Day 311 – Feeling Off – Not Doing Enough

Here I will be doing self forgiveness on the point of not doing enough within and throughout my days when I see I am procrastinating, and still not pushing myself to be more effective.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to still sit in procrastination and not research and study the relevant points I am working with to become a more effective being in this world. I realize that this is a two way street, if I want to change the world I will have to change myself, and thus this takes a lot of perseverance, studying, and researching as there is much about the mind and this process that I am walking that has to be understood.

Thus I commit myself to stop this point of procrastinating and make sure I walk the necessary points of study where ever  I am and am engaging in to become the best I can be in the field I am taking on in living.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to engage my mind in seeing myself as actually dong something, when I am just entertaining myself in my mind in imaginations and in reality in wasting my time in things that aren’t relevant, and so I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to waste my time on meaningless stuff, when I know I have research to do and not pushing myself to make sure all is taken care  of before I go into the point of entertainment.

I commit myself to make a list of my priorities for the day, and make sure these get done before I go into a point of entertainment or schedule entertainment in and stick to the schedule making sure all my points are done.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear not doing enough in process and in kife and thus have to live with the regret of not living to how I could have live, instead of just pushing myself each day to make sure I get what needs done, and do the best I can do with the time I have.

I commit myself to stop existing in this fear of not doing enough, and thus make sure I am being productive during my day and doing all the relevant points that are needed to get done and thus I will not have to live in regret. 

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Day 310 – Feeling Off

Tonight I don’t have anything coming up in terms of a topic to write about, I am in limbo at the moment as I feel a bit overwhelmed with new information coming out and looking at how to understand and integrate this new information into me as I have never heard of it yet in my life. I find a few interesting things that come up when I am faced with this situation or experience within me as this happens quite often of hearing something new for the first time and not knowing what I will make of it.

One, I find I will go into this pattern of waiting to figure it out, like I will not dive in and investigate, read, research what it is that is new to learn, but will slowly read it and look at it to find out more of what it is about. I see that I do this so I can see others examples of how others will understand it and can come to an understanding through that. I find I get overwhelmed with a lot of information at once, and need to hear it or read it through little parts over time. I am not judging this method of study and way I go about this, but I see it as not being the most effective. There is a form of fear of not being able to handle what I am learning, not getting it right the first time, and thus steering others in the wrong path and being made to look foolish for doing this. So still in a self interest starting point, which I am noticing more and more as I walk my process, how much I am in ego and self interest, but it’s cool because I am starting to recognize it more and more, and thus will eventually through the writing have the tools to stop it and change it in one moment as I see it.

But in terms of leadership and this belief that I will not be able to make it, be effective, get everything I am suppose to get, because usually I don’t understand what’s being said in a whole manner initially, I bet not many do, but I have been judging myself for this. Like I am missing something all the time and to a point this is true because obviously I have a lot to learn about the research on the mind and how to walk through it through the process, but this also has this point of not pushing myself as much as I could in researching, and allowing the point to just sit and do it more on a leisurly basis.

It’s like I am still holding back in my process of becoming a self leader, I am making progress I see with my vlogging where I am able to voice myself and just speak without any thought, which is pretty cool. But am still having a hard time in physical communications with people, so still walking the points I have written out on self judgment and facing and changing this in my reality. When I am not living in my fullest potential it shows within self, you can feel it and it’s not a pleasant experience, so will investigate these points in later blogs and continue walking my process to self stability.

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Free Desteni I Process Lite Course for All Ages
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