I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to deny myself within the other due to desires to compete and take my energies out on other life in blame and self victimization because I don't want to face that part that I see is painful, difficult, or challenging to face as it will take much effort and I fear being exposed.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to desire not to put effort in to who I am as life in correction and thus fully accept the mind as a slave and die a slave to energy and face consequences there of not standing up for life and allowing abuse to proliferate and continue in this world.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear facing myself because I fear being exposed and having others know who I am and thus I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear facing myself because I fear who i really am and what I have to walk.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to allow fear to exist within and as me as I realize it is not real and only is created through self to abdicate responsibility to walk the correction in common sense.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that I can hide and escape myself within and as conflict and resistance to others in an attempt to make others responsible for how I am feeling within myself, but within myself I realize that it's me who is creating this feeling, I am the one resisting my own self change due to the addiction to going for the easy way out.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to to deny what I am seeing within myself as abuse and ego and desire to only see it in another based on the fact that I don't want to change and walk the correction which is difficult at times.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to deny the abuse and self irresponsibility that I am existing as and throw it onto another so I can divert the attention away from myself and thus have another point of self escapism to not have to face who I am being within myself.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to not desire to see myself within the other and not see my true nature within who I am being to thus not have to push myself and stop all the points that are needed to be stopped.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to miss me in the other in equality and the gift that this is to self in expression and joy as what can be created.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to miss the other within and as who they are and only see them as a means to an end to get my needs met.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to use others for my own self interest.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to miss myself here within others and who we are as life one and equal.
I commit to stop separating myself from others in an attempt to get my own self interest needs met.
I commit to stand with others by facing myself in all aspects and correct that which I am separating myself from others by so thus I can stand for real in equality and have no movement of ego to abuse for my own gain.
I commit to see myself to stop fear of facing myself and walk the correction.
seeing self in the other, empathy, brotherhood, community living, sisterhood, blame game, im not responsible, equality, equal life, equal money, eqafe, desteni, journey to life, 2012
Thursday, June 7, 2012
Wednesday, June 6, 2012
Day 52- Backchat Judgments
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to backchat within my head about a being I saw today who was tall and gangly, and judged him as awkward and had a negative charge towards him, a dislike, because of this judgement that he is awkward based on the way he looked in that moment.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to judge a being within my mind in secret and make a value judgment of him as negative based on his physical body shape.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to separate myself from the being based on the fact that I could do so in private within my secret mind and not have to face the being, and thus could seek out my own self interest as I actually was judging him because he did not respond and treat me the way I expected.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to use the backchat within and as my mind as a secret place to judge, make fun of, place value on another being and come to conclusions about who they are based on the way I reacted to the being and actually am using this backchat secret mind chamber to take revenge and get myself some energy to get back on top within myself as I accepted myself to feel rejected when I was not greeted in the way I expected.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to use my back chat in my secret mind chamber as a place to abuse others without directly facing them so I can diminish them as I have felt diminished by them on my own terms and not having to face them for real.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to take actions from another personal as if it was deliberate and done to spite me as I realize these are assumptions that I placed onto others actions and thus went into my secret mind as back chat and diminished and made them less then me so I could within myself see myself as more as I felt low from taking the action by the other personally.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have an expectation and desire for others to treat me how I expect to be treated where I gain a good feeling about myself as I have seen that I am accepted by the other and thus gained a high off of this acceptance as energy through good feelings gained within the exchange because I got what I desired, the greeting with praise and making me feel special/liked.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to thus go within the opposite polarity play out when I don't receive what I desired and in this case it was a certain greeting from this person and thus went into inferiority and thus felt less then him because I didn't see what I expected or desired when he greeted me and thus I wanted to seek revenge and blame him for me feeling this rejection.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to go within my mind as backchat and diminish the other within blame and rejection based on me taking his actions personally and thus went into the depression because i didn't get what I desired and thus went into revenge based on the blame and rejection feeling that I accepted and allowed to exist within me being desiring something and expecting it to come true.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to create desires and exceptions on others and life in general when there is no guarantee nor predictability to how anyone is to be and act thus also their is no limitations as i see and walk direct with all in common sense and see all here as myself so thus accept me here within and as all with no separation such as the idea that I have been rejected, not real made up because I separated myself to a feeling that was generated because I desire something more, existing in positive/negative when I realize that I am both here, I am all that exist, I walk me back here in oneness and equality.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to exist within and as the polarity play out of elated/diminished based on my outside world where I seek and desire confirmation for myself and acceptance of myself based on not desiring to get to know myself and face myself because I don't see myself as worthy to others thus seeking acceptance because of this inferiority I am existing as.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to react in blame and depression based on anothers actions towards me.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to define myself by others instead of giving myself the gift of acceptance and understanding of myself as life one with all and living my life and my actions best for all and thus one and equal where this will be how I live one and equal with all as self thus stopping the polarities.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to go into backchat and diminish another based on my acceptance and allowance of taking things personally based on my own self judgment and unworthiness I am feeling within myself and thus taking my pain and hurt out onto others because I am existing in one side of the good/bad polarity not realizing that I am both and have to equalize myself to ever feel stable as I am creating the instability within myself by living into one and resisting the other side of the pole.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to judge the other being and call him names within my back chat and thus create a negative charge when I was with him as I accepted and allowed myself to see myself as less then him and thus go into competition and diminish.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to go into competition to try and be more then another when this is only based on my lack of self worth.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not give me life here and thus exist within the mind as illusions as separations from who I realize I am as life and thus I walk to correction and stop the separation with life through stopping the separation within myself and accepting myself for who I am one and equal with all life.
When and as I come to a being where I judge and go into my backchat, I immediately stop and breath through the desire to participate in the mind. I stop and move myself physically to bring me back here. Once stable I find the points that I am not accepting within myself that cause me to react and become abusive and thus walk it into correction through self forgiveness and self corrective statements and thus then through my living.
