Day 49- Giving My Power Away

I just twisted my knee rather abruptly just now while I was blow drying my hair in the mirror, which I never do. I blew dry it because I made a judgment of myself that my hair was crazy looking as it was air dried and thus was wild looking. I have to still do my vlog for tonight, so I went into the point of 'I have to blow dry my hair and make it tame or else what will people think of me if I go on with wild hair. Within this thought and thus living out the judgment within me going in and blow drying my hair is the separation I have been existing as and thus my knee had to twist for me to realize what in fact I was doing, giving my power away to a thought about who I am and how I will be perceived based on my self judgment that I will not look good enough for others. Thus I am giving my power away to my mind, so I am not able to stand here, which was indicated through the weak knee and thus I must walk the self forgiveness on giving my power away to a thought of 'I need to change who I am because I am not enough to be acceptable for others'.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to give my power away as equal and one to life as the directive principle to the thought that 'I need to change who I am because I am not enough to be acceptable for others', within this giving my self to my mind to direct me as I lived out the action of going and blowing my hair straight to thus look acceptable in my minds eye.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to live into the pattern that I need to impress others by living into the judgment that I must look presentable when in front of others because I fear being judged and thus not being liked.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to give my power away to the fear of being judged by others and not liked based on my projection that I will be ugly and unable to be looked at because others will be repulsed by the way I look.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to actually live and exist within the self judgment that I repulse people based on the way I look and thus I desire all the time to make sure that I am perfected within my look and thus go out of my way to be seen as acceptable for my self, so I will be stable enough to be in front of others because if I accept my picture then others will.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to live out this point of weakness within myself based on defining myself by the way I look because I see that to be seen as ugly is to be weak and thus I will always go into a point of weakness when I have defined myself by this picture of ugliness I hold in my head and become inferior in that moment with others and thus lose my power within self willed action to the mind and lose my power to walk the correction as I have separated myself from myself by judging myself as less then.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to judge myself as less then because of the way I look and thus go the extra step to correct this point so I can be acceptable for others as I project they I will be dismissed and rejected if I am not perfect within my picture.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to project my own fears and self judgments onto others and thus walk into situation with others in competition and comparison as my starting point to define who I am within the situation as I am only exist within the mind as a picture missing myself here as life equal and one with all thus losing my power to live one and equal with all as I have given my power away to competition and comparison due to fear and self judgment.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have this idea in place that I have to look a certain way to be accepted and liked by others based on my own self judgment and comparison with others where I judge and like/dislike others based on my initial reaction to their picture.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to exist within and as self judgment and comparison with life here where I diminish them within myself where I am really only diminishing myself by giving my power away to the mind and thus losing my ability to exist as life as who I really am one and equal with the other but in diminishment as attack and abuse to be seen as more and thus to be the winner.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to give my power away to ego as desire to be the winner and thus allow and accept competition within myself as all life here and only cause the diminishment as myself because I realize I am competing against me, I am attack myself based on the delusion as an idea that I have to be better and be the winner.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to define myself and allow a reaction to a being based on an idea of perfection I am having of that being in my head and thus reject them if they don't suit my desire.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to hold a desire as an idea of perfection that I am using as a definer of life within if I will live with or reject accepting and allowing myself completely to separate myself form others and my own self power by not seeing life for who we are and causing abuse to others as well as myself because I desire to be perfect and to win.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to hold onto the idea that i have to win to survive and thus got addicted to this winning based on the good feelings thus I abused life to feel good because i am addicted to energy and thus only existed within getting this energy as good feelings because I separated myself from myself as life thus lost the power of what it mean to live self perfected with all as self one and equal as this physical existence in harmony.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to hold onto this idea of perfection within my head that I must look perfect for others to like me or I will not gain the attention I desire and not be given the praise and good feelings as energies I am addicted to from others within how I have manipulated the relationships to be seen that I am more then who I think I am as I don't think very highly of myself based on seeing myself less then this perfection idea I hold onto.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to desire attention from others as praise and good feelings because I am not giving this to my self as I am hard on myself where I see myself never good enough, never pretty enough, never smart enough, never satisfied with what I am and who I am so thus in a constant point of self sabotage because I have separated myself into an idea of perfection that can never be fulfilled because the energy I am desiring and looking for runs out and continually has to be generated and re generated which takes much effort.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to give my power away to the thought that 'I am not good enough' based on this idea that I have to be perfect in everything I do because I am only defining myself by how others respond to me never accepting and allowing myself and my own self assessment in self honest as self criticism or self love but done within the mind as a point of absolute perfection where I need to be the best at all times or I am nothing and thus the only way that I see myself as the best is if others see this of me as well.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to only exist within the point as a projection of myself onto others as an idea or facade I am existing as as a perfect picture and that what I do is always going to be top notch, and thus judging myself as not worthy when my world does not respond in this way as I can not be top notch within what I am doing as this is impossible and to live for others judgments of me to define how I am is always going to end up in self sabotage as I never will be satisfied with myself I will never know and live who I really am because I am always in a constant state of self separation as self judgement trying to live for others because I am living as separation for good feelings by how others treat me based in this idea that for them to give me what i need as self praise I have to look perfect thus creating a constant state of instability and misery because I am never satisfied.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to abdicate my responsibility to myself to live self empowerment through facing myself and stopping these patterns of self sabotage by stopping existing within these ideas of self perfection, and live within and as the moment as self living in self perfection. Walking myself within and as the process of who I realize I am as life one and equal to stop the separation and walk here in breath through giving myself care and love by living and accepting myself as who I am and stopping the addiction to energy through others and becoming humble within and as myself.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear facing myself because I fear facing my past.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear facing the past as their is a lot of points I can not see and do not know how to deal with in this moment, but realize to walk the points as they come is what will assist me to get through it and walk the points within self honesty and stopping fear and self judgement.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to allow fear to direct me.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to give my power away based on a picture and an idea that is not real and thus is not what define me as it's made up in my mind and thus I have the power to stop it and walk what I realize is self stability and self support here as my breath in each moment breath by breath and walk fearless in what is to come as I realize I have created what is here and thus I will do what it takes to walk myself to equalize myself with my creation and correct what I have lived faulty.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to give my power away to the mind missing me here as breath as life.

