Showing posts with label sexuality. Show all posts
Showing posts with label sexuality. Show all posts

Friday, August 9, 2013

Porn and Sex – Why do we allow the degradation of Man? – Day 331


Porn and the human are a toxic mix because it creates a human who runs on illusion and desire to fulfill something that is not in fact real, it's only created in one's mind and lived out through sex or masturbation. And through porn on the whole it is used to sell products that degrades the human being usually through women being seen as an object to be used as a means to an end, and this only to make money no matter the abuse caused. Have we as a society ever considered the impact that porn has on our community, on our children’s minds, on our functionality with the opposite sex within a relationship set up, I would say no we have not. We don’t really ever consider what we are doing within watching these videos, and how it will impact within people as their states of being when we allow porn to be so easily accessible and protected through all avenues of media as if it is a normal way of behavior. But it is not, the porn culture and saturation of it in our society has created the outflows of abuse as sex slavery, child sex slaves, child molestation, rape, women objectification, and physical abuse to be rampant due to the raunchy nature of these sex scenes depicted in porn on the regular, many can’t get enough so they seek criminal ways to fulfill this desire for more.

Some Research on Porn Viewing and Dysfunctional Societal Behavior:

-Psychologist Edward Donnerstein (University of Wisconsin) found that brief exposure to violent forms of pornography can lead to anti-social attitudes and behavior. Male viewers tend to be more aggressive towards women, less responsive to pain and suffering of rape victims, and more willing to accept various myths about rape.

-Dr. Dolf Zimmerman and Dr. Jennings Bryant showed that continued exposure to pornography had serious adverse effects on beliefs about sexuality in general and on attitudes toward women in particular. They also found that pornography desensitizes people to rape as a criminal offense.

-These researchers also found that massive exposure to pornography encourages a desire for increasingly deviant materials which involve violence, like sadomasochism and rape.

-Feminist author Diana Russell notes in her book Rape and Marriage the correlation between deviant behavior (including abuse) and pornography. She also found that pornography leads men and women to experience conflict, suffering, and sexual dissatisfaction.

-Researcher Victor Cline (University of Utah) has documented in his research how men become addicted to pornographic materials, begin to desire more explicit or deviant material, and end up acting out what they have seen.

-According to Charles Keating of Citizens for Decency Through Law, research reveals that 77 percent of child molesters of boys and 87 percent of child molesters of girls admitted imitating the sexual behavior they had seen modeled in pornography.

-Sociologists Murray Straus and Larry Baron (University of New Hampshire) found that rape rates are highest in states which have high sales of sex magazines and lax enforcement of pornography laws.

-Michigan state police detective Darrell Pope found that of the 38,000 sexual assault cases in Michigan (1956-1979), in 41 percent of the cases pornographic material was viewed just prior to or during the crime. This agrees with research done by psychotherapist David Scott who found that “half the rapists studied used pornography to arouse themselves immediately prior to seeking out a victim.”


-The Final Report of the 1986 Attorney General’s Commission on Pornography lists a full chapter of testimony (197-223) from victims whose assailants had previously viewed pornographic materials. The adverse effects range from physical harm (rape, torture, murder, sexually transmitted disease) to psychological harm (suicidal thoughts, fear, shame, nightmares)

Source: http://www.forerunner.com/forerunner/X0388_Effects_of_Pornograp.html

Also recommended interview to watch on the impact of porn:

Growing up I realized the seduction of porn as it was very specifically placed within movies and tv shows to get the curiosity growing, and within this the curiosity does grow, and it was very easily satisfied with easy access to porn through internet or tv stations, especially now a days where internet access is everywhere. Thankfully, I never took it to an addiction level, but it is a point one will eventually face in this reality and have to decide who one is going to be and what one is going to be controlled by self will or desire based on the saturation of perverse sexual images seen every where. Internet porn is one of the easiest and unprotected ways of viewing for all ages of human beings, children are especially vulnerable due to not really understanding what one is viewing and clicking away making it a virtual ticking time bomb to get to images that are not meant for anyone eyes never mind children.

