Insta- Judgment – Judging from the Past – Day 399

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge someone from the past where I place the weight of the past onto them and so direct the environment and so myself with them in a way that is not here and genuine, but from past memories and desires.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to continue to judge another based on the past and so act within a point of preconceived ideas and assumptions based on the past with this other person rather then being here fresh and supporting with solutions in the moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed memories of how another is working or acting or living to determine how I will interact within them be it on the basis of a positive experience or a negative one.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to follow memories within my mind in the moment of the present to determine who I will be and how I will act towards another based on the memory being a positive one or negative.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define another in a moment based on the energy attachments I feel within memories from the past about them or having to do with them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to engaging defining my experience based on the energy attachments I have on memories I am defining my experience with.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself by memories within my head and create a reaction towards another based on the memory I am defining the moment or them by.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to follow memories and allow them to direct me towards others in my world.

When and as I see I am going into a point of defining my world, reality, and /or others by the past within memories in my mind, I stop and breath, and I realize that this will compromise my effectiveness and create separation with me and my world cause I am judging from the past and not here fully present living from the facts that are here and relevant.

I commit myself to let go of the memories I have attached to others through writing them out, investigating them, and directing them into solutions.

I commit myself to let go of the reactions to others through my mind as memories and bring myself here through breath and physical movement.

I commit to interact with others when I am stable and have directed the memories into a point of correction that doesn’t influence my interaction and effectiveness with others.

I commit to write and correct memories as they come and release them into a point of physical relevance only having no attachments to them.

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Insta-judgment – Is this All I Am? – Day 398

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the way of life is through making instant assessments of what I am seeing, hearing, and taking in in my senses, and so from these assessment go into to my mind and create a polarity to relate to something that I have seen before to realize where I stand within it based on a point of have defined myself in the past from.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create my reality through my mind as assessments based on the past and compare the past with what is here in this moment as if they are separate from the then to the now.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from what is here in this moment through the desire to be special/more then others because within this I have made a comparison of myself with the here when I realize in reality that I am not separate from others but we are all equal as the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare myself with others in the mind polarities where energy is attached within feelings of trying to be more because I had defined myself from a point in my reality in the past where I saw myself as less then another, so within myself I am trying to redeem myself through making another less then me where I see this only satisfy the ego which is self interest and not who I stand as.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself from the past and so live the past to the here moment where I allow my reality to be compromised of doing what is best for all by creating polarities and comparisons with others to make myself feel better because within myself I am feeling insecure.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into my mind and define myself through a point in reality outside myself in a belief that I am more or less then that which I see and realize is one and equal with me.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that I am not more or less then any part of this reality as we are all one and equal as life and this based on the reality of putting my shoes in another’s path and seeing that I would want the best no matter who or what I was, so what is best is what is real and what stands in all here moments no matter what.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live from selfishness and ego where I desired to become more then others based on the desire for notoriety and attention from others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abuse another for believing that I am somehow more then them due to a perception and a belief that I am this, when in reality I have compromised my integrity and my stand as life by hurting life and not supporting life and so hurting and not supporting myself which is not common sense and not best.

To be continued.

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Instant Judgment and Rectification– Day 397

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For many, many, many times during my day I am judging something instantaneously, sometimes I catch it and sometimes I am not here and will allow it to continue and accumulate, but this is based on accepting and allowing the first action as the action of instantly judging something/someone/someplace before even taking notice of what it is that I am even looking at and who I am as one and equal with whatever it is I am judging. So I am in this next few blog posts going to look at this point and walk the correction.

First point is why do I judge instantly, I can say that I have always lived my life in this way and the reason for judging others was based on status, finding where I stand with others so I can prepare myself in how I will act/be/behave towards them in my interaction. So the instant judgment is done within a defense of myself because within myself I believe I have to be on guard, I have to defend myself from intruders, and this based on the actions I have seen and accepted as points that I had made personal within my past, holding them as memories to dictating to me how to live here, such as being insulted or being offended by someone. So over time I have created this mechanism of instantly judging others so I can be better equipped to come back and equally stand as a force for them to realize that I can not be taken advantage of so easily, I am not a push over, and I will be giving you resistance if you try and mess with me. So it’s fear based and showing that I am not self aware if I am still accepting and allowing points of judgment such as these to influence and direct me.

This also showing that I am existing in the exact same way that I am trying to protect, judging and sizing up others to see where I can gain ahead and become the stronger one, this to give me some sort of boost in my ego, catering to self interest and separation of us as humanity that is one and equal. So I am not really solving anything by continuing to exist within this pattern of sizing up others and instantly judging them, but continuing and perpetuating the same loop of separation and resistance to each other that is rampant throughout human kind. I can simply be here with all people and move beyond the judgments, and support others as how I would like to be supported and then I would have no more reactions of fear or resistance to people, but be stable. This a process to walk as I walk it here to unravel and self forgive, and so correct this pattern to be self supportive for me and all who read this. Til next time. Thanks for reading.