I commit to stopping my secret mind as back chat and so live here within and as the physical as breath and physical movement with my human physical body.
I commit to stopping taking actions by others personally and go into mind delusions as inferiority and superiority and see myself within polarities in competition to the others, but rather breath, stop, and walk with in common sense and practical living in equality with self and so with all.
I commit to stop taking things personally and stop the abuse within seeing myself less then others, I commit to walk equal with all by walking my process to correction until their is no movement and I am here.
back chat, secret mind, secret life of a abuser, mind demon, demons within, vendetta against another, equality, eqafe, equal life, journey to life, desteni, 2012
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to judge a being within my mind in secret and make a value judgment of him as negative based on his physical body shape.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to separate myself from the being based on the fact that I could do so in private within my secret mind and not have to face the being, and thus could seek out my own self interest as I actually was judging him because he did not respond and treat me the way I expected.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to use the backchat within and as my mind as a secret place to judge, make fun of, place value on another being and come to conclusions about who they are based on the way I reacted to the being and actually am using this backchat secret mind chamber to take revenge and get myself some energy to get back on top within myself as I accepted myself to feel rejected when I was not greeted in the way I expected.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to use my back chat in my secret mind chamber as a place to abuse others without directly facing them so I can diminish them as I have felt diminished by them on my own terms and not having to face them for real.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to take actions from another personal as if it was deliberate and done to spite me as I realize these are assumptions that I placed onto others actions and thus went into my secret mind as back chat and diminished and made them less then me so I could within myself see myself as more as I felt low from taking the action by the other personally.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have an expectation and desire for others to treat me how I expect to be treated where I gain a good feeling about myself as I have seen that I am accepted by the other and thus gained a high off of this acceptance as energy through good feelings gained within the exchange because I got what I desired, the greeting with praise and making me feel special/liked.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to thus go within the opposite polarity play out when I don't receive what I desired and in this case it was a certain greeting from this person and thus went into inferiority and thus felt less then him because I didn't see what I expected or desired when he greeted me and thus I wanted to seek revenge and blame him for me feeling this rejection.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to go within my mind as backchat and diminish the other within blame and rejection based on me taking his actions personally and thus went into the depression because i didn't get what I desired and thus went into revenge based on the blame and rejection feeling that I accepted and allowed to exist within me being desiring something and expecting it to come true.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to create desires and exceptions on others and life in general when there is no guarantee nor predictability to how anyone is to be and act thus also their is no limitations as i see and walk direct with all in common sense and see all here as myself so thus accept me here within and as all with no separation such as the idea that I have been rejected, not real made up because I separated myself to a feeling that was generated because I desire something more, existing in positive/negative when I realize that I am both here, I am all that exist, I walk me back here in oneness and equality.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to exist within and as the polarity play out of elated/diminished based on my outside world where I seek and desire confirmation for myself and acceptance of myself based on not desiring to get to know myself and face myself because I don't see myself as worthy to others thus seeking acceptance because of this inferiority I am existing as.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to react in blame and depression based on anothers actions towards me.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to define myself by others instead of giving myself the gift of acceptance and understanding of myself as life one with all and living my life and my actions best for all and thus one and equal where this will be how I live one and equal with all as self thus stopping the polarities.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to go into backchat and diminish another based on my acceptance and allowance of taking things personally based on my own self judgment and unworthiness I am feeling within myself and thus taking my pain and hurt out onto others because I am existing in one side of the good/bad polarity not realizing that I am both and have to equalize myself to ever feel stable as I am creating the instability within myself by living into one and resisting the other side of the pole.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to judge the other being and call him names within my back chat and thus create a negative charge when I was with him as I accepted and allowed myself to see myself as less then him and thus go into competition and diminish.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to go into competition to try and be more then another when this is only based on my lack of self worth.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not give me life here and thus exist within the mind as illusions as separations from who I realize I am as life and thus I walk to correction and stop the separation with life through stopping the separation within myself and accepting myself for who I am one and equal with all life.
When and as I come to a being where I judge and go into my backchat, I immediately stop and breath through the desire to participate in the mind. I stop and move myself physically to bring me back here. Once stable I find the points that I am not accepting within myself that cause me to react and become abusive and thus walk it into correction through self forgiveness and self corrective statements and thus then through my living.
I commit to stopping my secret mind as back chat and so live here within and as the physical as breath and physical movement with my human physical body.
I commit to stopping taking actions by others personally and go into mind delusions as inferiority and superiority and see myself within polarities in competition to the others, but rather breath, stop, and walk with in common sense and practical living in equality with self and so with all.
I commit to stop taking things personally and stop the abuse within seeing myself less then others, I commit to walk equal with all by walking my process to correction until their is no movement and I am here.