When and as this point comes to judge myself based on thoughts, ideas, and self judgment due to the desire to please others through this idea that I have to look and be perfect for others approval thus I live this out in seperation to myself by giving my power away to the mind in desires and self interest missing life here within and as me as one and equal to all. I stop, breath, and walk the correction by stopping all participation in the mind as thoughts, desires, ideas, and stop separating myself with others by stop looking for acceptance and accept myself. Through breath I stabilize myself and continue to stop all the points I see were I am separating myself and not here within and as what I am doing. I give my power back to me by walking the physical breath by breath and walking equal and one with my physical reality as the physical body. I push myself to stop my mind and walk here as the physical and give myself my power back by accepting myself in who I am in all aspects and walking the correction that is here to be walked, stopping separating myself into energy attainment through the mind which is not who I am.

I commit to walk myself out of the mind by stopping self judgment, ideas, competition, thoughts, and the quest to gain acceptance from others and walk the acceptance of myself within common sense and humbleness.

I commit myself to stop comparing myself and living within an idea of the mind but live here within the physical body by stabilizing myself with breath and physical action.

I commit to walk as equal and one with all I come into contact with and stop my mind from direct me into self sabotage by letting the thoughts, ideas, pictures go, and continue to stay stable and walk with one and equal.



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Day 33- Considering Myself

Do I consider myself within and as who I am accepting myself to be? do I value myself? do I consider myself as equal to life? do I give myself appreciation and acceptance as I would want from any other as equal? Do I consider the life that is here equal and one to me, and do I live this equality as me as all life?