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Day 15- Guilty Conscience

Feeling guilt for leaving the gate open and allowing my niece almost to seriously injure herself this realization came from a fellow youtuber's comment she placed of seeing me as feeling guilty in the video, which I watched back and saw this as so.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to continually cycle through the memory of her almost falling down the stairs within and as me and causing myself to become guilty for this action.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to form guilt based on a past memory that does not define me nor determine who I am in this here moment and thus I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to enslave myself to a memory of past moments that are not here and thus not relevant to who I am here as breath into self change as equality and oneness.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to go into guilt when I allow thoughts to accumulate of her injuries and suffering that could have occurred if I was seconds later and thus wallowing in depression based on this point that is not real nor beneficial for me to think about as it only causes me to be stagnant and in self diminishment as I am not walking breath as the correction I placed here in writing of myself in each and every moment in previous post.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to accumulate thoughts of what if scenarios go through my head as these are points of distraction placed and pushed within my mind dimensions as I am accepting them by giving them energy through participating in them and thus I am distracting myself from the solution which is myself here in each breath stopping thoughts from directing me and becoming the solution as myself as I live.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to exist within and as what if scenarios in my head as future projections or past possibilities entrapping myself within and as the mind as these points of past and future play outs I realize actual do not exist as they are not here within this breath moment as physical actuality as reality, but are within the mind as dimensions that are not real as mind dimensions is made up illusions we create and participate in as thoughts to thus make life more interesting but within this as separating ourselves from ourselves as life as creators we are sabotaging ourselves by looking for more when we are here as it. Within this I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to exist within and as past, present, and future play outs as thoughts, feelings, and emotions as these are separating myself from what is here as the solution as myself within oneness and equality to thus walk this within and as breath til I am here and it in in fact real as me breathing as life.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to separate myself from myself through participating in the mind within emotions as guilt and I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to let emotions exist within and as me here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to judge myself for who I was in the past and thus entrap myself in a cycle of self sabotage as I continually replay this and continually judge myself as the memory comes up through trigger points such as seeing her or a set of stairs.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to exist through memories as being triggered through seeing her or a set of stairs, and thus reenforce the entrap of myself by existing in the past instead of remaining here within and as the solution as myself living it, stopping the mind as thoughts and memories within distraction, and so living here as the correction as I take responsibility for what I did and thus change to be best for all.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to self sabotage myself by existing in self judgment through who I was in the past instead of living here and changing myself as the solution in what I realize is the solution which is living here within and as oneness and equality with all life.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to not accept myself and thus enjoy the self sabotage of myself because I see myself as deserving of this as I see myself as not able to and capable to be more then what I am here, and thus I go into self sabotage because I am living this as myself.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to sabotage myself because I don't accept myself, I see and realize that I am here and thus I am life one and equal with the physical so thus I realize I am capable and able to walk the corrections, will myself to stand and change, and push myself to continue this until it is done as I see this is who I am if I will it to be, I am director and thus responsible for what I do and create, I realize this is not just for me as self freedom but for life as self freedom within and as acceptance of all of us here as we walk and take responsibility for who we are as our creations individually and as a whole, and thus we walk as the correction as existences individually and as a whole until it is done.

When and as this point of guilt and the judgment of myself as self sabotage comes up, I stop and breath, continue to stop participating in the thoughts and pushing myself to walk as self acceptance by stopping all points of self judgement. I realize that this must be walked breath by breath as I will have many thoughts come up as I have accumulated many judgements as separations within myself, but I continue to apply self forgiveness, and walk the corrections, stopping myself, and embracing myself as who I am as life as all here is this. I stop guilt and existing within and as past, present, and future projections and thus remain here by walking as breath, pushing this until it is no more resisted, and walk the change until life is here in oneness and equality.

I commit to walk the points of stopping guilt and judgement of myself for who I was in past moments, and remain here within breath as I stop thoughts and work on my self application to stand here one and equal with self as life.

I commit to stop participating in thoughts, emotions, and feelings when they arise as I focus on breath and practice being here, until I am here, and I am no more directed by the mind, but self directed as life best for all.

I commit to walk self acceptance with all life starting here with myself by pushing intimacy and self understanding with the process of stopping self judgment and sabotage until I am here in full acceptance.



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Day 6 - I am an Anger De-Man

I exert my anger where I find that I am believing that I am more then another or where I blame and see myself as a victim, both I see are not real as they are abdicating my self responsibility to life as I am the creator of who I am and how I experience myself, thus I stop this through self forgiveness, and walking the change to stand equal with life in a way that is best for all.

