment of myself as weak and thus be here within the principles and reality of life that we are, not what we believe ourselves to be as that is ever changing and done based on delusions within thoughts as the mind as pictures and ideas, but be able to live in real life in the physical and become equal as the physical as what is matter is it is real here as the physical and base life on this simplistic truth as this is who I am here physical one and equal with all that exist.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe the thoughts that I am no good and unworthy and thus living into these thoughts, which will make them real. I realize that when I accept myself as these thoughts of unworthiness and no good I will live this out as I am responsible for me and create who I am, so thus the correction and what I commit myself to is to walk all thoughts that are separations from who I am here as life in self forgiveness to thus be able to purify myself and see the pattern and correct the pattern by walking it in my life and living the correction, so I am taking responsibility for myself and living the truth of myself, that I am equal and one and thus will live this in fact in the process to purification as self realization in self correction through self forgiving my faulty ways.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to see others 'strengths' within who they are in comparison to myself and thus judge myself based on compering who I am to them. I realize that within this comparison I am not in self honesty and thus only following my judgments and thus desires to be more. Thus I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to go into comparison towards others based on desiring the others strengths as I see and believe that I can not be that, thus go into jealousy towards the other and go into backchat as nastiness to try and make myself seem better because I feel less then based on holding onto this jealousy and comparison. I realize that I must stop the judgment of myself and others in polarities of weak strong and thus define people from this.
I commit to stop judging and comparing life and see life for what it is here in equilibrium where all are walking their process at different levels and all have different 'talents' in all different areas, thus I stop comparing myself to others and walk here within and as who I am as life as all others.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to go into jealousy and thus nasty back chat of diminishing others because I allowed this jealousy to take me over because I don't accept myself. I cause abuse within myself by judging life and thus diminish myself because I am the life I am diminishing within my back chat and being jealousy about. I am not limited within my expression in relative terms and neither is anyone else, thus I stop my separation through stopping my participation in jealousy and backchat, and accept myself as well as all others and appreciate others as I would want for me.
I commit myself to stop pleasing others through fear and seeing myself less then but live within reality in the physical and stand within the principles of what is best for all in equality and oneness and respect others as well as myself as equals nothing more nothing less.
I commit myself to stop judging myself as less then others and sabotaging myself with others and stand up and walk in the physical with and as others as equal. I don't accept myself to diminish myself thus I stop all judgments as they come in breath of myself and all life.
I commit myself to stop all backchat based on my desire to be like another and believing I cant.
I commit myself to stop jealousy towards others based on believing I can't have what others have thus stopping desire and expectations and living here and being free of wants and desires and expectations by stopping participation and realizing that I have always been here and am here in all-ways.
I commit myself to be humble and work with myself to thus walk self acceptance by stopping the thoughts, ideas, and judgments that I am not as worthy, and thus stopping this with all life and letting go of the desire to judge in each breath and standing here with life and living equal and one as how I would like for myself.