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to give value to myself as life as one and equal with this physical existence as who I am here, but have separated myself into a diminished form of myself based on the limited experience play outs within polarities as energy poles of positive and negative that I cycle within not realizing that I am just going around in an infinite circle not moving anywhere, but only within the illusion of time as movement within my mind dimensions.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to consider myself equal to and one with all of what is here as nature, the animal kingdom, the insect kingdom, the oceans, the marine life, and all life I have seen as not as great as me as I have been defining myself within ego where I have created the idea that based on me being more 'intelligent' as I can speak and live civilized within this society, I am better and this within this idea that I am better I have disregard myself as nature and the splendor of these life forms as myself in the abundance of exploration and depth that is there for me to engage and understand, but abused within and as my living to be consumed and used for my own self interest.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to engage and live this idea that I am more then other life here based on my 'intelligence and civilized living' not realizing I was separating me from me, seeing me as lesser then actually what is here as the physical as nature and the multiple dimensions and complexities that the nature as all forms of natural life exist within in balance and equilibrium unto themselves, and thus disregard myself as equal to the natural world to the detriment of my living here on this earth as it is in the process of dying right along with me based on my desire for more within ego as self interest and not seeing that life that has always been here equal and one to me but followed my mind as ideas which is not real and based on my own desires.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to separate myself with all life here within and as the idea and desire that I am more powerful then life here as I am a human being that has intelligence which is assumed and based on the idea that I can communicate and thus conduct myself within this society and animals, nature, insects, marine life can't, not considering me as nature where they exist and conduct themselves in communion and equilibrium just in a different way then humans and in different frequencies and processes but all the same and thus actually stand in more balance and unconditionality within there living expression as equality as themselves, where in fact nature demonstrates over the authority and power it has over the human when life becomes real in my world, the physical always remain, me as my ideas, beliefs, assumptions do not.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to miss myself  here as equal to and one with nature as this physical existence, but destroy it because I am not seeing that the nature and all life that is here no matter what it look like or who it is, is one and equal with me as we are all here in the physical and we are all life, and thus I can live and walk in consideration of all ife here as myself in practical common sense and stop the dominance and desire for more for myself over the life that is here and always will be here in equality and oneness whether I align or not, life will always remain and be eternal as this is what life is eternally here in this physical REALity I as thoughts, ideas, beliefs, will end as it is mind and the mind I realize is based on illusions as consciousness not reality.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not consider myself within and as the marine life and oceans of our home as earth here and respect the equilibrium that has been created through and as nature as life and become a life giving environment for who I am as the life that swim and move about in the oceans, but disregard myself and separated myself as life and consumed and destroyed the natural habitat that is the oceans and marine life in this world for my own self interest greed for profit and consumption, the balance and equality of life one to me must always be considered equal and one to remain here within equilibrium with myself as physical life which is what is real.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not consider myself within the life that is being tested for products and consumer goods and the suffering that is going on within this system where life is not being consider equal and one to how I would consider my own life and well being but only used and abused for consumption and thus taken advantage of for profit and money. I realize and see that this life is me as I see that when chemicals and foreign products go in/on the skin or in/on the physical that is not conducive and in sync will cause pain and suffering and thus to do this deliberately is an act of abuse against life, against myself, I am abusing me here as I am not considering the oneness that is here eternally within all that exist adn thus in my mind as self interest abusing myself for a momentary satisfaction that will never last and I will never live eternal as who I am as life.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to separate myself from the oneness of all life here within all it's forms, all it's manifestations, all it's creations, and all it's living expressions and thus I realize and understand that in fact that all that exist here is me so thus I am to consider all the life in all ways in equality and oneness to myself within and as my physical being as I am the other in another life as all that is is here within the physical is me as we are all life here this is who we are, I have always been here, but missed myself due to allowing ego and self interest as mind relationships within energy experiences to direct me, thus I stop the energy as mind relationships to direct me and direct myself within and as the consideration of myself within all the life that is here and thus stand as myself to realign back to who I am in my oneness as the physical in equilibrium and balance and stop all suffering and abuse to myself as all the life here forevermore.

I commit to stop all points of separation with all that is here to thus re-align myself step by step back to the physical by continuing to walk out my personality play outs as mind dimensions I have created and walk the correction within and as the physical one and equal here as me.

I commit to stand for solutions that stop all the abuse to life here and walk the correction within myself to consider and realign within all in equality as life.

I commit to walk myself in to and as correction to be able to be aware and consider myself within all facets of my world to thus not create any separation with any point but walk within and as equilibrium by starting with myself to equalize myself with my world and the beings currently existing in my life and thus step by step expand and equalize til I am here and all that remain is self.

I commit myself to accept myself here as all and stop all the separations as mind ideas, thoughts, and beliefs within better/more and stand within equality with all life in what is best for all.

I commit myself to slow down and thus walk the breath walk and become aware as myself as the physical within and as the rhythm of my breath til I am here and all that remain is self as the breath of life.





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