And what of the women in these videos who are being abused outright, being forced to have multiple things happening to them at once with many guys, and all sorts of disgusting things that sell because the mind easily creates the desire for more and more outlandish images to continue the high that is created when the porn images are viewed, and this sells so this is what is made. So it’s an addiction for many as it’s easy to get and it’s an easy reward, but is this really a reward, a momentary release of orgasm, where through the very participation of this one gets addicted to more and more of this feeling with the consequences being physical abuse, aggression, rape, kidnapping, and torture to name a few that go on every day for people in this world and it is driven within this type of media outlet, the porn industry, which is more lucrative then Hollywood productions.

Have we ever considered that there is more to sex then just watching porn and getting off, and then going to one’s relationship and trying to live out these scenes that in reality will not actually work and can’t work cause they aren’t in fact real. We have been dumbed down to believe all we are are these out of control sex crazed humans with no self control.  When the potential within us to have real physical sex as an expression of ourselves in reality one and equal with the physical exploring together with one’s partner is something that does in fact exist, but only through the letting go of these fantasy and porn induced desires and addictions completely to be able to move as self within each breath with no mind interference. It takes a process of writing, and practicing with one’s partner to get to a level of self control, but the rewards are worthwhile as it’s real not just based on energy through the mind as pictures and images.

There is a series I have listened to that explains the mind sex and the physical sex differences quite starkly and completely, called What is Sex?, which has changed my outlook on what’s possible based on hearing things that I have never considered before about sex as a physical expression and the understanding within what it actually is creating on a mind level. There is a difference to be understood. This series explores the topics of moving from just feelings and an energy release as a momentary orgasm to real physical connection with another and an exploration of yourself to find out who one really is within one’s own physical body and what it really means to touch another as self here in equality in the physical reality, this leading to the physical expression of the body as self as sex. It’s something else when one is in an agreement with another to walk as a support for each other within this process of letting go of the mind and remaining here in the physical, and the rewards through self is something I have seen the benefit of even just starting out within practicing this way of physical expression with another that has been quite exceptional.

And as a societal integration within this way of physical expression is a balanced human who respects themselves and their partner equally in reaching the ecstasy that can be reached through touch and intimacy through communication of two becoming one for real here in the physical in equality and oneness. Porn is not real sex and is only done in the mind where the energy dies, which as an outflow consequence cause horrific abuse in this world to many many men, women, and children. There is whole industries built on this abuse that is started within participating and viewing pornography to eventually not getting enough from that, so one resort to make their fantasies real disregarding those effected, but only seeking to fulfill one’s desire for release of sexual tension. Suggest we stop limiting ourselves for instant gratification and walk the process to real self expression through discipline and self exploration with another in an agreement into self expression as physical sexual expression.


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Thursday, September 6, 2012

Day 121- Disappointment Character- Not Enough Femininity




Within this, I see myself as someone who is not good enough within my look and thus within going into any point of potential relationship, I will within the starting point always diminish myself based on this belief I have that I am not good enough compared to others that are out there, and that I will never be able to match up to other females.