back chat, secret mind, secret life of a abuser, mind demon, demons within, vendetta against another, equality, eqafe, equal life, journey to life, desteni, 2012
Tuesday, June 5, 2012
Day 51- Skinning Me Alive
I saw a picture on facebook today of men skinning some type of animal alive, this due to money and the survival to the point of death we are existing within and as this in this world with no sense of awareness of who we are as life and the being that is screaming in agony being skinned alive.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to allow this world to exist within the act of skinning animals alive for money and do this in a point of survival where I don't consider nor care about the absolute agony and suffering the animal is going through to have the flesh ripped from the very bones of their physicals and die a slow death.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to exist in a world where suffering and killing of others is allowed because I am chasing energy, chasing good feelings, and chasing the hope of being wealthy to get all these desires I am chasing.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not ever consider the life of another within and as each action I walk, but only walk within self interest because I have created the idea that I have to survive to fulfill my desires so thus allow this world to become a ruthless place where we kill each other and skin each other to survive another day another day to chase the good feelings and run away from the monsters we have become.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see and consider the life that is being abused and tortured within the skinning of another living being because it is not me and I don't have to feel this pain directly.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see and realize that the life within the suffering and screaming animal I am skinning is in fact one and equal with who I am, and I will in fact eventually face equal and one all the thoughts, words, actions I have done onto another and will face this directly equal and one to how I gave it, this is the truth of life, I will face who I am and everything I created, I am my own god = creator. ( Listen to the Reptilian/Atlantan Interviews on eqafe to see this point for yourself- Links on the left.) I will face the consequence of what I have accepted and allowed in this world because I created them in the first place.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to be within energy where I am only seeking a nice feeling, a pay day and thus can go have my nice feeling as minuscule as it might be, but do whatever it take in a system that allow this abuse, accept it, and participate within it to the death and destruction of others for my own happiness so I can survive and get another day of chase to fulfill my desires.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have never consider within and as the actions and words and thoughts I am continuously participating in without awareness that I am responsible for my actions, thoughts, and words, and thus took advantage of this false freedom I believed I had to blame and point fingers to others while I do my evil acts as well, but hide behind the mind as illusions until eventually it will hit me smack in the face and give me a brutal walk up call that I am fucking with myself, I am killing and torturing myself, thus this is what I will become until I stop and realize I have to change, and actual live the solution to stop torturing life by living it as myself.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not have consider the fact that there is another way within this world, there is a solution to what is here as suffering and torture, that life is able to live within peace and equilibrium, by creating the systems that support us and allow us to live equal to ourselves and not have direct control over our very livelihood, thus I realize and see that I must walk the change within myself as one and equal with this world by walking my process through self honesty and self forgiveness to self correction in my living as well as walk the change one and equal within this world system as the money system and change it to support all life within a system that is best for all in all ways and governance.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not have consider this point of living one and equal within creating a system where life is supported in this way through the money system and thus only focused on my own individual success, but all the while supporting my demise as I have separated myself from myself here as all life and accepted and allowed the abuse to exist within this world.
I commit myself to walk the correction of myself in this world to equalize myself with all life so I never again allow the abuse and suffering of another in any way whatsoever.
I commit to walking the solution of this world to create system that is in place for all to be supported and able to exist in freedom where all life prosper and not one is left behind.
I commit to create the equal money system where life is no more in strife, struggle nor survival to live, but all live equal and one in all ways because I created in a way where it will be best for all in all ways that is conceivable and makes sense. I walk with and as the group of beings that walks this in to being through living the principles of what is best for all until it is done. I/we will not stop until life is equal, one, and free in a world that live and breath best for all as I would want for self.
skinning animals alive, evil human acts, death by money, no life, no care for life, animal abuse, animal torture, equality, equal money, eqafe, desteni, 2012, journey to life,
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to allow this world to exist within the act of skinning animals alive for money and do this in a point of survival where I don't consider nor care about the absolute agony and suffering the animal is going through to have the flesh ripped from the very bones of their physicals and die a slow death.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to exist in a world where suffering and killing of others is allowed because I am chasing energy, chasing good feelings, and chasing the hope of being wealthy to get all these desires I am chasing.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not ever consider the life of another within and as each action I walk, but only walk within self interest because I have created the idea that I have to survive to fulfill my desires so thus allow this world to become a ruthless place where we kill each other and skin each other to survive another day another day to chase the good feelings and run away from the monsters we have become.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see and consider the life that is being abused and tortured within the skinning of another living being because it is not me and I don't have to feel this pain directly.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see and realize that the life within the suffering and screaming animal I am skinning is in fact one and equal with who I am, and I will in fact eventually face equal and one all the thoughts, words, actions I have done onto another and will face this directly equal and one to how I gave it, this is the truth of life, I will face who I am and everything I created, I am my own god = creator. ( Listen to the Reptilian/Atlantan Interviews on eqafe to see this point for yourself- Links on the left.) I will face the consequence of what I have accepted and allowed in this world because I created them in the first place.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to be within energy where I am only seeking a nice feeling, a pay day and thus can go have my nice feeling as minuscule as it might be, but do whatever it take in a system that allow this abuse, accept it, and participate within it to the death and destruction of others for my own happiness so I can survive and get another day of chase to fulfill my desires.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have never consider within and as the actions and words and thoughts I am continuously participating in without awareness that I am responsible for my actions, thoughts, and words, and thus took advantage of this false freedom I believed I had to blame and point fingers to others while I do my evil acts as well, but hide behind the mind as illusions until eventually it will hit me smack in the face and give me a brutal walk up call that I am fucking with myself, I am killing and torturing myself, thus this is what I will become until I stop and realize I have to change, and actual live the solution to stop torturing life by living it as myself.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not have consider the fact that there is another way within this world, there is a solution to what is here as suffering and torture, that life is able to live within peace and equilibrium, by creating the systems that support us and allow us to live equal to ourselves and not have direct control over our very livelihood, thus I realize and see that I must walk the change within myself as one and equal with this world by walking my process through self honesty and self forgiveness to self correction in my living as well as walk the change one and equal within this world system as the money system and change it to support all life within a system that is best for all in all ways and governance.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not have consider this point of living one and equal within creating a system where life is supported in this way through the money system and thus only focused on my own individual success, but all the while supporting my demise as I have separated myself from myself here as all life and accepted and allowed the abuse to exist within this world.
I commit myself to walk the correction of myself in this world to equalize myself with all life so I never again allow the abuse and suffering of another in any way whatsoever.
I commit to walking the solution of this world to create system that is in place for all to be supported and able to exist in freedom where all life prosper and not one is left behind.
