Living the Word Freedom - Redefined - Day 555

Freedom

Current Allocation:

Freedom is something i desire but believe it’s out of reach for my life in this world. There is a yearning for freedom, like i know it’s there, it’s somewhere, it’s possible, yet it does not seem as if it ever will be reached without great effort and inner and outer change. Freedom also is represented in my mind through flags and fireworks and parades, where it’s symbolized based on holiday parties and festivities ingrained over my life time in my country that my family and friends very much participated in and some in the patriotism of it. I myself felt uncomfortable with the country’s freedom as i know that to get this so called freedom, war was involved thus to me showing that this is not real freedom, and that we will always be enslaved to this mindset that there is some enemy out there and we need to dominate or win to become free. Yet this same dominance and winning status is always under threat and always able to be destroyed through conflict, abuse, and thus suffering. Suffering and freedom to me were counter-intuitive thus counter-productive and essentially made no sense, so my relationship with the word freedom is as if it is a catch phrase, not real, and that those who follow this are insane or just brainwashed and not able to see clearly what makes sense and what doesn’t. I am also seeing anger within me towards the holiday of supposed freedom we celebrate and those who don’t question, yet, i see that this is my own reaction within me of a desire to want to be free for real right now. Though i see it is not yet possible and so i go and blame everyone else when i see, realize, and understand I was equally within that group to such a possessed degree due to culture and it’ll take a process of understanding, support, self forgiveness, and self correction to change the way the world as self lives freedom within and without.

Dictionary Definition:

free·dom

ˈfrēdəm/Submit

noun

1) the power or right to act, speak, or think as one wants without hindrance or restraint.

"we do have some freedom of choice"

2) absence of subjection to foreign domination or despotic government.

"he was a champion of Irish freedom"

synonyms: independence, self-government, self-determination, self-rule, home rule,

3) sovereignty, nonalignment, autonomy; democracy

"revolution was the only path to freedom”

4) the state of not being imprisoned or enslaved.

Etymology:

freedom (n.) Look up freedom at Dictionary.com

Old English freodom "power of self-determination, state of free will; emancipation from slavery, deliverance;" see free (adj.) + -dom. Meaning "exemption from arbitrary or despotic control, civil liberty" is from late 14c. Meaning "possession of particular privileges" is from 1570s. Similar formation in Old Frisian fridom, Dutch vrijdom, Middle Low German vridom. Freedom-rider recorded 1961 in reference to civil rights activists in U.S. trying to integrate bus lines.

It has been said by some physicians, that life is a forced state. The same may be said of freedom. It requires efforts, it presupposes mental and moral qualities of a high order to be generally diffused in the society where it exists. [John C. Calhoun, speech, U.S. House of Representatives, Jan. 31, 1816]

Freedom fighter attested by 1903 (originally with reference to Cuba). Freedom-loving (adj.) is from 1841.

Word Play:

Free-dumb, free-doom, free-dome, free = fear removed

Negative Placement:

Here i see that within myself there is a long path to become free and also a free world where life is able to co-exist and sustain itself as each one individual sustains themselves. So there is a fear here, fear of not having it, and thus more and more being removed from creating it as fear is not free, but the restriction of freedom. So bringing through a degree of stress, anxiety, and claustrophobia within the thought of if ever real freedom will be lived and what comes up within me is this world system, the enslavement of man over everything and everyone into destruction.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to go into a fear that freedom is inaccessible within myself and this world as i go into the idea that freedom is impossible to reach.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to look for freedom out in the world system, outside of myself, where i need to attain or reach something to become or get freedom.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe freedom is impossible to live within and as my self and so this world.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the living word of freedom within myself.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to project freedom onto the way our system is set up at the moment and believe that it’s never going to be doable with all the abuse as enslavement that is existing here.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to blame the world system and the people in the world system as the fault to why freedom is not able to be lived instead of bringing the point back to myself and seeing where in fact i am enslaving and limiting myself within my own self imposed ideas, beliefs, and judgments.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge and create ideas and beliefs about the way in which this world and within myself need to live instead of moving within the freedom of my own expression and through this working with what is here as it is here within the creative mobility that exist within any given moment as i create myself.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to place freedom as an idea within my mind rather then a living word to be physically lived and created and so in this idea move into disempowerment within myself because it seems unattainable.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that the function of myself and this world in this moment is not how it will always be and thus potential for growth and change is always here.