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I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to exist within anger in my world towards any point that comes up in the statement that I see another at fault and thus am reacting in blame and creating unnecessary abuse as I exert my anger onto another. I see and realize that anger is but a manifestation outflow of not taking responsibility for myself and seeing self as a victim, I am here though and see that I am the cause of all that is here as me, and thus I walk the correction of stopping this anger from directing me through slowing myself down and seeing that I am the source, core, origin of why I am behaving in such a way as anger towards another.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to go into a point of victimization towards my world and what has occurred with others and thus go into blame and energize my back chat of thoughts that I am the victim, I am the one who gets the short end of the stick, and I should not be treated this way it's not fair. Within this backchat I allow it to accumulate to such a degree where eventually I will go into an energy outburst towards others as anger and ruin any trust or equality built by accepting myself to demonize and diminish others thru exerting my force over them through shouting and calling them names. I realize and see within this that I am the cause, source, and origin of this deliberate abuse towards another by not controlling my emotions and existing in spite and blame towards another.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to exist within spite and blame towards another being because I don't want to give up this energy as anger based on the sensation I get when I exert it and it releases the built up of frustration and irritation I have within myself, this feeling of release I have become addicted to and exhilarated by as it gives me a form of a high when I unleash it on others, allowing me for that moment to gain a release and feel 'good'. But I realize and see within this feeling of 'good' it will always come down to the reality of what I have done and created within my mania of anger towards others, which is regret and the living out of 'what have I done'. I see and understand that I am the cause of this and that I need to stop the accumulation of emotions and blame to not get to a point where I unleash and exert anger onto undeserving beings, I am the source thus I must stop this within myself.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to be addicted to the energy accumulation and release of anger and in moments enjoy releasing it onto others as I feel within this moment more powerful and in control as a sense of dominance over another, and within this I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to separate myself into the belief that power and control is through dominating another and causing them to 'pay' for what I see is their fault. Within this point of 'payback' I see and realize this is a complete abdication to my own self creation of allowing this pattern to continue as I continue to participate in thoughts of 'I hate this person' 'this person is such an asshole, look how they just cut me off' 'aw will she just get the fuck into reality, and stop taking shit' and accepting these thoughts to direct me to separate me from the being where I have the false pretense that I am more deserving or more then this being because I have created these thoughts within myself as justification for the abuse and anger I exert on to them as accepting these thoughts as valid and true.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting the thoughts 'I hate this person' to direct me in moments where I have the ability to stand up within myself stop the separation within  self interest, and walk one and equal within the persons shoes to get to know who they are, where they come from, and why they have created themselves in such a way to thus give myself understanding and assistance to stand with in finding solutions rather then going into ego and creating abuse within personality play outs of I am better then her/him.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting the thought 'this person is such an asshole, look at them just cut me off' as I see I am only going into ego to see myself exalted as the righteous one to thus see myself more then another to gain acceptance for myself within myself as myself within the polarity of inferior/superior as competition in my world. Within this I see and realize that this justification of being better towards another due to the fact that I am existing in competition so I can be the winner is unacceptable as it causes separation and harm, this is unacceptable due to it be a self indulgence to go the easy way out and not have to face myself as the creator of this experience, I am the one reacting and allowing anger and competition with another when I see I can simply let them go, stop, and direct in a way of self responsibility to a solution best for all.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting the thought 'aw will she just get the fuck into reality, and stop talking shit' this again I see and realize is a point of exalting my ego so I can be seen as more then another being, and thus going into self righteousness where I believe I can call her out or inflict some sort of harshness onto her as I believe that she is just 'talking shit'. Where instead I realize I could stand one and equal with the other in an attempt to come to some common ground and see where she is coming from based on her whole perpective on things, where there is more understanding who she is as a being, and then from there direct myself within given perspective of my own, within common sense and working towards solutions rather then causing conflict.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to exalt my ego in attempts of trying to be more then others and thus within this exhalation of my ego from and sourced within the thoughts i have created of being self righteous, instead of fully understanding and standing equal to that being, I am only creating conflict within my world and diminishing myself as I am being an abuser and causing harm to the life here that where I see I am harming me. I will always get what I create, thus I am the creator of  myself, I am responsible for my creation. I see and realize that the ego as self righteousness is just me not accepting myself and the anger is me accepting and allowing dishonesty to grow as I go into abuse rather then in self honest introspection to stand equal and find solutions to what is showing within my world as resistances.

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My Self Correction:

When and as I go into this point of thinking about others in ways that are self righteous and diminishing them, I stop and say 'No' breath through the thoughts as I stop giving them energy, and thus I see that the accumulation of anger will diminish as I am no longer fueling with thoughts and emotions. When I see and realize that anger is accumulated, I stop and breath, and apply self forgiveness for this accumulation point, seeing and realizing that the being I am taking out my anger on or am directing it towards is me, and thus I stop abusing me as life.

I commit to stand within thoughts of accumulation and energy build up by disengaging them through stopping the participation with this back chat of blame and victimization, and remain here thru letting the energy go through breathing.

I commit myself to walk with beings as we walk our processes to become stable here, sharing myself in humbleness of what I have walked to give assistance if I see the need, and create the best way for all to stop conflict and stop anger by pushing and walking this stopping within myself.


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