Living the Word Freedom - Redefined - Day 555

Freedom

Current Allocation:

Freedom is something i desire but believe it’s out of reach for my life in this world. There is a yearning for freedom, like i know it’s there, it’s somewhere, it’s possible, yet it does not seem as if it ever will be reached without great effort and inner and outer change. Freedom also is represented in my mind through flags and fireworks and parades, where it’s symbolized based on holiday parties and festivities ingrained over my life time in my country that my family and friends very much participated in and some in the patriotism of it. I myself felt uncomfortable with the country’s freedom as i know that to get this so called freedom, war was involved thus to me showing that this is not real freedom, and that we will always be enslaved to this mindset that there is some enemy out there and we need to dominate or win to become free. Yet this same dominance and winning status is always under threat and always able to be destroyed through conflict, abuse, and thus suffering. Suffering and freedom to me were counter-intuitive thus counter-productive and essentially made no sense, so my relationship with the word freedom is as if it is a catch phrase, not real, and that those who follow this are insane or just brainwashed and not able to see clearly what makes sense and what doesn’t. I am also seeing anger within me towards the holiday of supposed freedom we celebrate and those who don’t question, yet, i see that this is my own reaction within me of a desire to want to be free for real right now. Though i see it is not yet possible and so i go and blame everyone else when i see, realize, and understand I was equally within that group to such a possessed degree due to culture and it’ll take a process of understanding, support, self forgiveness, and self correction to change the way the world as self lives freedom within and without.

Dictionary Definition:

free·dom

ˈfrēdəm/Submit

noun

1) the power or right to act, speak, or think as one wants without hindrance or restraint.

"we do have some freedom of choice"

2) absence of subjection to foreign domination or despotic government.

"he was a champion of Irish freedom"

synonyms: independence, self-government, self-determination, self-rule, home rule,

3) sovereignty, nonalignment, autonomy; democracy

"revolution was the only path to freedom”

4) the state of not being imprisoned or enslaved.

Etymology:

freedom (n.) Look up freedom at Dictionary.com

Old English freodom "power of self-determination, state of free will; emancipation from slavery, deliverance;" see free (adj.) + -dom. Meaning "exemption from arbitrary or despotic control, civil liberty" is from late 14c. Meaning "possession of particular privileges" is from 1570s. Similar formation in Old Frisian fridom, Dutch vrijdom, Middle Low German vridom. Freedom-rider recorded 1961 in reference to civil rights activists in U.S. trying to integrate bus lines.

It has been said by some physicians, that life is a forced state. The same may be said of freedom. It requires efforts, it presupposes mental and moral qualities of a high order to be generally diffused in the society where it exists. [John C. Calhoun, speech, U.S. House of Representatives, Jan. 31, 1816]

Freedom fighter attested by 1903 (originally with reference to Cuba). Freedom-loving (adj.) is from 1841.

Word Play:

Free-dumb, free-doom, free-dome, free = fear removed

Negative Placement:

Here i see that within myself there is a long path to become free and also a free world where life is able to co-exist and sustain itself as each one individual sustains themselves. So there is a fear here, fear of not having it, and thus more and more being removed from creating it as fear is not free, but the restriction of freedom. So bringing through a degree of stress, anxiety, and claustrophobia within the thought of if ever real freedom will be lived and what comes up within me is this world system, the enslavement of man over everything and everyone into destruction.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to go into a fear that freedom is inaccessible within myself and this world as i go into the idea that freedom is impossible to reach.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to look for freedom out in the world system, outside of myself, where i need to attain or reach something to become or get freedom.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe freedom is impossible to live within and as my self and so this world.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the living word of freedom within myself.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to project freedom onto the way our system is set up at the moment and believe that it’s never going to be doable with all the abuse as enslavement that is existing here.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to blame the world system and the people in the world system as the fault to why freedom is not able to be lived instead of bringing the point back to myself and seeing where in fact i am enslaving and limiting myself within my own self imposed ideas, beliefs, and judgments.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge and create ideas and beliefs about the way in which this world and within myself need to live instead of moving within the freedom of my own expression and through this working with what is here as it is here within the creative mobility that exist within any given moment as i create myself.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to place freedom as an idea within my mind rather then a living word to be physically lived and created and so in this idea move into disempowerment within myself because it seems unattainable.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that the function of myself and this world in this moment is not how it will always be and thus potential for growth and change is always here.