I commit myself to release the ideas, beliefs, and judgments of my expression in a moment and allow the expression of what is here as myself become free from limitations and expand within and through who i am as i create myself with what is here.

I commit myself to go into releasing the separation between who i am as the living word freedom moving into a flow of myself in any given moment taking responsibility for who i am and expanding through the support of this word as i move out of the dome of my limitations and exist here free as my fear is removed and i breath and live with and as reality.

Postitive Placement:

On the positive feeling side, I am seeing the word free is very light and electric feeling, like the potential for the best of life is possible within this world and it makes me feel airy and nice inside. There is an inkling of possibility, oh yes like a hope, and here i can see the complacency that settles into my mind and thus my physical where there is no real action of changing self and becoming self responsible through words and living. Thus the idea is nice to think about and ponder in my imagination of how great it’ll be or could be, yet all the while not actually really creating freedom within myself by living as it and so freedom does not yet actually exist cause it stops at the thinking stage because the energy fades and then I get hit with reality and it’s too much work/effort.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to move into a point of self desire as a dream state of what freedom would look like or feel like as i go imagining in my mind what this will look like or feel like, never actually making significant change to who i am in the physical as my words and living.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to exist within a hope of freedom coming one day if this and this and this works out and if i do this and this and this thing in the future soon to come, yet within my actual physical movement there is no significant change as i am spending my time dreaming about freedom and what i could and will be doing instead of actually living it.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to become complacent within myself with the imaginations of life in a free world and how awesome that would be tailoring it up with different technology and how humans will co-exist with animals and within this waste time and resources on mind generation and not self creation.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give my power away to my addictions as positive energy such as lust for a place of peace and freedom, or excitement in the thought of what a world would look and feel like, or the happiness feeling when i see in my mind’s eye all the animals and humans getting along, and within that be fulfilled as the energy releases and i stop actually moving in the physical and changing myself because i have accepted and allowed myself to get off on energy addiction in these imagination feelings that get created thus disempowering me to move myself and limiting my potential to live and become substantial and so do nothing of real value which supports all life.

I commit myself to move into the living words ‘i matter’ as i ground myself into the physical letting go of the imagination thoughts and create myself as matter within how i live in every moment to create real value as i move myself in the physical in what will be best for all life.

I commit myself to live words such as self creation and consistency as i move from my mind illusions into my physical living and letting go of the complacent addiction to go into hope and desire thus not actual do anything to change what is here within and without.

I commit myself to life the word freedom as i release myself from the addictive thought patterns of positive feelings and move into the solidity of my physical living, expanding myself through my limited beliefs and ideas and imaginations and creating myself in a real substantial way that will eventually create all life to be free to express here as the will themselves as all align as i live for myself in what is best for all life.

Re-Defining the Word Freedom:

The direct definition I see for the word freedom is to become free from the dome that is my mind as the limitations within fear i have accepted and allowed to hold me back from living as my creative expression in every moment. Freedom is the removal of fear as i will myself to be free beyond my limitations that is currently existing as my mind consciousness system programs and constructs holding me back from being me and who i am in any given moment as a self created being in what’s best. Freedom is what is beyond the limitations of self imposed mind systems and self live free from fear here.

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Day 18- Are we Eternally Fucked?