This above, is a portion of the blog Day 119-Disappointment Character – Sexual Prowess, where I will be taken each paragraph and writing out self forgiveness on a multi-blog/day platform, enjoy and thanks for reading.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare my physical body and features to another females physical body and features, and go into a judgment of not being good enough.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare my physical body and features to another females physical body and features, and go into a judgment that I am better then the other.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from females within a constant polarity playout of being more or less, and thus missing the reality here of a group of females together here, and thus instead of judgment, walk equal, and so I can really be here to enjoy the physical with and as the other beings.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to link my physical features and body to my sexuality and thus define myself based on how I have defined my physical in comparison to the other potential partners, and thus see myself able to walk with or not able to walk with based on if I have defined my physical body and features in a equal comparison with the other.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be disappointed within myself if I don't match up to the potential partner I desire, and thus go into depression state based on not getting what I want.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a desire within me to get an ideal partner, where in I will automatically create the depression and disappointed state, as ideals within myself are not able to be lived, as life is here, not in the mind in which ideals are held as ideas created by self based on comparisons and judgments of self as life in the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create ideals within life and thus go into a judgment towards self in comparison within this ideal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept my mind as ideals instead of living here in fact in who and how the other being lives and thus how I am living one and equal with the other, in terms of potential partners.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit my expression with another potential partner based on fear that I will be rejected because I don’t compare to the other in physical body or features, and thus will define myself as not as good based on comparing myself to other females body and features and seeing myself less then.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being rejected by another being based on defining myself and who I am based on the being accepting me or not, and thus within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself based on the acceptance of another instead of realizing and walking the realization that I will only truly be free when I walk and live the acceptance of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I accept myself and thus who I am within all, I can then walk the process as an equal agreement with another without expectation based on the fact that I am here and I walk what is here, so thus no matter what is here, I am here as myself in acceptance and walk what will be best for all in all ways, and thus I decide what path I walk.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my physical body as not good enough and thus go into a point of diminishment towards other females based on this self judgment that I am using to go into ego and make another female less then me to feel better about myself. Here, I realize that life is not defined by more or less feminine, but that female is just female in terms of the gender one is, and thus I stop defining females by degrees of more or less.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compete with other females in trying to match up and thus be better then, where in, I believe I will be able to get the guy I desire because I have defined myself as more then other females, thus I win.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compete with other females in terms of a self judgment I have of not being enough, and thus defined life by something that is not real as beliefs and ideas on how someone should look instead of focusing on what really matters the physical equal and one in all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make being a female a competition, in where I try and win, but realizing that there always has to be a loser in such competitions, thus I always will cycle within the polarity of win/loss, where instead I can just be here, and live equal with others as life, walk an effective agreement with a being assessed by living principles and integrity and stop the illusions of desires.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live into desires in where I desire to have the perfect male in my life, and thus miss the point of who one is as self, where in I am blinded by desire and walk into an agreement based on illusion instead of physical practical considerations for what’s best for myself and life as well.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to base myself on the mind as illusion instead of here as life as what is best for all in the physical. 

Self Corrective Statements to follow.


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Monday, September 3, 2012

Day 119- Disappointment Character – Sexual Prowess





I have found very often I will go into disappointment within myself when I realize that I have fallen in my process or have not lived up to the expectations I put on myself to be lived out, and thus will fuel the mind through this polarity of desiring to be successful in my process and becoming disappointed when I fall. 

Here I see that I am playing into the personality suit quite well and sabotaging myself by living into this mind illusional point because within reality disappointment is not real nor beneficial, when I go into disappointment, I go into a point of depression within myself and seeing myself as a failure. But realizing, after discussing this with Bernard, that within life and within process, we will fall multiple times. I mean it’s really common sense, such as riding a bike, you don’t expect to in the first try be able to get on the bike and just ride it, it’ll take practice, hard work, dedication, discipline, and all the points that make one an effective being in a physical task, so same with walking through the mind, I have to start living this realization that I am not going to be perfect, and that this perfection is not beneficial nor even at all realistic, so it’s to walk this within my world, and stop going into the disappointment character when I see that I have fallen within a point.

Looking at this point more specifically because as I was typing I was getting a pain within my leg in the inside, and this is linked to my sexuality as the point of pain was on that tendon that goes right up to the pubic area, so looking at this point of being disappointed within my sexuality and who I am within getting sex. Within this, I see myself as someone who is not good enough within my look and thus within going into any point of potential relationship, I will within the starting point always diminish myself based on this belief I have that I am not good enough compared to others that are out there, and that I will never be able to match up to other females. So being disappointed with myself as a female and within sexual relations with others, I always see myself at a disadvantage, as less then, not good enough, and never being able to live up to this idea that I will be enough for a man, so thus settling for less always then who I am as real life expression here, my full potential.

So this is a primary point within my life that I sabotage myself with, and within this there are memories that I am holding onto, that when a potential partner comes into the picture, I will scan through the memories and remember that I was rejected, I was called names, I was fucked over, and they all have a common denominator, that being that they all revolve around me falling. So whenever I meet someone, I will always use these memories to hold myself in place and not ever just go for it, and be myself in acceptance in not having any expectation, letting myself just enjoy myself with another and just live, but always within these meetings with the opposite sex, there is always an underlying disappointment lingering because I have already failed within my mind, so activating and living into the disappointment and depression that I can never be satisfied, but realizing now as I walk my process, I am doing this to myself.