I commit myself to release the ideas, beliefs, and judgments of my expression in a moment and allow the expression of what is here as myself become free from limitations and expand within and through who i am as i create myself with what is here.

I commit myself to go into releasing the separation between who i am as the living word freedom moving into a flow of myself in any given moment taking responsibility for who i am and expanding through the support of this word as i move out of the dome of my limitations and exist here free as my fear is removed and i breath and live with and as reality.

Postitive Placement:

On the positive feeling side, I am seeing the word free is very light and electric feeling, like the potential for the best of life is possible within this world and it makes me feel airy and nice inside. There is an inkling of possibility, oh yes like a hope, and here i can see the complacency that settles into my mind and thus my physical where there is no real action of changing self and becoming self responsible through words and living. Thus the idea is nice to think about and ponder in my imagination of how great it’ll be or could be, yet all the while not actually really creating freedom within myself by living as it and so freedom does not yet actually exist cause it stops at the thinking stage because the energy fades and then I get hit with reality and it’s too much work/effort.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to move into a point of self desire as a dream state of what freedom would look like or feel like as i go imagining in my mind what this will look like or feel like, never actually making significant change to who i am in the physical as my words and living.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to exist within a hope of freedom coming one day if this and this and this works out and if i do this and this and this thing in the future soon to come, yet within my actual physical movement there is no significant change as i am spending my time dreaming about freedom and what i could and will be doing instead of actually living it.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to become complacent within myself with the imaginations of life in a free world and how awesome that would be tailoring it up with different technology and how humans will co-exist with animals and within this waste time and resources on mind generation and not self creation.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give my power away to my addictions as positive energy such as lust for a place of peace and freedom, or excitement in the thought of what a world would look and feel like, or the happiness feeling when i see in my mind’s eye all the animals and humans getting along, and within that be fulfilled as the energy releases and i stop actually moving in the physical and changing myself because i have accepted and allowed myself to get off on energy addiction in these imagination feelings that get created thus disempowering me to move myself and limiting my potential to live and become substantial and so do nothing of real value which supports all life.

I commit myself to move into the living words ‘i matter’ as i ground myself into the physical letting go of the imagination thoughts and create myself as matter within how i live in every moment to create real value as i move myself in the physical in what will be best for all life.

I commit myself to live words such as self creation and consistency as i move from my mind illusions into my physical living and letting go of the complacent addiction to go into hope and desire thus not actual do anything to change what is here within and without.

I commit myself to life the word freedom as i release myself from the addictive thought patterns of positive feelings and move into the solidity of my physical living, expanding myself through my limited beliefs and ideas and imaginations and creating myself in a real substantial way that will eventually create all life to be free to express here as the will themselves as all align as i live for myself in what is best for all life.

Re-Defining the Word Freedom:

The direct definition I see for the word freedom is to become free from the dome that is my mind as the limitations within fear i have accepted and allowed to hold me back from living as my creative expression in every moment. Freedom is the removal of fear as i will myself to be free beyond my limitations that is currently existing as my mind consciousness system programs and constructs holding me back from being me and who i am in any given moment as a self created being in what’s best. Freedom is what is beyond the limitations of self imposed mind systems and self live free from fear here.

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Day 92- 'Worthless' Character

Today looking at the point of seeing myself as worthless. Why have I defined myself in such a way were I have defined myself by this word worthless. Looking at the word the energies that are attached to it is a feeling of weakness based on not being equal within how I have pictured myself to be which is
picture perfect as I hold an idea of myself in my mind, and thus within not being able to be this picture as I don't see myself as perfect in reality I go into this point of worthlessness because I am seeing myself as weak.

I  forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to define myself within this word worthless I have defined as me being weak and others being more then me based on the idea in my mind as this 'perfect' picture were I compare myself and do not live up to this expectation 'perfect' (to follow is the character of 'picture perfect'). I realize and understand that within this definition I am holding of myself as worthless, I am not giving myself the chance to really live as I am enslaving myself to this word  as an idea I have to live up to based on the picture I am holding onto of how I should be and thus going into comparison to find where I will fit in and thus separating myself from myself as life in real reality which is the physical.