I watched this video today about how america is turning into a police state with prisons being set up to round up people to set them up in prison camps to get full control, so 'they' can do what they want. 'They' as the elite have the military to back them up, so within myself I went into a hopelessness feeling, like we are never going to get out of this mess and that humans are eternally fucked. Thus I realized within looking at this depression I was living into that, where I am just prolonging my own self change and self direction to stop these points of irrelevance by wasting time on what if scenarios and seeing as the only way to stop what is going on here is to stop it within myself, and be the change, be able to live the solution so it is real and can be lived by all.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to separate myself from the government and the elite in this world as if they are the problem and somehow more responsible for what is here then me as I realize I am equally responsible for what is here as I have not done anything to stop the atrocities of this world, and thus within taking responsibility I realize I can change myself to correct this within myself, and stand equal as all to live solutions that is best for all as I see would be best for me as I realize the only way to change what is here is if I as humanity change.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to separate myself from others as life based on my judgments of who they are based on separating myself through and as ideas of class warfare.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to separate myself from all here based on believing that we are at war with those in power and thus lose my self empowerment by seeing the other as the enemy. I realize and see this is not so as I am the other and thus I have created equal and one to what is here within this world as all others as I see we are one here, thus I see I must take responsibility of myself as everything and stop all points of separation within me so I can stand equal to all in fact and from this point the solution of life as equality and oneness will be walked as this will be our will as it is within myself and I live it as me.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to see this world as a fuck up and thus going into a state of depression based on seeing myself as powerless and that there is nothing to be done to get out of this mess. Within this I realize and see that this is only giving into my mind as fear within the thoughts that I can't change, thus I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to go into fear as a thought that I can't change and it's hopeless for me as is for humanity.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to live within and as the point of hopelessness within the thought that 'humanity is fucked and is going to shit as this world because we can't change there is no way for us, we are too far gone.'

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to accept this thought 'that humanity is fucked and is going to shit as this world because we can't change there is no way for us, we are too far gone' to direct me into stagnation and diminishment as depression and self sabotage based on me accepting and allowing myself to exist as fear by fearing the government and the people in power.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear the government and the people in power not realizing that the people in power and government are existing within the same starting point as me as fear, fear to either lose what they have or fear of what is to come, so thus I see and understand to stop this world as fear I must stop it within myself as we are manifesting who we are here and that is fear.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear future projections as what is or could happen and waste my time within what if scenarios that don't exist and are not relevant in terms of my process of self change to live equal and one. I realize and see that if I must take into consideration the fact that I have limited time here, and so use this time effectively where I will direct myself with purpose and dedication to walk my process from self sabotage to self stability within and as the process of aligning myself with the physical one and equal to myself as life.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear people will hurt me and physically abuse me as I see that within this I again am fearing future projection and others in separation, I can not predict nor is it useful to go into fear of something that may or may not happen, and also separating myself from myself as I see I am one with all, so thus I stop, breath, and focus on living within and as breath and doing what I have to do to align with what is best for all so I can walk this as a solution for the faulty living I see that is here as I realize what is here is me in all forms and facets, I must walk myself as one with life to change it to walk in equality.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to miss life here as me and thus miss the opportunity for self enjoyment and self expansion with others as I am in fear and thus go into restriction around others based on what I am projecting about what might happen instead of living here and directing myself to what is here and walking it.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to exist within future projection and thus fear as this is not real as what is real is here within and as breath, so thus I stop fear and future projection and remain here and change myself in what I am able to do and live it.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting depression to exist within me as I went into hopelessness and thus allowed these thoughts of what if scenarios direct me to feel low based on myself believing that these were real.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to allow what if scenarios to direct me and effect me as if they are real, and thus i forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that what if scenarios are real and have influence over what is here, I realize I am my only influence and thus can direct myself in doing what is best for all so thus solutions can be created, I direct me here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to exist within hope as I realize this is a false sense of escapism to not have to face self here, and thus wallow in hope, where one stay stagnate and not direct self to live the solution, but thus use hope as a point to not have to move.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to use hope as a means to not have to move because I am afraid of what is to come.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to fear the future as I know fear is not real nor is the future real. I stop this fear and future projection and direct myself to align within the physical to thus walk the solution as equal and one with what is real and what will indeed support what is best for all life.

When and as this point of hope and future projection come up in my world, I don't allow it to direct me as I see that it is not real but my mind wanting to direct me into separation and escapism, I breath and remain here, walking as and with the physical. Focusing on my process or what I am doing in terms of physical movement to thus focus on what is real and stop the mind thoughts as points that do not exist. I stop existing in hope as an escape and remain here facing myself, so thus I have the opportunity to see what I have done in a faulty way and change it so it includes all as I see all is me, and live best for all.

I commit to stop future projections and fear of life, and live here within and as pushing myself to align with the physical as breath.

I commit to stop hope as an escape and thus face myself here, and walk my points of correction as I walk my process out of my mind into what is real here as me as life.



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