people pleaser, being liked, having friends, jealousy is always nasty, jealous person, not worthy of life, equality, solutions, self help, desteni, process, journey to life, equal life, 2012
Thursday, July 5, 2012
Day 76- "I Don't Care' Character
Here walking through the character I play when I don't want to face others in my world or don't want to face my responsibilities or consequences of my actions, I will go into this act of acting like I don't care and just whatever to the whole situation, dismissing all the points that I will have to face and escaping through this nonchalant attitude and uncooperative behavior towards others.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to go into character with others as this attitude that 'i don't care' about what they say or do as I just want to escape and not have to face them and the consequences that I have made for myself and thus I use this 'i don't care' character to not have to face this point for a moment. I realize and see within acting within this character that it creates more consequence for me and causes abuse towards others as usually they will react and it will become more of a problem for me then if I just faced the point and dealt with the consequences as they are here. I realize that to stop this consequence from accumulating to more then it has to be, I must stop hiding behind this character play as the 'i don't care' about anything and stand up and face and correct what needs to be fixed in my living so thus I can create a relative peace and equilibrium in my world and stop the abuse.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to be in self interest and selfish with others when I go into this 'i don't care' character and dismiss others sayings or doings towards me and thus diminish them within us standing here where they will react and go into a defense mode and thus a fight will usually ensue. I realize and understand the unnecessary outcome this is and doesn't have to go in this way, if I would instead of diminishing others and creating a conflict situation, stop my selfishness and this character of 'i don't care' and face the other in equality, find what the issue is and create a solution best for all.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to go into fear when realizing the consequences I will eventually face due to not considering others or not considering the reality of my situation or deliberately being nasty and spiteful towards someone, and thus use this character as myself as 'i don't care' and thus escape or hide for a moment within this character to block/ignore/deflect others through this character and so I can have time to figure out what I am going to do or how I am going to get out of it based on fearing facing the consequences of my action but in reality just making things worse for me. I realize and see that when I go into this point of fear I immediately should stop it and not participate in the fear and face myself, face who I had created myself to be, and face the faulty living I had existed as, so I once and for all can face myself and change myself to not act in such a way again as spitefulness and seperation. I realize that I have to stop the fear as well as the ignorance/spiteful behavior/escapism nature of myself through using characters such as this 'i don't care' to hide for a moment, but face myself then and there and make things correct within my world in practical common sense and consideration of all involved equal and one to how I would like to be considered.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to be spiteful/ignorant/nasty towards another based on following thoughts or desires of trying to escape the consequences I am to face and using this character of 'I don't care' towards others to thus give myself a pathway to escape as this is able to be used in a way where I can skate through what is being done/said to me and just say 'whatever' 'I don't give a shit' 'just go away' and phrases such as these, thus I stop and realize that this is causing me to be more abusive and separating myself from myself as life within the others and thus deliberately abusing self here as others to not have to face who I am and what I created based on accepting and allowing myself to act out in such a way as the 'i don't care' character. I realize and understand that being spiteful/ignorant/nasty towards others is unacceptable and manipulating others through this character act of 'i don't care' to escape responsibility is unacceptable and separating me from myself as the solution to stop, breath, and let go of the desires to escape and stopping the emotions to be spiteful and seek revenge. I realize within this that this 'i don't care' act is really an act of attention and trying to get sympathy from others, so thus I stop this here and walk within and as breath in correcting this behavior to stand within equality towards all, face myself with others, and walk the corrections so thus I can direct myself as the expression of myself in self trust and self equality and oneness to solutions.
I commit myself to walk this character of 'i don't care' to equalization of myself where I integrate and change this character to be here and breathing and facing what is necessary to be faced so I can correct what my reality is showing me as I realize this is where I will find support to see where I am faulty and thus give myself the opportunity to change and be the change I would like to see.
I commit to stop escaping myself by using characters, and become real here through breathing, self investigation, self forgiveness, and self corrective application in always facing myself and stopping the characters that do not support this walk to oneness and equality.
I commit to stand here within the matter that is the physical to walk solutions that will support all life, letting go of my desires to have it my way, and manipulate to get attention and feedback by using negative actions, but stop and breath and support others as I would want to be supported and support myself to walk the change and stop the patterns that don't support this change for/to life here in the physical with all other life.
I commit to stop selfishness and abuse towards others by always considering the other as myself and stopping the separation by stopping the thoughts, ideas, and beliefs of others I hold while stopping my separation with myself so thus I can see what is real here and walk the solutions that will support all equal and one to me.