I commit to create the equal money system where life is no more in strife, struggle nor survival to live, but all live equal and one in all ways because I created in a way where it will be best for all in all ways that is conceivable and makes sense. I walk with and as the group of beings that walks this in to being through living the principles of what is best for all until it is done. I/we will not stop until life is equal, one, and free in a world that live and breath best for all as I would want for self.
skinning animals alive, evil human acts, death by money, no life, no care for life, animal abuse, animal torture, equality, equal money, eqafe, desteni, 2012, journey to life,
Monday, June 4, 2012
Day 50- 'I Don't want to Change'
'I dont' want to change'
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to live the thought out of 'i don't want to change' due to accepting my desire that its too much and I can't do it direct me to not walk the change because I believe that I am not capable enough.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to accept and allow the thought that I cant change because I am not capable enough realizing and seeing this is due to the point of not wanting to face myself and standing up and pushing through all resistances I face as I see and realize all it take within me is a decision and live it out breath by breath.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not desire to face myself and walk through the resistances as I want to relax and not have to walk the walk that it will take to in fact walk the change that is required to be walked within and as this process of equalizing self as the mind to the physical as it will be a long walk.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to allow desires as resistances to 'have a nice time' and its so long direct me into self sabotage where I will compromise my process for a feeling and an experience to feel good when what I realize and understand within who I am here is that I must change to equalize self with the physical to stop the separation of myself in this world and the enslavement of ourselves within as as this physical existence to the mind consciousness system, which is not a feeling nor an experience to strive for or gett a feeling from, but a living, here, in breath as I walk, no experience a being.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to indulge in the point of overwhelmingness direct me into self sabotage where i resist change because its a long process when I realize this process is walked step by step and thus in time will accumulate to what it will be as time, but what I work with is here in breath moment by moment and thus it is manageable and actually simple in terms of the walking of it, it require to slow down which is cool anyway to walk as breath.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to desire to always chase experiences as good feelings instead of facing who I am and walking what needs to be walked to change what is here as this world as I realize the only way to get this done is if I in fact change myself for real through actually doing it and living the correction as myself.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to abdicate myself to the mind as nice feelings as experiences instead of facing what I have created, taking responsibility, and changing to walk the correction to create a better world for all which will be better for me too.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to indulge in self interest for my own happiness and comfort while many others suffer due to the lack that this greed balances out as and thus create suffering in this world due to my desire for more.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to not change because I want to get my happiness through energy as feelings which is easy.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to desire the easy way out, the quick fix, but realizing that the quick fix is just that quick and doesn't consider all that is here thus will always fail.
When and as this point to want to indulge in the thought to not want to change, and get a quick fix by getting easy energy through experiences as the mind, I stop, breath, and re-align with my physical as I realize I am life and life is worth it to walk in breath in patiences and get this done for real once and for all. So I breath to stabilize myself and say 'I am one and equal with life' and push through all resistance.
I commit to re-align with breath and stop indulging in the mind as thoughts, feelings, experiences.
I commit to walk the change that is necessary and walk my process to self correction.
I commit to walk one and equal with all those who are willing to create a world that is best for all and do my part to stand equal within this change and live the solution in equality and oneness to all in this world.
I commit to walk through all resistances in practical living and walk what is needed to be walked to correct myself and stand as life one and equal as the solution to end suffering forevermore on this planet.
i dont want to change, i dont care, life is too hard, why is life hard, hardships, stress, no trust, solutions, equality, equal life, eqafe, desteni, journey to life, 2012,
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to live the thought out of 'i don't want to change' due to accepting my desire that its too much and I can't do it direct me to not walk the change because I believe that I am not capable enough.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to accept and allow the thought that I cant change because I am not capable enough realizing and seeing this is due to the point of not wanting to face myself and standing up and pushing through all resistances I face as I see and realize all it take within me is a decision and live it out breath by breath.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not desire to face myself and walk through the resistances as I want to relax and not have to walk the walk that it will take to in fact walk the change that is required to be walked within and as this process of equalizing self as the mind to the physical as it will be a long walk.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to allow desires as resistances to 'have a nice time' and its so long direct me into self sabotage where I will compromise my process for a feeling and an experience to feel good when what I realize and understand within who I am here is that I must change to equalize self with the physical to stop the separation of myself in this world and the enslavement of ourselves within as as this physical existence to the mind consciousness system, which is not a feeling nor an experience to strive for or gett a feeling from, but a living, here, in breath as I walk, no experience a being.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to indulge in the point of overwhelmingness direct me into self sabotage where i resist change because its a long process when I realize this process is walked step by step and thus in time will accumulate to what it will be as time, but what I work with is here in breath moment by moment and thus it is manageable and actually simple in terms of the walking of it, it require to slow down which is cool anyway to walk as breath.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to desire to always chase experiences as good feelings instead of facing who I am and walking what needs to be walked to change what is here as this world as I realize the only way to get this done is if I in fact change myself for real through actually doing it and living the correction as myself.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to abdicate myself to the mind as nice feelings as experiences instead of facing what I have created, taking responsibility, and changing to walk the correction to create a better world for all which will be better for me too.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to indulge in self interest for my own happiness and comfort while many others suffer due to the lack that this greed balances out as and thus create suffering in this world due to my desire for more.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to not change because I want to get my happiness through energy as feelings which is easy.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to desire the easy way out, the quick fix, but realizing that the quick fix is just that quick and doesn't consider all that is here thus will always fail.
When and as this point to want to indulge in the thought to not want to change, and get a quick fix by getting easy energy through experiences as the mind, I stop, breath, and re-align with my physical as I realize I am life and life is worth it to walk in breath in patiences and get this done for real once and for all. So I breath to stabilize myself and say 'I am one and equal with life' and push through all resistance.
I commit to re-align with breath and stop indulging in the mind as thoughts, feelings, experiences.
I commit to walk the change that is necessary and walk my process to self correction.
I commit to walk one and equal with all those who are willing to create a world that is best for all and do my part to stand equal within this change and live the solution in equality and oneness to all in this world.
