Within this, I see myself as someone who is not good enough within my look and thus within going into any point of potential relationship, I will within the starting point always diminish myself based on this belief I have that I am not good enough compared to others that are out there, and that I will never be able to match up to other females.
This above, is a portion of the blog
Day 119-Disappointment Character – Sexual Prowess, where I will be taken each paragraph and writing out self forgiveness on a multi-blog/day platform, enjoy and thanks for reading.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
compare my physical body and features to another females physical body and
features, and go into a judgment of not being good enough.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
compare my physical body and features to another females physical body and
features, and go into a judgment that I am better then the other.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
separate myself from females within a constant
polarity playout of being more or
less, and thus missing the reality here of a group of females together here, and
thus instead of judgment, walk equal, and so I can really be here to
enjoy the physical with and as the other beings.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
link my physical features and body to my sexuality and thus define myself
based on how I have defined my physical in comparison to the other potential
partners, and thus see myself able to walk with or not able to walk with based
on if I have defined my physical body and features in a equal comparison with
the other.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be disappointed within myself if I don't match up to the potential partner I desire, and thus go into depression state based on not getting what I want.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a desire within me to get an ideal partner, where in I will automatically create the depression and disappointed state, as ideals within myself are not able to be lived, as life is here, not in the mind in which ideals are held as ideas created by self based on comparisons and judgments of self as life in the physical.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create ideals within life and thus go into a judgment towards self in comparison within this ideal.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept my mind as ideals instead of living here in fact in who and how the other being lives and thus how I am living one and equal with the other, in terms of potential partners.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
limit my expression with another potential partner based on fear that I will be
rejected because I don’t compare to the other in physical body or features,
and thus will define myself as not as good based on comparing myself to other
females body and features and seeing myself less then.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
fear being rejected by another being based on defining myself and who I am
based on the being accepting me or not, and thus within this I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself based on the
acceptance of another instead of realizing and walking the realization that I
will only truly be free when I walk and live the acceptance of myself.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
not realize that when I accept myself and thus who I am within all, I can then walk
the process as an equal agreement with another without
expectation based on the
fact that I am here and I walk what is here, so thus no matter what is here, I
am here as myself in acceptance and walk what will be best for all in all ways, and thus I decide what path I walk.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge
my physical body as not good enough and thus go into a point of diminishment
towards other females based on this self judgment that I am using to go into ego and make another female less then me to feel better about myself. Here, I realize that life is
not defined by more or less feminine, but that female is just female in terms
of the gender one is, and thus I stop defining females by degrees of more or
less.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
compete with other females in trying to match up and thus be better then, where in, I believe I will be able to get the guy I desire because I
have defined myself as more then other females, thus I win.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
compete with other females in terms of a
self judgment I have of not being
enough, and thus defined life by something that is not real as beliefs and
ideas on how someone should look instead of focusing on what really matters the physical equal and one in all.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
make being a female a competition, in where I try and win, but realizing that
there always has to be a loser in such competitions, thus I always will cycle
within the polarity of win/loss, where instead I can just be here, and live equal
with others as life, walk an effective agreement with a being assessed by
living principles and integrity and stop the illusions of desires.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
live into desires in where I desire to have the perfect male in my life, and thus miss the point of who one is as self, where in I am blinded by
desire and walk into an agreement based on illusion instead of
physical practical considerations for what’s best for myself and life as well.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
base myself on the mind as illusion instead of here as life as what is best for
all in the physical.
Self Corrective Statements to follow.
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