A Lady's Journey to Life: May 2015

Sunday, May 31, 2015

Opening Up the Mind Construct of Impatience – Day 462

One thing I am noticing recently about myself is the lack of patience I have which I have written about before, though it is still here. I am mostly noticing this within my day to day living such as becoming annoyed at someone driving slow in front of me, my dog barking at a neighbor, my dog sniffing a spot for too much time, the birds chirping outside my window, my pillows not being positioned in a way I am most comfortable, my room being too small, and the list could go on if I include my irritation toward the people in my world at times, I mean I go into annoyance often enough where I am now writing a blog about it and correcting it once and for all. Obviously walking my process from consciousness to self awareness, I am investigating all things and keeping that which is good, and the fact that I am creating a source of conflict within myself toward the my external reality through living out the act of impatience by shouting or speaking fast or becoming rude or not considering another equal to myself is showing that there is a point of self interest I am accessing, and so not adhering to the principle of prevention is the best cure as well as accepting all here as self, which is in fact what is real as all life is equal and one.

Now, this is a point I am writing about because I am still showing that I am being dictated by irritation and this steaming from my lack of patience’s with my world and so this external impatience mirroring the internal impatience I have with myself. I see in a way where these impatience actions outflowing into irritation is steaming from ideas/beliefs/desires/fears that I have created within my mind and projected it onto reality, so within this I am living from the alternate reality through my mind as my fears/desires/ideas/beliefs instead of moving with the pace of breath, here.

I have an example, which I can better explain what here as breath means, I take henri my dog on walks, and we go down paths with big trees, henri likes to run ahead and sniff around and explore the woods around us. I had the idea to hide behind a tree to see what henri would do, and I found I could not stand behind the tree for more then 15 seconds because I went into the emotion of feeling guilty based on his reaction of alertness and wonderment of where I was. I assumed within him he is going into fear, so I pop out behind the tree and he sees me and turns around and continues to do the exact same thing he was doing before he noticed I had disappeared. So here is an example of ‘being here’, Henri was living within the present (here) moment, where we are walking and he is sniffing, he looks back and sees I am not there and based on the reality of his situation, I am no where to be seen, he goes into an alertness where his ears perk out and he goes stiff to be able to listen intently. He does not do what I did in that moment, which is react in emotion, he goes into his physical body and uses his resources to solve the problem, making for much more efficiency in his resources within himself and not creating extra ‘baggage’ so to speak with going into the alternate dimensions of for example thoughts such as “she left me, does she not love me anymore?” “oh god, I am going to die out here, I don’t know where to go?” “what a bitch, where did she go?” (Henri hypothetical thoughts).

And when I pop out, he is not thinking “you are so mean, don’t do that again”, or goes into any physical indication of emotions like crying or aggression, he simply turns around and continues on with what he is doing, there was no reaction only stability. He was showing he was moving within what is here, he took in information in each moment, assessed, and moved within a common sense path using his physical body as support, he remained stable and continued to be stable for the entire duration of the exercise.

So a cool example for me to see what this moment of ‘being here’ looks like, it’s one where emotions/feelings are not visible or accessed but a physical presence of stability is shown, I obviously realize through walking this process that emotions and feelings are created through thinking, so when I access the thoughts as I used for example with Henri’s hypothetical, you can see how much more baggage and more taxing our bodies go through due to all this participation in thoughts and energy as emotions and feelings we go into. I was more tired after that ordeal within me because of the spike of guilty emotion laced in fear due to my thoughts that he was going to suffer in some way if I didn’t show myself. Dogs have a different purpose then humans do on this planet, and I suggest to check out the links below to find out more information of dogs history as well as many other animals, but for my process here I am looking at what thoughts, emotions, and feelings I am accessing and continuing to fuel through participating and living out the personality of ‘irritation’ and ‘impatience’ and the many dimensions that this includes.

I will continue in my next blog, thanks for reading.

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Saturday, May 30, 2015

What do we Place our Value In? – Day 461

Let’s first start with the definition of value, I have defined this word in relation to myself meaning what do I give value to and what gives me value. Value being that which substantiate self. Substantiate is that which is growth, expansion, expression, within self movement. So giving value to is the movement of self in the physical that creates something more. This is what it is, but within the self creation process we are living as our lives, it’s a question to look at and become aware of, because we are giving value to something, what we are giving value to will determine our future, not only for ourselves but life as a whole.

