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Thursday, May 5, 2016

“Don’t Fuck with Me” Character and Solution – Day 507

This character I go into quite often when I am with people, I have created a relationship with people of fear and hostility based on the belief that they are out to harm me and abuse me. Though through walking my process and self investigating myself I realized that I am actually thinking this up in my mind and so creating it in my reality because I am the creator of myself and thus my reality. We are powerful beings, though we are not in control of this power as of yet due to how I accepted and allowed myself to abdicate my responsibility of myself and of my life to stand equal and one with what is here and live what is best for all. So here walking the correction process to change pattern by pattern, point by point.

What is creating this character of “don’t fuck with me” is a strong desire of self importance believing to be some sort of advanced being and within the people around me and whom I interact with on a daily basis are beings who are so harsh and troublesome thus not as advanced. What I have abdicated myself to not see, realize, and thus change is the way in which I am thinking and creating my reality as I am equal and one to the outflows of what I am experiencing within myself and thus my world. I am not becoming disciplined enough within my breath by breath awareness to change myself when these patterns come up with the thoughts of how ‘bad’ others are, how ‘ignorant’, how ‘disrespectful’, and within this creating this world and reality coming from my mind projection and superimposing it into the reality I am living within. This creating the character personality of “don’t fuck with me” as a defense mechanism, so I don’t have to look at myself, my own mind thoughts, my own behavior, and change within these moments to stand within what is best for all.

Here living words I will be continue to support myself with and expand within it’s understanding and expression as I progress, so I can go into a form of self expression that is here, present, and not consisting of energy or thoughts, but living words as expressions that are supportive of life.

So some self forgiveness on this pattern of “don’t fuck with me”:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into a form of self exultation of myself in relation to those around me believing I am more advanced and more sophisticated.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand how my thoughts go to judging others as less then me and how within this I am diminishing the other in my mind to become more then and so become the winner in my own mind, not seeing, realizing, or understanding that this is only diminishing myself as I go into a form of suppression of who I am being and thus become limited within my reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed my thoughts as judgments direct me in my reality in relation to others not seeing, realizing, and understanding that I am only defining myself and thus within this opportunity I can change and create myself within living words that are supportive of others and of life in general.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become hostile to others in my environment based on creating a scenario where they are being harmful and judgmental towards me not seeing, realizing, and understanding that within my backchat I am judging them and thinking about them lacking, and thus I am resonating and thus creating the hostility I am experiencing as this is who I am in thought, word, and deed.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a personality suit of the “don’t fuck with me” character, so I don’t have to face the truth of myself, which is someone who is causing harm and separation within myself and thus causing harm and separation within my reality as what is within self is equally being created in the without.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself within my expression as not good enough or not strong enough to face reality here and so go into a defense mechanism of “don’t fuck with me” character to not have to face my reality and who I have created to be in fear of people and not see, realize, and understand that I am creating this fear that it in fact is not real as it’s energy and it moves away once dissipated.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become suppressed within myself in not wanting to face or change the hidden parts of myself that I don’t like and want to push away such as the lack I feel within my expression, not seeing, realizing, and understanding that pushing this lack emotion away I am pushing the opportunity to face it, understand it, and change it for myself so I can realize my strengths and strengthen my weaknesses.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not face my mind real time and allow it to fester and sit while I continue to suppress the reality of myself as separating myself from my responsibility to change myself and stand within the face of my self in my reality to support with solutions and create them for myself and others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to abdicate responsibility to others in my reality and blame them for the way I am experiencing myself within turmoil, not seeing, realizing, and understanding that I can change myself and so change the outcome of myself within my living.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others and so judge myself and thus separate myself from life here in oneness and equality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel so overwhelmed within myself about what is here and what I have to change, not seeing, realizing, and understanding that this is an experience I can change and live moment to moment, direct myself into specificity and efficiency, and taking it point by point.

When and as I see myself going into the “don’t fuck with me” character, I stop and breath, and change myself self into taking self responsibility for my mind and my thoughts, stopping them through breath, and living words that’ll support with stability. I realize I am creating harm and separation in my reality when in this personality suit where I could be creating stability and solutions that are best for all.

I commit myself to live the word care where I care for myself within stopping the judgment of myself. Stopping the thoughts of being hard on myself. Stop the attacks of myself and others in my mind as less then or not living correctly.

I commit myself to stand within a gentleness where I move slow and softly within my physical body, like a flow or breeze moving within the rhythm of my breath as I move out of the energy and into my physical stability as my body.

I commit myself to let go of the thoughts by focusing on my physical movements and moving myself in my body, grounding the energy through my breath into my feet and into the earth.

I commit myself to live the words equality and oneness as physical reality were all are physical manifestations and we are all equal within this, where no two are separate but expressing in our own expressions.

I commit myself to create my expression within and as physical activities such as art or music and walk self forgiveness and self correction to the thoughts that come up until I am clear.

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Monday, July 8, 2013

Militarized State the Way of the Future? War Paranoia and Basic IncomeGuaranteed– Day 325

Recently within the past few months, America has increasingly geared themselves toward being a militarized state, providing local, state, and federal police officers with hallow point bullets by ordering them in the billions. These bullets are more expensive and more precise within there killing, and are used within war and by military forces in war. Now, here we are seeing the outflow consequences of our fear paranoia of our need for protection, and thus this has become our greatest monster. The governments of this world are run by mafia like regimes, only looking for profit and power, and not considering any thing remotely close to what is best for the people. If this was the case then they would not be ordering bullets or have any plans for war as certainly we can come up with solutions that don't involve maiming, deforming, and killing our fellow beings in this world.