i dont care attitude, character play, acting out, rebellion, ignoring others cries, attention seeker, abuse of others, equal life, equal money, eqafe, desteni, journey to life, equality, 2012, garbrielle goodrow
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to go into character with others as this attitude that 'i don't care' about what they say or do as I just want to escape and not have to face them and the consequences that I have made for myself and thus I use this 'i don't care' character to not have to face this point for a moment. I realize and see within acting within this character that it creates more consequence for me and causes abuse towards others as usually they will react and it will become more of a problem for me then if I just faced the point and dealt with the consequences as they are here. I realize that to stop this consequence from accumulating to more then it has to be, I must stop hiding behind this character play as the 'i don't care' about anything and stand up and face and correct what needs to be fixed in my living so thus I can create a relative peace and equilibrium in my world and stop the abuse.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to be in self interest and selfish with others when I go into this 'i don't care' character and dismiss others sayings or doings towards me and thus diminish them within us standing here where they will react and go into a defense mode and thus a fight will usually ensue. I realize and understand the unnecessary outcome this is and doesn't have to go in this way, if I would instead of diminishing others and creating a conflict situation, stop my selfishness and this character of 'i don't care' and face the other in equality, find what the issue is and create a solution best for all.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to go into fear when realizing the consequences I will eventually face due to not considering others or not considering the reality of my situation or deliberately being nasty and spiteful towards someone, and thus use this character as myself as 'i don't care' and thus escape or hide for a moment within this character to block/ignore/deflect others through this character and so I can have time to figure out what I am going to do or how I am going to get out of it based on fearing facing the consequences of my action but in reality just making things worse for me. I realize and see that when I go into this point of fear I immediately should stop it and not participate in the fear and face myself, face who I had created myself to be, and face the faulty living I had existed as, so I once and for all can face myself and change myself to not act in such a way again as spitefulness and seperation. I realize that I have to stop the fear as well as the ignorance/spiteful behavior/escapism nature of myself through using characters such as this 'i don't care' to hide for a moment, but face myself then and there and make things correct within my world in practical common sense and consideration of all involved equal and one to how I would like to be considered.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to be spiteful/ignorant/nasty towards another based on following thoughts or desires of trying to escape the consequences I am to face and using this character of 'I don't care' towards others to thus give myself a pathway to escape as this is able to be used in a way where I can skate through what is being done/said to me and just say 'whatever' 'I don't give a shit' 'just go away' and phrases such as these, thus I stop and realize that this is causing me to be more abusive and separating myself from myself as life within the others and thus deliberately abusing self here as others to not have to face who I am and what I created based on accepting and allowing myself to act out in such a way as the 'i don't care' character. I realize and understand that being spiteful/ignorant/nasty towards others is unacceptable and manipulating others through this character act of 'i don't care' to escape responsibility is unacceptable and separating me from myself as the solution to stop, breath, and let go of the desires to escape and stopping the emotions to be spiteful and seek revenge. I realize within this that this 'i don't care' act is really an act of attention and trying to get sympathy from others, so thus I stop this here and walk within and as breath in correcting this behavior to stand within equality towards all, face myself with others, and walk the corrections so thus I can direct myself as the expression of myself in self trust and self equality and oneness to solutions.
I commit myself to walk this character of 'i don't care' to equalization of myself where I integrate and change this character to be here and breathing and facing what is necessary to be faced so I can correct what my reality is showing me as I realize this is where I will find support to see where I am faulty and thus give myself the opportunity to change and be the change I would like to see.
I commit to stop escaping myself by using characters, and become real here through breathing, self investigation, self forgiveness, and self corrective application in always facing myself and stopping the characters that do not support this walk to oneness and equality.
I commit to stand here within the matter that is the physical to walk solutions that will support all life, letting go of my desires to have it my way, and manipulate to get attention and feedback by using negative actions, but stop and breath and support others as I would want to be supported and support myself to walk the change and stop the patterns that don't support this change for/to life here in the physical with all other life.
I commit to stop selfishness and abuse towards others by always considering the other as myself and stopping the separation by stopping the thoughts, ideas, and beliefs of others I hold while stopping my separation with myself so thus I can see what is real here and walk the solutions that will support all equal and one to me.