I commit to walk through all resistances in practical living and walk what is needed to be walked to correct myself and stand as life one and equal as the solution to end suffering forevermore on this planet.
i dont want to change, i dont care, life is too hard, why is life hard, hardships, stress, no trust, solutions, equality, equal life, eqafe, desteni, journey to life, 2012,
Sunday, June 3, 2012
Day 49- Giving My Power Away
I just twisted my knee rather abruptly just now while I was blow drying my hair in the mirror, which I never do. I blew dry it because I made a judgment of myself that my hair was crazy looking as it was air dried and thus was wild looking. I have to still do my vlog for tonight, so I went into the point of 'I have to blow dry my hair and make it tame or else what will people think of me if I go on with wild hair. Within this thought and thus living out the judgment within me going in and blow drying my hair is the separation I have been existing as and thus my knee had to twist for me to realize what in fact I was doing, giving my power away to a thought about who I am and how I will be perceived based on my self judgment that I will not look good enough for others. Thus I am giving my power away to my mind, so I am not able to stand here, which was indicated through the weak knee and thus I must walk the self forgiveness on giving my power away to a thought of 'I need to change who I am because I am not enough to be acceptable for others'.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to give my power away as equal and one to life as the directive principle to the thought that 'I need to change who I am because I am not enough to be acceptable for others', within this giving my self to my mind to direct me as I lived out the action of going and blowing my hair straight to thus look acceptable in my minds eye.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to live into the pattern that I need to impress others by living into the judgment that I must look presentable when in front of others because I fear being judged and thus not being liked.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to give my power away to the fear of being judged by others and not liked based on my projection that I will be ugly and unable to be looked at because others will be repulsed by the way I look.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to actually live and exist within the self judgment that I repulse people based on the way I look and thus I desire all the time to make sure that I am perfected within my look and thus go out of my way to be seen as acceptable for my self, so I will be stable enough to be in front of others because if I accept my picture then others will.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to live out this point of weakness within myself based on defining myself by the way I look because I see that to be seen as ugly is to be weak and thus I will always go into a point of weakness when I have defined myself by this picture of ugliness I hold in my head and become inferior in that moment with others and thus lose my power within self willed action to the mind and lose my power to walk the correction as I have separated myself from myself by judging myself as less then.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to judge myself as less then because of the way I look and thus go the extra step to correct this point so I can be acceptable for others as I project they I will be dismissed and rejected if I am not perfect within my picture.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to project my own fears and self judgments onto others and thus walk into situation with others in competition and comparison as my starting point to define who I am within the situation as I am only exist within the mind as a picture missing myself here as life equal and one with all thus losing my power to live one and equal with all as I have given my power away to competition and comparison due to fear and self judgment.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have this idea in place that I have to look a certain way to be accepted and liked by others based on my own self judgment and comparison with others where I judge and like/dislike others based on my initial reaction to their picture.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to exist within and as self judgment and comparison with life here where I diminish them within myself where I am really only diminishing myself by giving my power away to the mind and thus losing my ability to exist as life as who I really am one and equal with the other but in diminishment as attack and abuse to be seen as more and thus to be the winner.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to give my power away to ego as desire to be the winner and thus allow and accept competition within myself as all life here and only cause the diminishment as myself because I realize I am competing against me, I am attack myself based on the delusion as an idea that I have to be better and be the winner.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to define myself and allow a reaction to a being based on an idea of perfection I am having of that being in my head and thus reject them if they don't suit my desire.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to hold a desire as an idea of perfection that I am using as a definer of life within if I will live with or reject accepting and allowing myself completely to separate myself form others and my own self power by not seeing life for who we are and causing abuse to others as well as myself because I desire to be perfect and to win.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to hold onto the idea that i have to win to survive and thus got addicted to this winning based on the good feelings thus I abused life to feel good because i am addicted to energy and thus only existed within getting this energy as good feelings because I separated myself from myself as life thus lost the power of what it mean to live self perfected with all as self one and equal as this physical existence in harmony.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to hold onto this idea of perfection within my head that I must look perfect for others to like me or I will not gain the attention I desire and not be given the praise and good feelings as energies I am addicted to from others within how I have manipulated the relationships to be seen that I am more then who I think I am as I don't think very highly of myself based on seeing myself less then this perfection idea I hold onto.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to desire attention from others as praise and good feelings because I am not giving this to my self as I am hard on myself where I see myself never good enough, never pretty enough, never smart enough, never satisfied with what I am and who I am so thus in a constant point of self sabotage because I have separated myself into an idea of perfection that can never be fulfilled because the energy I am desiring and looking for runs out and continually has to be generated and re generated which takes much effort.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to give my power away to the thought that 'I am not good enough' based on this idea that I have to be perfect in everything I do because I am only defining myself by how others respond to me never accepting and allowing myself and my own self assessment in self honest as self criticism or self love but done within the mind as a point of absolute perfection where I need to be the best at all times or I am nothing and thus the only way that I see myself as the best is if others see this of me as well.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to only exist within the point as a projection of myself onto others as an idea or facade I am existing as as a perfect picture and that what I do is always going to be top notch, and thus judging myself as not worthy when my world does not respond in this way as I can not be top notch within what I am doing as this is impossible and to live for others judgments of me to define how I am is always going to end up in self sabotage as I never will be satisfied with myself I will never know and live who I really am because I am always in a constant state of self separation as self judgement trying to live for others because I am living as separation for good feelings by how others treat me based in this idea that for them to give me what i need as self praise I have to look perfect thus creating a constant state of instability and misery because I am never satisfied.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to abdicate my responsibility to myself to live self empowerment through facing myself and stopping these patterns of self sabotage by stopping existing within these ideas of self perfection, and live within and as the moment as self living in self perfection. Walking myself within and as the process of who I realize I am as life one and equal to stop the separation and walk here in breath through giving myself care and love by living and accepting myself as who I am and stopping the addiction to energy through others and becoming humble within and as myself.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear facing myself because I fear facing my past.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear facing the past as their is a lot of points I can not see and do not know how to deal with in this moment, but realize to walk the points as they come is what will assist me to get through it and walk the points within self honesty and stopping fear and self judgement.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to allow fear to direct me.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to give my power away based on a picture and an idea that is not real and thus is not what define me as it's made up in my mind and thus I have the power to stop it and walk what I realize is self stability and self support here as my breath in each moment breath by breath and walk fearless in what is to come as I realize I have created what is here and thus I will do what it takes to walk myself to equalize myself with my creation and correct what I have lived faulty.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to give my power away to the mind missing me here as breath as life.