So In my next post, I will walk self forgiveness and self correction on these points.


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Journey to Life Group
Creation's Journey to Life
Earth's Journey to Life
Heaven's Journey to LIfe
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Desteni Site
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Saturday, July 7, 2012

Day 78- Compromising My Body for Others

I am doing self forgiveness on compromising my body by desiring to look more feminine by putting earrings in my ears, and thus abusing my body by making deliberate holes, when I didn't really care either way but I did it for societies/others approval because I see myself quite masculine. My body has since rejected all earrings in the ear by making it very itchy, irritated, and always closing up so it's very painful to try and put them in. So I since a while now do not wear and will not wear any earrings, and am sorry I compromised myself for approval by others because I am not accepting myself.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to see/realize/understand that I am acceptable and ok just the way I am here, that I don't have to distort or change my body or image to become acceptable in the eyes of others or society, and so to do this is based on the fact that I am not accepting myself here and thus am judging myself due to an idea.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to desire to change my image and appearance to be more feminine by putting earrings in my ears because I see myself as masculine and that I am quite boyish in terms of the way I dress and carry myself as I do not enjoy the makeup, dressed up look, but prefer comfortable, casual dress. Here I judge myself as masculine and see this as a negative experience as I realize that I am judging this masculine look as being a lesbian, and I don't desire people to see me as this.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to judge this look of being masculine within a fear of others seeing me in this way and thus assuming that I am a lesbian based on my look because within myself I have judged others look and judged them for being a person who is homosexual as a 'gross' thing.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to judge homosexual behavior as a gross thing based on the fear of myself being this and having others see me in this way.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear being homosexual based on the stigma and cruelty others show people who express themselves in this way, and thus I fear the ridicule and stigma of being homosexual but realize and creating the abuse and separation I don't want for myself. I realize that this is not who I am and thus I stand up and stop fear and judgment of others expression and who they are and live here in breath with all life equal and one and treat others how I would like to be treated.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear others thoughts about me if I was a homosexual and having to face that person based on actually projecting my own prejudices against those who are homosexual and believing that that is what others are thinking of me when I dress more masculine and casual.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear being homosexual based on the fear of humiliation from family and friends.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to judge those who are homosexual and actually fear them being attracted to me or liking me.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to place my own fear of being homosexual onto others and thus go into a blame towards them for the fear that is actually existent within myself and who I am as a being.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to desire to prove that I like men so no being will think that I am a homosexual.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear being called a homosexual by others.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to go into anger as violence when my sister called me a dike back when we were fighting when I was younger and I punched her across the face.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to use physical anger as violence onto others because I fear facing myself and who I am within myself.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not allow myself to be free with all life within my world and the world as a whole and thus do not discriminate nor judge any being based on any point that is there preference, and only act when life  is not being supported equal and one and life is not being honored in the best way possible for all, allow and accept life as me in all ways.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to hold on to fear of who I am as a being based on rejection and thus change my physical body or appearance to please others and miss myself within compromising my physical and my self integrity as who I am within myself and stand as the being I am one and equal with all and this include respecting and honoring myself as well as my physical body.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to cause abuse and pain to my body when I pierced holes in my ears for the satisfaction of others and society approval instead of realizing the only satisfaction I will attain is through myself within being true to myself and not compromising who I am for others but always standing and living within honor and respect of who I am as life and stop compromising myself through fear.

When and as I go into this fear of being seen in a way that I don't desire such as being seen as a homosexual, I stop breath, and let go of this fear and judgment I place on being homosexual. I realize and see no matter who one is within themselves and their expression as long as no abuse is being done within self honesty and life is honored and respected in what is best for all one is free to live and be who one wants to be in terms of who they want to partner up with or express themselves with or as. I stop my fear of this and stand within my own expression in what I would like to do in all facets of life equal and one to all and to self as well, and allow myself to live and express in self comfortability.

