A Lady's Journey to Life: Day 311 – Feeling Off

Saturday, June 1, 2013

Day 311 – Feeling Off – Not Doing Enough

Here I will be doing self forgiveness on the point of not doing enough within and throughout my days when I see I am procrastinating, and still not pushing myself to be more effective.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to still sit in procrastination and not research and study the relevant points I am working with to become a more effective being in this world. I realize that this is a two way street, if I want to change the world I will have to change myself, and thus this takes a lot of perseverance, studying, and researching as there is much about the mind and this process that I am walking that has to be understood.

Thus I commit myself to stop this point of procrastinating and make sure I walk the necessary points of study where ever I am and am engaging in to become the best I can be in the field I am taking on in living.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to engage my mind in seeing myself as actually dong something, when I am just entertaining myself in my mind in imaginations and in reality in wasting my time in things that aren’t relevant, and so I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to waste my time on meaningless stuff, when I know I have research to do and not pushing myself to make sure all is taken care of before I go into the point of entertainment.

I commit myself to make a list of my priorities for the day, and make sure these get done before I go into a point of entertainment or schedule entertainment in and stick to the schedule making sure all my points are done.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear not doing enough in process and in kife and thus have to live with the regret of not living to how I could have live, instead of just pushing myself each day to make sure I get what needs done, and do the best I can do with the time I have.

I commit myself to stop existing in this fear of not doing enough, and thus make sure I am being productive during my day and doing all the relevant points that are needed to get done and thus I will not have to live in regret.