Thus I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to desire to live into this picture of perfection where in I want to fit in with others and not have to be in the spotlight where I am vulnerable and thus can be judged and so showing here that I am being the judger of others where I limit my self expression because I am judging how others are being and thus living. I realize and understand that I must stop the judgment of life here if I ever want to be free of this point of worthlessness as I am creating it for myself by living as the judger and separating myself from others who is me one and equal.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to go into judgments of others within I judge how others are living or existing as within being worthy or not and thus creating the experience within myself towards them as a negative experience or positive experience based on how I judged them within myself. I realize and see that this point of creating a polarity experience within myself of negative/positive towards another based on my judgment I am going to equal and one experience myself as this polarity experience because this is how I am defining myself in judgment as separation from others.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to allow myself to define and judge life based on this energy experience I have against life that some are to be judged in a way that is worthy and some are to be judged as unworthy based on holding onto this picture of perfection that I am comparing and thus judging life from to come up with the negative or positive experience I will have towards them within myself. I realize and understand that when I compare and judge others within this picture of perfection I am holding onto and then judging based on the experience I am having as worthy or unworthy I am continually going to be enslaved to this point as I am creating this hellish feeling of unworthiness within myself because I equal and one am constantly judging myself within this picture of perfection as I do to others.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to judge life within this picture of perfection where its an idea in my mind shaped and upgraded within years of media and television viewing of this 'beautiful' picture that all the life I come into contact with have to live up to to become worthy within myself. I realize and understand that life as what is here can not be judged nor defined within pictures in my mind because it is first non sensical as it is not reality based here in the physical and thus can change and morph into whatever way it want or I create it and thus it's constantly shifting and changing so thus its sending me on a loop as a trap that cycles and never becomes real because it's not real it's only in my mind and thus can not be cross-referenced which indicates illusion and two because life is not pictures nor can be defined within a mind reality as I said mind is constantly able to change and upgrade and thus physical is here stable and unmoved and able to be cross-referenced to prove it's truth. Within these two realization points, I see and understand that I am not living in the real reality as this physical world where I see and understand that life is equal and one and thus am living from my mind which is not real and can not be cross-referenced in physical reality thus proving the deceptive nature I am allowing.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to continue to define myself by this 'perfect' picture and thus continue to limit myself within mind deceptions I am accepting as I am allowing this to continue. I realize and understand that to define others within this 'perfect' picture definition I will continue to limit myself into being this 'worthless' character as I realize that within this definition it's limiting life and thus limiting self because I am creating it.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to continue to create this idea of the 'perfect' picture and thus accept and allow the judgment of a polarity of life as worthy or unworthy based on how I compare the other or myself to this picture. I realize and see that if I accept it to exist I am the creator of it and thus it will be real for me. I see and realize that this idea of the perfect picture is not in fact real as it is made up in my mind and thus can not be trusted so it is best to stop it as it is not equal and one to life.

 I commit to stop the perfect picture idea in my mind and stand as the decision each and every breath to walk physical practical reality and equality with all that is here as life including myself.

I commit myself to stop the definitions of myself as life to an idea of 'picture perfect' and thus walk the physical practical steps to stand as this point by stopping participating in the idea and being here as breath in my physical movement.

I commit myself to stop the judgment of life as worthy or unworthy by stopping the ideas as picture perfect in my mind to thus be able to stand stable in physical reality in the principles of who I am as one and equal with all life and thus continue this stand until I am here and it is me.

I commit to stop the judgment of life as worthy or unworthy by stopping the participation of this in my mind and living equal and one in practical common sense living to support others as I would like to be supported.

I commit to stop the picture perfect character idea that I hold in my mind by writing the point out and self forgiving each point so thus it is clear and do not direct me any longer (this blog to follow tomorrow).