i dont care attitude, character play, acting out, rebellion, ignoring others cries, attention seeker, abuse of others, equal life, equal money, eqafe, desteni, journey to life, equality, 2012, garbrielle goodrow
Wednesday, July 4, 2012
Day 75- "Sexy Flirt" Character
Here looking at the character I have created as being female and using my sexuality as mannerism to get attention from others especially the opposite sex, this to lure in a man and start the walk to get him in bed and calling him my boyfriend.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to create myself in a way to lure in other males through being sexual in my mannerism and words as in flirting, so I can use them for my own happiness and satisfaction within my self interest and addictions. I realize and see that accepting myself to become a certain character as within being sexual in nature to get another to like me is not real liking as I am not real as I am just putting on an act to get my needs met in the end and thus I see and understand I must stop the fake act as putting on this sexual flirt character to lure in a guy as I realize guys are drawn to the sexual side of women and get tempted easily by this.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to demean the act of sex within using it as a temptation for males to come to me and pay attention to me so I can get my nice feelings by using my body and words in a sexualized way were I know the man can't resist and thus I get an easy access to the man I desire through using sex as a means to get to an end for me. I realize and understand that within this relationship of using myself as a sex object for men I will be seen in such a way as I am demeaning my self respect and the respect of life in the act of playing a character to get sex from flirting and playing into this sexy role. I realize that I must stop this character playout of the sexual flirtatous character and walk equal and one to the man as myself to thus create equalibrium within the communication and direction within what I stand for and what Life is, which is to be honored and respected within all facets, and not used for my own self interest.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to use life in self interest where I comprimise my own self standing by desiring more to have my happiness desires fufilled by being with the man I want and thus using myself as my physical bodies in ways that is not real nor true to who I am as life. I realize and understand to walk the correction I must stop my desires for happiness and thus stop using myself as my body in ways that will not support myself to stand one and equal as others but be seen in a way that is limiting myself and demeaning myself to be just a picture playing a role to get my energy addictions met as nice feelings.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not stand within this world with integrity where I stop all my desires and wants for my own self fufillment through energy by using myself as my physical body in flaunting it and pretending to be a persona that I am not as the sexy flirty girl. I realize that within this I am only trying to gain the feelings to make myself feel good when I realize that this feeling is limited in itself as it only last but a moment and thus has to continually be generated. Where as life I am here and thus need nothing to move me as I am fufilled here within the oneness and equality of all around me as we stand togther as one, and thus no need for characters or being sexy or flirting to get my needs met, but stand here within stability where I need nothing as I have everything.
I commit myself to stop the character of sexy flirt within and as a chase for others and stand here within myself as life and walk this process to be as life one and equal where nothing moves me but my own physical movement as the directive princple of myself.
I commit myself to walk in stopping my desires for men and using my self as my body within playing into a character to lure men in and use them so I can gain good feeling. I will to stop using myself as my phsyical and stand here equal to men as well as all life and walk what is best for all where I stop all desires of myself.
I commit to walk within writing all the characters I see within me that I play out to gain for myself in my own interest so thus I can stand here in equality with all with nothing to gain nor hide but be myself in expression as life.
sex object, sexuality, sex appeal, sexy women, flirt, flirting, boy crazy, characters, play, acting, pretend, living for others, equality, equal money, equal life, desteni, journey to life, 2012
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to create myself in a way to lure in other males through being sexual in my mannerism and words as in flirting, so I can use them for my own happiness and satisfaction within my self interest and addictions. I realize and see that accepting myself to become a certain character as within being sexual in nature to get another to like me is not real liking as I am not real as I am just putting on an act to get my needs met in the end and thus I see and understand I must stop the fake act as putting on this sexual flirt character to lure in a guy as I realize guys are drawn to the sexual side of women and get tempted easily by this.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to demean the act of sex within using it as a temptation for males to come to me and pay attention to me so I can get my nice feelings by using my body and words in a sexualized way were I know the man can't resist and thus I get an easy access to the man I desire through using sex as a means to get to an end for me. I realize and understand that within this relationship of using myself as a sex object for men I will be seen in such a way as I am demeaning my self respect and the respect of life in the act of playing a character to get sex from flirting and playing into this sexy role. I realize that I must stop this character playout of the sexual flirtatous character and walk equal and one to the man as myself to thus create equalibrium within the communication and direction within what I stand for and what Life is, which is to be honored and respected within all facets, and not used for my own self interest.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to use life in self interest where I comprimise my own self standing by desiring more to have my happiness desires fufilled by being with the man I want and thus using myself as my physical bodies in ways that is not real nor true to who I am as life. I realize and understand to walk the correction I must stop my desires for happiness and thus stop using myself as my body in ways that will not support myself to stand one and equal as others but be seen in a way that is limiting myself and demeaning myself to be just a picture playing a role to get my energy addictions met as nice feelings.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not stand within this world with integrity where I stop all my desires and wants for my own self fufillment through energy by using myself as my physical body in flaunting it and pretending to be a persona that I am not as the sexy flirty girl. I realize that within this I am only trying to gain the feelings to make myself feel good when I realize that this feeling is limited in itself as it only last but a moment and thus has to continually be generated. Where as life I am here and thus need nothing to move me as I am fufilled here within the oneness and equality of all around me as we stand togther as one, and thus no need for characters or being sexy or flirting to get my needs met, but stand here within stability where I need nothing as I have everything.