When and as I desire to change my physical to please others or society, I stop and breath, and do not accept myself to go into this point of self compromise and self sabotage, by standing up and facing others as myself, challenging others beliefs and ideas of what society or people should be or look like, and just walk my expression. I stop compromising myself for others and honor me and respect who I am within myself in all ways as life should be.

I commit to stop fearing others expressions within who they are and walk with and get to know others in equality for real stopping the illusions of thoughts, judgments, and ideas, but physical on a real level see who the person is over time and access in common sense and in self honesty equal and one to how I would like to be treated and walk what is real here in physical reality.

I commit to stop fearing what others think of me or who I am within how i express myself and thus stop fearing my own expression. I commit to allow myself to express myself in freedom and without limitation and stop the fear of living me.

I commit to stop the judgment of others within who they are and how they express themselves and allow all life to live without limitation as mind delusions and walk equal and one with others as how I would like to be treated.

I commit to stop abusing my body and physical for the mind as fears and ideas of myself so thus I commit to take responsibility and face myself in who I am here in all ways by self investigating and forgiving myself for the points that do not honor life as myself in oneness and equal, and always walk the correction to direct myself as life in decency and what is best for all.




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Wednesday, July 4, 2012

Day 75- "Sexy Flirt" Character

Here looking at the character I have created as being female and using my sexuality as mannerism to get attention from others especially the opposite sex, this to lure in a man and start the walk to get him in bed and calling him my boyfriend.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to create myself in a way to lure in other males through being sexual in my mannerism and words as in flirting, so I can use them for my own happiness and satisfaction within my self interest and addictions. I realize and see that accepting myself to become a certain character as within being sexual in nature to get another to like me is not real liking as I am not real as I am just putting on an act to get my needs met in the end and thus I see and understand I must stop the fake act as putting on this sexual flirt character to lure in a guy as I realize guys are drawn to the sexual side of women and get tempted easily by this.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to demean the act of sex within using it as a temptation for males to come to me and pay attention to me so I can get my nice feelings by using my body and words in a sexualized way were I know the man can't resist and thus I get an easy access to the man I desire through using sex as a means to get to an end for me. I realize and understand that within this relationship of using myself as a sex object for men I will be seen in such a way as I am demeaning my self respect and the respect of life in the act of playing a character to get sex from flirting and playing into this sexy role. I realize that I must stop this character playout of the sexual flirtatous character and walk equal and one to the man as myself to thus create equalibrium within the communication and direction within what I stand for and what Life is, which is to be honored and respected within all facets, and not used for my own self interest.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to use life in self interest where I comprimise my own self standing by desiring more to have my happiness desires fufilled by being with the man I want and thus using myself as my physical bodies in ways that is not real nor true to who I am as life. I realize and understand to walk the correction I must stop my desires for happiness and thus stop using myself as my body in ways that will not support myself to stand one and equal as others but be seen in a way that is limiting myself and demeaning myself to be just a picture playing a role to get my energy addictions met as nice feelings.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not stand within this world with integrity where I stop all my desires and wants for my own self fufillment through energy by using myself as my physical body in flaunting it and pretending to be a persona that I am not as the sexy flirty girl. I realize that within this I am only trying to gain the feelings to make myself feel good when I realize that this feeling is limited in itself as it only last but a moment and thus has to continually be generated. Where as life I am here and thus need nothing to move me as I am fufilled here within the oneness and equality of all around me as we stand togther as one, and thus no need for characters or being sexy or flirting to get my needs met, but stand here within stability where I need nothing as I have everything.

I commit myself to stop the character of sexy flirt within and as a chase for others and stand here within myself as life and walk this process to be as life one and equal where nothing moves me but my own physical movement as the directive princple of myself.

I commit myself to walk in stopping my desires for men and using my self as my body within playing into a character to lure men in and use them so I can gain good feeling. I will to stop using myself as my phsyical and stand here equal to men as well as all life and walk what is best for all where I stop all desires of myself.

I commit to walk within writing all the characters I see within me that I play out to gain for myself in my own interest so thus I can stand here in equality with all with nothing to gain nor hide but be myself in expression as life.




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