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Thursday, August 7, 2025

Day 30 - Poverty in this world, Allowing Poverty within Self

“Stop the poverty within yourself — the self-judgment, the limitation, the self-abuse.
Because as long as you accept poverty within you, you will accept poverty in this world.”
— Bernard Poolman

I am writing on the understanding that poverty within this world is based on the acceptance and allowance of poverty=lack within myself, I am equally responsible for this creation and manifestation where their is extremes of many with nothing and a few with everything. When in reality life is abundant and can provide and does provide everything necessary to live an abundant life in this world. Though, this world at this time is obviously not ensuring this abundance get's to all life, as many suffer and go without, as above i mentioned the majority goes without. How the human being as myself has accepted and allowed myself to become separate from this abundance of life, is based on the fact of the mind and thinking, which creates a dimensional being that is caught in ideas and beliefs creating the polarities of some have more and most having little. Personally this is reflected within myself where I have allowed to a lack within msyelf such as thoughts I believe and live out of 'I am not good enough', creating submission and self reservation in conversations with others and within myself to go for something I fear doing. This lack manifest within this world so I can experience it as I have actually created it by separating myself from what is here as myself within all that exist, thus the lack of ability to express naturally for instance and bring about common sense among all beings I meet but where I go which is into fear and beliefs that I am not good enough to be equal to 'some' beings.

So it starts with myself. The 'I am not good enough' personality, starting in the thinking realm of this personality, where I allow thoughts of lack, judgment, and self abuse and thus abuse of others equal and one to myself.

Self Forgiveness on the thought dimension of the 'I am not good enough' character/personality -

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I lack within the point of who I am here as life in all ways that exist.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe within who I am and where I am as what I exist as I am not enough and don't have enough.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe the thought that I lack within my looks and self image.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe the thought that I lack within understanding my reality and what is going on within and as relationships in my world.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am not good enough to sell products of value.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am too far gone in my process to believe that i have any right to believe I have value and have worth in this world and life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that I as who I am am enough and thus I am capable of living in a way of what is best for all equal and one within and as this reality where all succeed and all can express freely as I'd like such as with an equal money system being implemented for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that thought that I am always going to lose within sales and expressing myself because i lack confidence and self worth of I can do this, I am strong enough.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am not strong enough to make it in this world and get across the grit it is required to bring about a world that is best for all through an equal money system and education that supports all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I lack anything as life here one and equal with all other beings here, and that I am in fact not able within the belief that I am not worthy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am not able to walk what is here as life, when I see, realize, and understand that each moment is new and each moment is here and thus I as myself am able to walk and breath and forgive myself and create myself in a way that is best for all as I am here breathing walking breath by breath, the moment is always here for self change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold an image of me in my mind of being judged as a child when I was in school and thus hold that energy of lack and self judgment as a prison sustenance i have to hold to as a belief of being not liked, when I see, realize, and understand this is a lack of vocabulary and self understanding for all involved and that each one is more then capable to be their highest potential through self acceptance, self forgiveness, and self corrective living through words and self willed action in the principles of life in what is best for all one and equal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from others within the basis of judgment of look, race, image, language, clothes, hair, hair color, hair cut, make up, non make up, fat, skinny, tall, short, acne, clear, beautiful, ugly, smart, stupid, rich, poor, intelligent, well spoken, illiterate, dumb, and so I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to label myself and another as myself in this reality based on polarities within words, instead of redefining the word and so seeing all beings based on the direct definition. Within that I see, realize, and understand I then can stand in the others shoes and support them to see as I see one and equal as a direct definition to reach common sense and solutions that is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to judge myself based on polarities within words as good or bad, instead of seeing all one and equal to myself as life and in this what i can do to support a way for myself and so the other to reach our highest potentials in what is best for all, no matter what that takes as a means of pushing self beyond limitations so life can birth through and one go beyond the limits of the mind consciousness system as the closed system it is. Life is not closed nor limited, thus I am not closed off nor limited within my capacities here

"Poverty exists because we allow a system where money is valued more than life. Until we change the system and ourselves, poverty will remain the consequence of our acceptances."
— Bernard Poolman

When and as I see myself going into a form of self judgment within words of polarities, I stop and breath, forgive the thought and redefine the word into common sense direct definition that each being as life can apply and in this walk the common sense until all here can stand as the living expression of the word as I have done for myself to the end where a world that is best is lived out one and equal to myself.