When and as this point comes to judge myself based on thoughts, ideas, and self judgment due to the desire to please others through this idea that I have to look and be perfect for others approval thus I live this out in seperation to myself by giving my power away to the mind in desires and self interest missing life here within and as me as one and equal to all. I stop, breath, and walk the correction by stopping all participation in the mind as thoughts, desires, ideas, and stop separating myself with others by stop looking for acceptance and accept myself. Through breath I stabilize myself and continue to stop all the points I see were I am separating myself and not here within and as what I am doing. I give my power back to me by walking the physical breath by breath and walking equal and one with my physical reality as the physical body. I push myself to stop my mind and walk here as the physical and give myself my power back by accepting myself in who I am in all aspects and walking the correction that is here to be walked, stopping separating myself into energy attainment through the mind which is not who I am.
I commit to walk myself out of the mind by stopping self judgment, ideas, competition, thoughts, and the quest to gain acceptance from others and walk the acceptance of myself within common sense and humbleness.
I commit myself to stop comparing myself and living within an idea of the mind but live here within the physical body by stabilizing myself with breath and physical action.
I commit to walk as equal and one with all I come into contact with and stop my mind from direct me into self sabotage by letting the thoughts, ideas, pictures go, and continue to stay stable and walk with one and equal.
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I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to give my power away as equal and one to life as the directive principle to the thought that 'I need to change who I am because I am not enough to be acceptable for others', within this giving my self to my mind to direct me as I lived out the action of going and blowing my hair straight to thus look acceptable in my minds eye.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to live into the pattern that I need to impress others by living into the judgment that I must look presentable when in front of others because I fear being judged and thus not being liked.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to give my power away to the fear of being judged by others and not liked based on my projection that I will be ugly and unable to be looked at because others will be repulsed by the way I look.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to actually live and exist within the self judgment that I repulse people based on the way I look and thus I desire all the time to make sure that I am perfected within my look and thus go out of my way to be seen as acceptable for my self, so I will be stable enough to be in front of others because if I accept my picture then others will.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to live out this point of weakness within myself based on defining myself by the way I look because I see that to be seen as ugly is to be weak and thus I will always go into a point of weakness when I have defined myself by this picture of ugliness I hold in my head and become inferior in that moment with others and thus lose my power within self willed action to the mind and lose my power to walk the correction as I have separated myself from myself by judging myself as less then.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to judge myself as less then because of the way I look and thus go the extra step to correct this point so I can be acceptable for others as I project they I will be dismissed and rejected if I am not perfect within my picture.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to project my own fears and self judgments onto others and thus walk into situation with others in competition and comparison as my starting point to define who I am within the situation as I am only exist within the mind as a picture missing myself here as life equal and one with all thus losing my power to live one and equal with all as I have given my power away to competition and comparison due to fear and self judgment.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have this idea in place that I have to look a certain way to be accepted and liked by others based on my own self judgment and comparison with others where I judge and like/dislike others based on my initial reaction to their picture.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to exist within and as self judgment and comparison with life here where I diminish them within myself where I am really only diminishing myself by giving my power away to the mind and thus losing my ability to exist as life as who I really am one and equal with the other but in diminishment as attack and abuse to be seen as more and thus to be the winner.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to give my power away to ego as desire to be the winner and thus allow and accept competition within myself as all life here and only cause the diminishment as myself because I realize I am competing against me, I am attack myself based on the delusion as an idea that I have to be better and be the winner.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to define myself and allow a reaction to a being based on an idea of perfection I am having of that being in my head and thus reject them if they don't suit my desire.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to hold a desire as an idea of perfection that I am using as a definer of life within if I will live with or reject accepting and allowing myself completely to separate myself form others and my own self power by not seeing life for who we are and causing abuse to others as well as myself because I desire to be perfect and to win.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to hold onto the idea that i have to win to survive and thus got addicted to this winning based on the good feelings thus I abused life to feel good because i am addicted to energy and thus only existed within getting this energy as good feelings because I separated myself from myself as life thus lost the power of what it mean to live self perfected with all as self one and equal as this physical existence in harmony.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to hold onto this idea of perfection within my head that I must look perfect for others to like me or I will not gain the attention I desire and not be given the praise and good feelings as energies I am addicted to from others within how I have manipulated the relationships to be seen that I am more then who I think I am as I don't think very highly of myself based on seeing myself less then this perfection idea I hold onto.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to desire attention from others as praise and good feelings because I am not giving this to my self as I am hard on myself where I see myself never good enough, never pretty enough, never smart enough, never satisfied with what I am and who I am so thus in a constant point of self sabotage because I have separated myself into an idea of perfection that can never be fulfilled because the energy I am desiring and looking for runs out and continually has to be generated and re generated which takes much effort.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to give my power away to the thought that 'I am not good enough' based on this idea that I have to be perfect in everything I do because I am only defining myself by how others respond to me never accepting and allowing myself and my own self assessment in self honest as self criticism or self love but done within the mind as a point of absolute perfection where I need to be the best at all times or I am nothing and thus the only way that I see myself as the best is if others see this of me as well.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to only exist within the point as a projection of myself onto others as an idea or facade I am existing as as a perfect picture and that what I do is always going to be top notch, and thus judging myself as not worthy when my world does not respond in this way as I can not be top notch within what I am doing as this is impossible and to live for others judgments of me to define how I am is always going to end up in self sabotage as I never will be satisfied with myself I will never know and live who I really am because I am always in a constant state of self separation as self judgement trying to live for others because I am living as separation for good feelings by how others treat me based in this idea that for them to give me what i need as self praise I have to look perfect thus creating a constant state of instability and misery because I am never satisfied.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to abdicate my responsibility to myself to live self empowerment through facing myself and stopping these patterns of self sabotage by stopping existing within these ideas of self perfection, and live within and as the moment as self living in self perfection. Walking myself within and as the process of who I realize I am as life one and equal to stop the separation and walk here in breath through giving myself care and love by living and accepting myself as who I am and stopping the addiction to energy through others and becoming humble within and as myself.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear facing myself because I fear facing my past.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear facing the past as their is a lot of points I can not see and do not know how to deal with in this moment, but realize to walk the points as they come is what will assist me to get through it and walk the points within self honesty and stopping fear and self judgement.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to allow fear to direct me.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to give my power away based on a picture and an idea that is not real and thus is not what define me as it's made up in my mind and thus I have the power to stop it and walk what I realize is self stability and self support here as my breath in each moment breath by breath and walk fearless in what is to come as I realize I have created what is here and thus I will do what it takes to walk myself to equalize myself with my creation and correct what I have lived faulty.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to give my power away to the mind missing me here as breath as life.