War, fear, and paranoia seem a part of life, like a natural occurrence that we have accepted, and we never question or consider if there could be another way. We have essentially accepted our fate that war is part of life as we see it ongoing throughout the centuries of human history when common sensically it is the absolute opposite of life as it destroys it in many different ways. We as a society really have to question ourselves and consider this point of why we allow so easily and readily that war be the solution in this world and so easily we use punishment, violence, and killing to solve problems that are far more consequential in the whole of humanity then we care to even look at never mind consider.

We must stop the blame, pointing fingers, and violence towards life in this world, and walk the process of realizing responsibility for our actions and so live with integrity How does one start to live with integrity? Writing has assisted me greatly in finding ways to live with respect for others and for myself, and seeing more expansive solutions to issues I face in my world to bring it to a solution where all benefit. To start your process join the Desteni I Process Lite course, it's free and has buddy support, and will walk you through the basis of how to support oneself to change one's living for the better.

A basic income guaranteed is a solution for the inequality within the world of today because we can restructure the way we do business and living to enhance people and enhance communities. This will start the process of recognizing the life within all, and that war is actually a crime against humanity waged for profit and gain. We must end war if we ever want to see peace in this world, and if you are for peace then you should be for basic income guaranteed, because it's the path to end war.

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Monday, August 13, 2012

Day 105- The Mind as the Enemy

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see the mind consciousness system as the enemy, and thus that I have to defeat it some how to have it stop it’s control. I realize and see that the mind is not the enemy as this point will continue the separation of myself with the mind as I realize the mind is me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to face and take responsibility for the mind as me and thus use blame and this point of separation to not have to walk and face who I have become as the mind, but I realize that this effort is futile and thus will continue the separation of myself and thus give direct power to the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to push the mind in to the back of my head and suppress it because of the extensiveness that I have accepted and allowed the mind to control and have directive will over me as life. I realize and see that the mind is a system and thus operate within codes and instructions. I also realize I am the instructor thus giving the direction to take over and control as I have accepted and allowed myself to go into separation to the mind and all the life that is here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize and see that the mind is within and throughout everything that is here as my human physical body so thus I can not blame the mind as I am actually just blaming myself. I realize this point of blame is useless and only cause self diminishment, so thus I stop the point of blame and walk through the layers to understand myself as the mind and walk the self forgiveness and self correction to stop the mind from having the directive will.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give my mind the directive will to control and dictate who I am as I have not within myself stood one and equal to the mind, thus within this passive action of not standing up and becoming equal and one to my mind, my mind took the lead and walked the directive will into it’s own survival. I realize and understand that to take directive will as the mind, I must stand equal to the mind, which is standing equal and one to who I am as the mind in separation, and thus correct the patterns that are not aligned with life and thus walk the correction.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give the word ‘mind’ a negative charge as I see it as the enemy and thus see it within a conflict situation, this conflicting with who I have become and thus missing the opportunity to change myself as the mind and thus stand equal to the mind as it is me, so thus I can change the relationship to be from a polarity to equality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word mind and thus go into a restriction when I hear it in sound, and thus cause a point of conflict that is not necessary as I realize that the mind is here as I am here and thus the only point that is to be focused on is how to become equal and one with the mind so thus I can stand here in equality and oneness and thus direct myself to and as what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist me as the mind as I see the task in front of me as big, and thus I resist this task as I believe I lack the capacity to walk the mind through and transcend to walk as an equal physical participant here as life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to doubt myself within who I am as the life force within me and what I am capable of doing, I realize to have an expectation of who I should be is to go into separation, as this is not able to be lived up to, so thus I realize I must walk breath by breath and take each point as mind as it come. I stop the self-doubt as this is only is a point of self-sabotage.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sabotage myself to not have to push myself and walk the layers and complexities of my mind consciousness system, and thus go into a diminishment when I look at the big picture. Thus I realize I must take it piece by piece and not look at it in as a whole as I am not walking the system in one go, but it will be walked piece by piece.

I commit myself to stop the polarity play out of the seeing the mind as the enemy, and thus walk the mind as I realize and see it is me and thus give myself the opportunity to be free and take control back as equal and one to what is here as the physical through walking through the layers of the mind to get here.

I commit myself to take responsibility for all parts of my mind as me and thus walk what has to be walked to correct my living within who I am as myself as my mind, and change to be a being who is trusted and is here as breath directing myself in my living to what is best for all life.

I commit myself to stand as the directive will standing equal and one to the mind as life and re-instruct myself to walk what is best for all and solution that will benefit all life.

I commit myself to stop the point of blame towards my mind as I take responsibility for myself as the mind, and walk the correction into equality and oneness with and as the mind to thus walk the correction with and as the physical within and through my human physical body.

I commit myself to walk the mind within detail as myself as I take responsibility for my actions, words, thoughts, and thus all parts that is the mind, and use the tools as self forgiveness and self correction inliving to change from mind directed to self directed as the physical one and equal with self.

I commit myself to walk the layers of the mind to the physical equal and one to bring about life back to earth through and as myself as all selves as life and what should have always been a world that is best for all and all life is able to be supported and cared for as self would like to be cared for and supported.