I commit myself to stop the character of sexy flirt within and as a chase for others and stand here within myself as life and walk this process to be as life one and equal where nothing moves me but my own physical movement as the directive princple of myself.
I commit myself to walk in stopping my desires for men and using my self as my body within playing into a character to lure men in and use them so I can gain good feeling. I will to stop using myself as my phsyical and stand here equal to men as well as all life and walk what is best for all where I stop all desires of myself.
I commit to walk within writing all the characters I see within me that I play out to gain for myself in my own interest so thus I can stand here in equality with all with nothing to gain nor hide but be myself in expression as life.
sex object, sexuality, sex appeal, sexy women, flirt, flirting, boy crazy, characters, play, acting, pretend, living for others, equality, equal money, equal life, desteni, journey to life, 2012
Monday, July 2, 2012
Day 74- Being a Women
Looking at this point for myself where I have identified myself as a Women.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to identify myself as a women and within this identification bring up a picture in my head of a picture of my mom whom I compare myself to as a women. I realize and see that to be a women is not to be a picture of a mother figure as that is not all that I am as a women.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to identify the women in this world only by care taking and having children where they are needed to perform this task and thus need to dedicate their lives to raise kids and take care of the families. I realize and see that women in this world are not exclusively the care takers of the children and realize thus it takes a village to raise a child meaning that all beings within the vicinity of children and in children's day to day living should take responsibility to care and 'guide' the child equal and one to how I would have wanted to be cared and guided during that age and thus regardless of who bore the child it is all life's responsibility to take care of the young and guide them to life in equality and oneness with other life.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself define women to only being in the house with the family while the male works to bring in the finances as if this is the only way of living here and thus I have accepted this as who we are as I allow it to continue to exist in this world. I realize and see within equality as principle of life within our system of living there can be created a more equilibrium between child bearing and not compromising the life of the women's expression nor the child's expression, where life will be supported in all facets of the child and women's life and thus the best opportunity for all to be free and also be cared for is sustainable in a system that treats life in equality. Within realizing this point it is for me as a human being to support all life here in ways where life in equality for all can be established by supporting all life in the process of walking and implementing an equal money system.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to within defining myself as a women within an idea in my head of what I shall expect myself as a women in this world to be seen as someone who needs to take care of children and be the keeper of the house while a man takes care of all the finances leaving the women in a trap of dependency on a male when this can be taken advantage of and abused by the male. I realize and see that giving the man the power to have all access to finances is not standing equal within the partnership as the children should not be wholey based on the female raising the child but should be done in equality within both parents, and thus within this both stand within bringing finances into the house and taking care of the children until equality is reached as otherwise the financial point can cause abuse for many beings and thus cause the female to be abused in many ways sexually, verbally, and physically.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to within defining myself as a female have an idea that I can use this point of being female as a way to getting out of having to stand equal and one to the male and thus become the submissive, fragile point within the partnership where I can use childbearing as an excuse not to push myself within my expression and submit to the life of a taking care of the kids and thus live off of the mans earnings. I realize and see within giving my power away in this instance where I do it willingly as I am not willing to stand equal to the man in this world system in walking the point to stand in all having opportunity for equal expression, thus I will have to stop submitting to the easy way out 'so to speak' and stand equal to the male as the male will stand equal to the female in raising children.
I commit myself to create myself within a way in my partnerships where I am an equal participant and don't use any point to take advantage were I desire to have an easier time or allow myself to be abused, but walk one and equal with the man in whatever I desire in my expression but not submitting to the mind as only ideas of only being a mother or a housewife as labels that this is all I can be once I get married and have a child.