When and as this point comes to judge myself based on thoughts, ideas, and self judgment due to the desire to please others through this idea that I have to look and be perfect for others approval thus I live this out in seperation to myself by giving my power away to the mind in desires and self interest missing life here within and as me as one and equal to all. I stop, breath, and walk the correction by stopping all participation in the mind as thoughts, desires, ideas, and stop separating myself with others by stop looking for acceptance and accept myself. Through breath I stabilize myself and continue to stop all the points I see were I am separating myself and not here within and as what I am doing. I give my power back to me by walking the physical breath by breath and walking equal and one with my physical reality as the physical body. I push myself to stop my mind and walk here as the physical and give myself my power back by accepting myself in who I am in all aspects and walking the correction that is here to be walked, stopping separating myself into energy attainment through the mind which is not who I am.
I commit to walk myself out of the mind by stopping self judgment, ideas, competition, thoughts, and the quest to gain acceptance from others and walk the acceptance of myself within common sense and humbleness.
I commit myself to stop comparing myself and living within an idea of the mind but live here within the physical body by stabilizing myself with breath and physical action.
I commit to walk as equal and one with all I come into contact with and stop my mind from direct me into self sabotage by letting the thoughts, ideas, pictures go, and continue to stay stable and walk with one and equal.
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Saturday, June 2, 2012
Day 48- Desire to Lie
Today I had come upon the decision in an in my face sort of way to either be self honest or walk in secret like living out the secret mind, and lie about an event that took place that I was responsible for but could have easily swept it under the rug. This was something I broke that was over a thousand dollars. I took responsibility and told her it was me and that I would pay for it to be replaced. I am walking self forgiveness on my initial reaction to lie and abdicate my responsibility to get out of paying money and getting out of facing her and the consequence of what I have done.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to go into thoughts of 'oh shit, I got to get out of this' and just letting it be so I will never be found out because it could never be pinpointed back to me as there are many who are involved in this situation, but within this realizing and seeing that that will put the owners in a debt of a lot of money that I was the cause of and could harm others when it was not their doing.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to allow the thought 'oh shit, I got to get out of this' direct me to be deceptive and try and scheme a way to not have to face the consequence of my actions.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not want to pay the money and just want to blame it on someone or something else.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to be a slave to money and want it all for myself.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to separate myself from money and see it as scarce.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting money as my god.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to desire to blame something or someone else so I don't have to face what I've done.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to take the easy way out and blame it on someone or something else.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become deceptive and dishonest to suit my own self interest to not have to pay money and get out of the consequences I will face if I tell her to her face and let her now it was my doing.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to give into fear and think of ways to get out of it.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to desire to not have to face what I have done because I fear what is going to happen to me and what will be done as consequence.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to go into fear and thus go into inferiority to the situation that I have created and thus instead of facing it and going into solutions I go into deception and cause abuse to others if I go into the actions of living out my thoughts.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to desire to lie to get my needs met abdicating all else involved and causing unnecessary abuse towards them.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to allow the mind to direct me in thoughts and self interest as survival instead of being here in self responsibility one and equal with all and face who I am here in every breath no matter what I will face, I realize I am the creator and thus must walk my creation to correction until I am here stable.
When and as this point comes up to abdicate my responsibility to my actions and lie to get out of facing them as mind direction, I stop, breath, and walk the correction as facing my consequence I created here in physical breath and solving the issue to be best for all no matter what is faced, I stop fear.
I commit to stop the desire to lie.
I commit to stop abdicating my responsibility.
I commit to continue to walk in self honesty and walk the solutions for what is best for all here as breath.