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Day 36- My Way or the Highway

Trying to control others to get what I want because I 'think' I am better.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have the stance against others that 'it is my way or the highway' and disregard the other completely only existing within my own wants, needs, and desires in self interest.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to justify this stance as 'it's my way or the highway' due to the acceptance of me in self righteousness in ascertaining that I am right and the other is wrong thus giving myself the belief that I know the way because of this desire to control the outcome and that I know I am smarter then others.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to desire to control the outcome within and as my world and the beings in my world because I believe that I am smarter and have considered more and demonstrate more of a knowledge base where I have the right to direct in this control of getting it done my way because I am 'seeing' that I am considering more so thus I am more capable to direct the other beings seeing and realizing this is where enslavement is bred and allowed by accepting that I am more then life here, I stop this point of seeing myself more and walk to equality as myself as this physical world as life.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that based on my own assessment of what is here within my world I can and should direct others to do tasks in the way I want as I believe that I have created the most efficient way and the other ways are done in laziness and half assed.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to see myself within what is here in actuality and stop the need to control and be more and thus be able to walk in equality in peace to come to what is and will be best for all by sharing and considering all that is here to be considered within all beings that are within my world and willing to share themselves.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have the belief that 'I know better' completely separating myself from the physical and thus only accessing my desire to be more then others and higher as I am seeing myself less then and thus need a point to compete with and potentially win because I see myself as in need to prove myself.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to compete with others in the chance that I can win and be seen as more thus proving my value among others.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to feel the need that I have to prove myself based on not accepting myself and defining myself by others.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to place self value outside of me when I realize it can only be lived and fulfilled within and as me and then thus within my living into and as my creation as the world that I live.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself as inferior to others and thus I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to compete with others.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to define another being and judge a being based on my mind projection of them from my ego where I desire to be seen more and thus be able to control the situations in my world thus I use diminishment in my mind such as this judgments unto the other so I can get what I want out of the situation and justify my actions as abuse.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to see myself in a view of self righteousness where I believe that I am regarded as more and considered more then others and thus go into this stance that I can do/be more because in my mind I have created myself to be more and thus controlled others and pushed others to do what I see as right not considering their point of view and them as equal to me.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to miss the others as me and thus desire to control to get my needs met.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to allow self righteousness to direct me in desires to control and be seen within myself as more and manipulate to get my way.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to control others and manipulate them to get what I want.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to go into anxiety when I am not getting what I want and thus become rude to others because I am blaming them for me not getting what I want.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become rude to others due to my dishonesty of not considering all here as me and allowing my own desires to direct me to miss points and thus lose focus on what is best for all and compromise myself with others by trying to be a dictator and thus go into anger as blame on points that I have created and are responsible for as I realize all here is me.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to not speak to others as equals but that I know more and am smarter then.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to compete with others and always be within the stance of competition and being more then others in all areas that I can compete in.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to compete with myself and diminish myself due to separating myself from what is here as life.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to allow myself to be self righteous and separate myself from the solution here within equality with all.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to separate myself from what is here as life.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to enslave others within trying to dominate them and control when I am only creating the enslavement of myself as I will not give free to others as I want for myself, and thus I forgive myself for allowing and accepting desire for power over others direct me within the desire to be seen as the best.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself in self interest to override life here in equality and oneness and thus abuse life in self interest.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to abuse life based on getting my desires met.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to be directed by desire, but stop and direct me here as the physical in common sense in what is best for life one and equal with what is best for me. Always I put myself in the shoes of the other and walk the correction to align to the physical equality of us here as we walk for this world for all best in all ways.

When and as this point comes up to control others, I stop, breath, and direct myself to consider the other as myself, put them within and as me and walk equality to thus be able to see what is here and how I can support for what is best for all within and as others in consideration equal to how I would like to be considered. I realize I have to stop my mind as power and control in self interest so I can see within reality in what I am actually doing to be able to walk the solutions with the other in the best way possible in what is real.

I commit to stopping controlling others and walking as equals in all ways til there is no movement when and as I am here with any form of life but self movement.

I commit to stop desiring to have it my way and be at the top, but become humble and walk with others to see that we all benefit together.

I commit to stop anxiety by walking myself within practicality and discipline to get all my tasks done and walk what has to be done in the time frame aligned.

I commit to walk as equals with all and stop all abuse through desires and self interest.

I commit to walk the correction from self interest to the interest of all in equality as myself and how I would want to be treated and thus give to another as I would like for myself.



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