When and as I see i am moving into my mind into beliefs of less then or not good enough, I stop and breath, and delete the belief, while living in a way that goes beyond my limitations in that moment and pushes my boundaries into the living expression of myself as life here which will bring about a world that is best for all which will always be best for me.

When and as i see that I am thinking that i lack something, i stop and breathe, and realize I am life as i am here, and thus I lack nothing but am in numerous ways abundanct, I walk this understanding and living application as myself and with others/all until it is here as who I am as all are, which is a world that is best for all.

I commit msyelf to stop all thoughts of lack and move into the living word of gratefulness to be alive and be in this world where self is able to express and be part of the solution where an equal money type system is able and will be created to support all life in what is best one and equal.

I commit myself to stop all limitations by walking through my fears and comfort zones as I rebirth myself as my self expression of life here through living words I create through self forgiveness and principled living of what is best for all.

I commit myself to stand as a point of support as an equal as I help bring through solutions that are best for all such as technotutor to reeducate this world and equal money system to bring a new system that will support all life.

I commit myself to live the word self acceptance and self confidence as self movement in living solutions as i walk day to day breathe by breath with my commitments i am living that will support me to be my highest potential and thus support others to do the same so we all can live and bring through a world that is best for all.

More support at -

www.lite.desteniiprocess.com

wiki.desteni.org

equalmoney.org

Self Perfected - Destonian network support on fb

www.techno-tutor.com - word as living support, check out this tool!

Monday, August 8, 2016

Self Forgiveness Challenge – Competition – Day 517

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Day 4 -

I have found one of the roots to the abuse and turmoil in my life can be flowed from this one point of participation, and that is competition. Competition comes up in relation to many different scenarios and context, but it stems from experience of lack within self. This lack is seeking to be fulfilled through a source outside, and so the competition of oneself and another ensues causing many outflow consequences that are not best for all. To understand competition on a more in depth level it is where within self there is a point one is not wanting to take responsibility for, and through that point of not wanting to take responsibility, competition is created in a race to fulfill a craving to win and be better. Competition can also be seen as a form of distraction, one that is destructive in most cases, to suppress the actual real issue that driving this desire to be better and that is not wanting to face the real issue which is self needs to change in a way that is best for all.

Self forgiveness on this point:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am able to compete with another person in a way were it’s not causing harm, when I see, realize, and understand the internal energies that is fueling this behavior is one of superiority, ruthlessness, and desire.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into a desire to become more then another and so within that have apparently more power in the relationship, when I see, realize, and understand I am only compromising myself due to the desire to gain something that I don’t believe I can give to myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into a form of self abdication to the responsibility of changing myself and becoming the solution that is here to support what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to seek my own self gratification over others, where I will deliberately seek out my own self interest and advancement within the understanding that others will not receive and so loss.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek over others, and so take another’s share in this world, where I have more than needed and another ends up with less.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to live the equality equation within all movements in my life, where I assess and direct my outflows to be that which is best for all rather than only supporting myself to move forward.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create an idea that I am more advanced then another person if I am winning in a competition with them either directly or indirectly in my mind, and create an idea of myself that I am inherently better than the other, looking down upon them and creating a feeling of superiority.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become ruthless within who I am in competition where I will seek my own self gratification in a moment of instant gratification where another will lose out as I gain more, and so exist within a form of abuse where I take and another loses.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deliberately know that I am taking from another and continue to do so due to the addiction of believing I am better and more and so safe from abuse from others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become the abuser and so create abuse in an escape from my own fear of abuse from others who compete with me, and so perpetuate the competition playout of win and loss over many scenarios and beings in my life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into a form of self abuse where I believe I have to compete to survive and so do it out of fear of death.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed energy as fear as a driving force within me to compete and so create consequences that are not best for all, when I see, realize, and understand that this equation can be lived out and considered in each breath.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not live in breath here and consider each movement I make in what is best for all, where I take responsibility for myself and actions, and support solutions that will support all.

When and as I see myself go into the desire to win, I stop and breath, and realize this will outflow into a form of abuse either to myself or another.

I commit myself to move into the equality equation of what is best.

I commit myself to take responsibility for my fear and move into a calmness where I can live the word physical here as all are here equal to myself.

I commit myself to find solutions that are best for all and stop the desire to win.

I commit myself to live the word competition in a way of understanding what is best through trail and error, and determining through groups and test what is best for all if not apparently understood, and that which is supportive for all in all moments.