How do I justify myself is through accepting and allowing thoughts of self diminishment and self compromise, such as ‘you can’t do that, you’ll be seen as a fool’ or ‘your not smart enough, don’t even bother’ or ‘it’s too much, you won’t be able to handle the conflict that’ll arise’, so within the pattern of these thoughts, is justification and self diminishment, where I allow myself to fall back into the patterns and suppressions because I accept these thoughts as me, over and over again.
Here walking the self forgiveness on these points above,
this is from the blog Day 129- Justification Character – Self Manipulation for
reference.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself the
thought “you can’t do that, you’ll be seen as a fool” to direct me into a
suppression state where in I justify this suppression state based on this
thought and believing it, and thus living into this thought as if it is real and
defines who I am.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
justify my own self suppression with a thought because I don’t want to stop the
thought as this will mean I will have to face the point I am resisting by
giving into this thought and thus suppressing my expression in living.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
go into a fear of being seen as a fool by others based on this fear of failure,
and thus accept and allow fear to direct my living within my world.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
suppress myself and thus diminish myself based on this belief that I can’t walk
through my fears based on the fact that I allow them to direct me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
justify my inaction in standing up to the fear, not accepting the fear, and
thus moving through the fear to thus not push myself within my living, and walk
what I realize must be walked to transcend these fears which is face them and
see that they don’t direct me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
justify my suppression with these beliefs that I can’t face these fears, they
are too big, and they are too much to handle, and thus accept and allow myself
to fall and give into justifying my abuse to life and to the physical.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
justify my abuse to life within accepting and allowing thoughts of self
diminishment direct where in I don’t even live into the point to test it for
myself and see what relevance and fact is there, but simply allow the mind as
fear direct me into suppressing myself before I live at all in the physical.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
justify my abuse to life within my own self interest were I don’t want to
change, when I realize change is the only possible way forward, as the
consequences of not changing is death in self in life, and this is not the way
of life.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
live into self interest as justifications where there is no justification to
live and accept abuse within myself towards myself or any life that is here, as
I realize the process to live here as the physical in what is best for all is
in front of me, and I see the path that must be walked, so thus I stop the
justification, and walk.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
suppress myself within the point of blame that I can’t get past the points that
I face, when this is absolute self deceptive within justifying my own lack of
effort and movement, while in this moment many suffer and die based on the
system that is created by the human based on this very construct of not moving
and forcing change to what is here.
To be continued.
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