I commit myself to stop the abuse within myself as my partnership where I stand equal and one to making the finances work within the relationship where I share the responsibilities as I also walk with my partner to help share the responsibilities of the care and guidance of the children and stop the roles of 'mothers do this' and 'fathers do that', but I walk as equals with all in in all parts of my world.
I commit to creating a equal money system so thus all can stand equal in fact in all areas of life, where all are able and have the freedom to walk in equilibrium with all within their world, and no restrictions are here in terms of money strain or lack of education, but all stand and walk the path to become equal and one with all life in this world which the equal money system will facilitate and guarantee if all will themselves to see and live the truth of the principles of this system which is living equal and one to all life as self.
motherly care, childbearing, child care, marriage conflicts, partnership, equality, equal money, desteni, journeytolife, blogs
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to identify myself as a women and within this identification bring up a picture in my head of a picture of my mom whom I compare myself to as a women. I realize and see that to be a women is not to be a picture of a mother figure as that is not all that I am as a women.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to identify the women in this world only by care taking and having children where they are needed to perform this task and thus need to dedicate their lives to raise kids and take care of the families. I realize and see that women in this world are not exclusively the care takers of the children and realize thus it takes a village to raise a child meaning that all beings within the vicinity of children and in children's day to day living should take responsibility to care and 'guide' the child equal and one to how I would have wanted to be cared and guided during that age and thus regardless of who bore the child it is all life's responsibility to take care of the young and guide them to life in equality and oneness with other life.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself define women to only being in the house with the family while the male works to bring in the finances as if this is the only way of living here and thus I have accepted this as who we are as I allow it to continue to exist in this world. I realize and see within equality as principle of life within our system of living there can be created a more equilibrium between child bearing and not compromising the life of the women's expression nor the child's expression, where life will be supported in all facets of the child and women's life and thus the best opportunity for all to be free and also be cared for is sustainable in a system that treats life in equality. Within realizing this point it is for me as a human being to support all life here in ways where life in equality for all can be established by supporting all life in the process of walking and implementing an equal money system.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to within defining myself as a women within an idea in my head of what I shall expect myself as a women in this world to be seen as someone who needs to take care of children and be the keeper of the house while a man takes care of all the finances leaving the women in a trap of dependency on a male when this can be taken advantage of and abused by the male. I realize and see that giving the man the power to have all access to finances is not standing equal within the partnership as the children should not be wholey based on the female raising the child but should be done in equality within both parents, and thus within this both stand within bringing finances into the house and taking care of the children until equality is reached as otherwise the financial point can cause abuse for many beings and thus cause the female to be abused in many ways sexually, verbally, and physically.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to within defining myself as a female have an idea that I can use this point of being female as a way to getting out of having to stand equal and one to the male and thus become the submissive, fragile point within the partnership where I can use childbearing as an excuse not to push myself within my expression and submit to the life of a taking care of the kids and thus live off of the mans earnings. I realize and see within giving my power away in this instance where I do it willingly as I am not willing to stand equal to the man in this world system in walking the point to stand in all having opportunity for equal expression, thus I will have to stop submitting to the easy way out 'so to speak' and stand equal to the male as the male will stand equal to the female in raising children.
I commit myself to create myself within a way in my partnerships where I am an equal participant and don't use any point to take advantage were I desire to have an easier time or allow myself to be abused, but walk one and equal with the man in whatever I desire in my expression but not submitting to the mind as only ideas of only being a mother or a housewife as labels that this is all I can be once I get married and have a child.
I commit myself to stop the abuse within myself as my partnership where I stand equal and one to making the finances work within the relationship where I share the responsibilities as I also walk with my partner to help share the responsibilities of the care and guidance of the children and stop the roles of 'mothers do this' and 'fathers do that', but I walk as equals with all in in all parts of my world.
I commit to creating a equal money system so thus all can stand equal in fact in all areas of life, where all are able and have the freedom to walk in equilibrium with all within their world, and no restrictions are here in terms of money strain or lack of education, but all stand and walk the path to become equal and one with all life in this world which the equal money system will facilitate and guarantee if all will themselves to see and live the truth of the principles of this system which is living equal and one to all life as self.
motherly care, childbearing, child care, marriage conflicts, partnership, equality, equal money, desteni, journeytolife, blogs
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