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I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to go into thoughts of 'oh shit, I got to get out of this' and just letting it be so I will never be found out because it could never be pinpointed back to me as there are many who are involved in this situation, but within this realizing and seeing that that will put the owners in a debt of a lot of money that I was the cause of and could harm others when it was not their doing.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to allow the thought 'oh shit, I got to get out of this' direct me to be deceptive and try and scheme a way to not have to face the consequence of my actions.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not want to pay the money and just want to blame it on someone or something else.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to be a slave to money and want it all for myself.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to separate myself from money and see it as scarce.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting money as my god.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to desire to blame something or someone else so I don't have to face what I've done.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to take the easy way out and blame it on someone or something else.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become deceptive and dishonest to suit my own self interest to not have to pay money and get out of the consequences I will face if I tell her to her face and let her now it was my doing.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to give into fear and think of ways to get out of it.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to desire to not have to face what I have done because I fear what is going to happen to me and what will be done as consequence.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to go into fear and thus go into inferiority to the situation that I have created and thus instead of facing it and going into solutions I go into deception and cause abuse to others if I go into the actions of living out my thoughts.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to desire to lie to get my needs met abdicating all else involved and causing unnecessary abuse towards them.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to allow the mind to direct me in thoughts and self interest as survival instead of being here in self responsibility one and equal with all and face who I am here in every breath no matter what I will face, I realize I am the creator and thus must walk my creation to correction until I am here stable.
When and as this point comes up to abdicate my responsibility to my actions and lie to get out of facing them as mind direction, I stop, breath, and walk the correction as facing my consequence I created here in physical breath and solving the issue to be best for all no matter what is faced, I stop fear.
I commit to stop the desire to lie.
I commit to stop abdicating my responsibility.
I commit to continue to walk in self honesty and walk the solutions for what is best for all here as breath.
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Friday, June 1, 2012
Day 47- Drowning myself in Beauty Pictures
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to judge the way I look because within myself I desire to be a beautiful picture so I can have a beautiful man and be able to live and enjoy this beautiful man as I know that I will be equal within this beauty as I will be seen within myself as beautiful as well.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to be within and as a secret mind competition play out where I am defining my partner and all who I come into contact with based on our pictures and if we are equal within the idea of beauty I am holding on to then I will accept myself within the relationship.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to exist within back chat competition of being more beautiful then others as I desire this for myself to be seen as the best within the group.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to only desire to be better then others through pictures and thus define myself within this idea that I am better because I am being seen by others as better based on the way we look.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to project my own judgments onto others and assume this is how they are defining me through the way I look and thus go into the mind and define myself by this projection and my idea of how they reacted to me and thus get lost within this cycle of self judgment towards myself because I am not accepting myself and only seeing myself within desires to be seen as more so I can be accepted by myself because I am not seeing myself as worthy as others and thus playing this polarity of being more within defining myself and all life by the way we look which is complete separation from who I really am here as all life.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to judge the look of those who are not this beautiful picture as less then because within myself I fear being this, i fear being seen as ugly by others because I have only defined and accepted others based on the beautiful picture they held and thus within myself always held myself to a point this picture as well and thus caused great depression within myself because I was never satisfied as I saw my self as ugly and never satisfied because I was so judgmental of others so could not be close with them.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to envy those girls who had a beautify look as I saw them as perfect in their life and had all the opportunities I wouldn't get because I wasn't this beautiful picture as I was only basing the acceptance of myself and others on the way we looked primarily.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become addicted with my look and thus only focus on what I looked liked and how I was being perceived by others in terms of their expression towards me and thus go into a polarity of inferior/superior based on the reactions of others toward me and thus define myself by others based on the way I felt on how they either accepted me or rejected me and I always tied this to the way I looked.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to become a picture only desiring and existing to impress those around me so I could be seen as acceptable where I perceived this would help me move up in the world so to speak, get the man I desired, and be able to get money/job that I desired because all that matter was if people like me as people were always attracted to those who were beautiful.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to live my life based on pictures and define myself as well as others based on the way we look within this realizing that there is no difference in terms of who we are as our look, we are all made of substance and thus all have the same design as life, but within ourselves the differences of expressions is here and thus limiting myself to defining myself by just a picture instead of realizing that I am all the pictures I see.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to limit myself to only pictures and disregard the being within and as the body equal and one to me but devalue them or exalt them due to me not accepting myself here as all life as who we are here as our physical bodies.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to exist within polarity play outs of ugly and beautiful within the way one look and thus define them by this as if this is who we are as I realize that within myself this is not who I am I am not based on the picture that I see in the mirror and thus I must realize and walk this point by stopping the desire to be something more then just here a body as flesh as the human is made up as as life.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not accept me as ugly within and as this picture as I have defined this as lack and no opportunity and thus saw this as a point of lose and that it must be avoided as I will not be able to fully live out what I desire which was to have the man of my dreams if i saw myself as ugly or if others gave me any indication within their reaction towards me as ugly.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to judge those with this idea of ugly I held in my mind where it is a defining point of who they are and thus go into a point of separation towards them based on the way our pictures looked which is limiting me from becoming life here with all as I am judging life due to something that I am not accepting within myself because I desire to be something different and something more.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to desire to look different because I am not getting the attention I desire from males in which I have the option to get any guy I desire based on the picture I present.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not accept my picture because I desire to be more in hopes that I will get the attention I desire instead of living within and as who I am here as self in all of who I am accepting me for me and stopping the separation within the idea that who I am to others and what I desire is all that matters.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to limit myself to pictures and desires to be special within and as my world and have attention from others because I see myself as less then and thus define this attention to my self worth.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to define my self worth based on others reactions to me instead of who I am within and as my living in equality with life and how I live this equality as myself.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to only exist as the mind as a picture based on survival and trying to remain in this system to have power and my desires met.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to help perpetuate this system of competition and abuse to life based on my desire to be special and be on top.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not accept all life here unconditionally within who we are as life beings as this physical existence and walk the correction to self perfection in living within and as care and unity of ourselves with the freedom of being here and being defined by nothing and existing as everything one and equal to self.
I commit to stop defining life by the beauty system of beauty and ugliness.
I commit to let go all of my judgments and ideas of trying to be more to attain a certain outcome.
I commit to let go of my desires for more and to be the best, but live among life within the living of practical physical reality in who I am as one and equal with all life as self.
I commit to accept myself here without condition and walk the re-alignment into oneness and equality with all as this physical existence in my living as self perfection as what life is for real.
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