I have taken on a new position in my job where it wasn’t a
direct decision by myself where I had time to consider all the points and find
what best suited me, I was more thrown into the position by unforeseen and
unfortunate events. With that being said, I am now in a position of leadership
and responsibility where I have to sharpen my skills and face fears and
illusions I have created for myself. One of the points that has been coming up
lately and has been effecting my work flow and environment is this nagging
backchat that ‘I don’t want all this responsibility, I don’t want to be in
charge of all this, I don’t want to be stressed about money and problems that
arise day in and day out, I want to be free and do what I want’, then my mind
will go into pictures of how others are getting to have an easier time, get to
have fun and be worry free, I want that life again, I don’t want all this
responsibility.
Though I realize that I have to change this pattern because
I have decided to walk this path and ensure I do my best at it. So I will walk
some forgiveness and create some ways forward for myself to find solutions for
the points that I am facing within this character.
Self Forgiveness
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
create a character of the ‘I don’t want to’ do what I have in front of me to do
because of beliefs that it’s too hard and too much, not seeing that I am
creating an experience of it as too much and too hard because of the
personality I am going in of not wanting to do something with the energy of resistance and tiredness.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
go into the character of ‘I don’t want to’ based on the belief that I am not
able to when I see, realize, and understand I am able to that its more a lack
of effort to do what has to be done because I have created a polarized reality
of what is good and what is based through comparison with other people in my
world.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
desire to have my life be smooth and comfortable at all times where I don’t
have stress or points that are challenging because within that I have created
the perception that this is what I want.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
blind me from the realization within the actually facing challenges and pushing
myself within them to find solutions and ways forward, I grow and expand and
this is when I am most empowered as I am able to be more purposeful within what
I do and create more of who I am through the challenges I face.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed pictures
and thoughts of how good it is over there in the easy life where I see comfort and
fun, when I see, realize, and understand each one is equally facing challenges within
there lives and that life is not about what you do or where you are, but more
who you are within it.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
miss the face that I am where I am and I have the responsibilities I have,
though I can accept this and walk within the realization that these challenges will
support with my growth and expansion, and empower me to be more and more the
person I really am as my potential in this life.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
create blame and reaction to others in
my reality for frustrations I am having toward myself for not moving
into the challenges in acceptance and walking who I am within them as a
creation process and opportunity to live my utmost potential within it.
When and as I am seeing myself go into the ‘I don’t want to’
character and start blaming and going into daydreams about how great life is
over there, I stop and breathe, and realize that I am responsible for who I am
within my life circumstances and I can change myself to accept this and live
these opportunities to the best of my ability and make them something worthwhile
that is best for me and all.
I commit myself to live the word acceptance when I see I am
going into blame or reactive thoughts as I see I decide to walk this point and
that I am responsible for who I create myself.
I commit myself to walk solutions that are substantial to
support myself and all involved in a way that supports all to be there best by
walking with them, understanding them, and finding ways to support there
strengths and strengthen their weaknesses as I walk for myself.
I commit myself to live the word accept – stand where I accept
what is here as it is and move into directing myself to live my highest
potential and bring the best out of what I am walking within myself and within
others.
I commit myself to push myself in challenges where I move
into solutions and let go of the desire to resist and give up.
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