Value is an interesting point because I can deduce it based on my own personal process walking to two outcomes, one that is external to self and one that is internal to self. And this is a self process alone, who you are as the value you create and how you define yourself by what you create. Are you determined by what other’s place value in as you or do you determine for yourself what you as value place yourself within and as you create yourself as your life.

The value placed on the external in relation to self’s definition would be everything that is of the system we live in now, the currency measure being in dollars and cents, one of the main ways we can place our value of ourselves in is based on how much we are worth. Like a job payment scale value, I am worth this amount of dollars, and so one can go further, I drive this car and live in this type of house, I have these kinds of clothes and go to these kinds of restaurants, and these value placements are not seen in plan sight. Meaning we never openly talk about this to others, our value and what we are really think is of value, no we do this in the confines of our own mind and we pre-tend to have values within human decency and life giving ways, but in reality, this is not how the human race lives, we don’t live we survive. When it comes down to the day to day living of a human being, we are most concerned with our survival and what most place value in is whatever means of survival to make sure I am able to live, the more comfortable and secure the better. Though this outflow of survival creates scarcity and fear, and thus abuse and separation is the outflow as what is currently being proven as evidence with starvation, poverty, and war on our planet. In placing value outside of ourselves to the external we do not value life, but only value what can gives us securtity, and again what is that, the currency of dollar and cents, this is where the truth lies, the numbers of our worth according to the current survival system we are creating. And this is no way to live as it’s not living, but is suffering for the many who can't get the numbers.

Fortunately for some, the self value of the internal life that is here as our physical bodies and who we are as life that exist within each living being, is a movement of a different order, this value is not based on what externally we can attach to ourselves and define ourselves by, but what brings us together and unites us within the principle of life that we are all one as life and equal within this fact. This is what is really here and this is the path to real truth of self and freedom. Living from the value of who one is from within measured by how one lives in this world is a whole new way of living, this way of living for the human race is a physical step by step process of self correction through self investigation of one’s living based on the principle of doing what is best for all because one is now living the understanding that all life is self, equal and one. So within this understanding, harming another is harming oneself and so all abuse becomes corrected and essentially ceases to exist as the question is asked, why would i abuse another (self)? This is new because we have been programmed from many levels in this world and even from other dimensions through controls and have been moved like chess based on humanity misplacing value from within to the without of self. Self here is where empowerment exist, it is where life essence exist, it is where our self expression exist, it is where our creative power exist, and so putting value within who one is as what they live each and every day gives value that is real and measureable. And this is lived through words, living words in the fullest expression of self is life here expressed through and as the physical you then create measuresbke physical value as your creation here in real time, doing it in self awareness based on principled living, you create real value thats honoring life which is doing what is best for all. Again this takes a process and is being walked by many currently, though it is certainly possible real self freedom.

We don’t need anything external because in a way we are already a part of everything, we exist here and so looking for ourselves within other things and placing value in things outside ourselves is really devaluing who we are as life beings as equals in this physical reality. We create that equality from within by also giving this equal value to others as we have done for ourselves and stand responsible for self to stand within what is here at all times and be able to create, be able to add value, be able to self express to give life as we have been given. Express and live what is best.

So this point of what we place value in is a path of self discovery as well as self awareness that is a journey, it’s a path from the external value placement of self to the internal value placement of self through self understanding and self creation to become a real person of value that can stand and be here and express here totally and wholesomely each breath, so we walk until this is done.

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Thursday, May 14, 2015

Cat-Punching, Why does this exist? Day 460

Before walking the desteni process, I was a person who cringed and went into reaction at the sight of any animal being hurt or abused, I was not aware of this group on facebook that is promoting cat-punching, I didn't have to see it and I didn't want to watch anything about it and this shows what? The truth of the very reason that cat punching exist, I don’t want to look and thus am stating with my actions that I don’t want to take responsibility for the actions of abuse to animals as I believe myself to not be this. I don’t harm animals and thus I am justified in condemning and believing myself to be more righteous. I mean you don’t really have to look of course to know that animal abuse is happening on the daily, though the understanding of taking responsibility for such actions in this physical reality is not understood and is crucial for healing. If we just condemn people and lock them away, out of sight and out of mind, do we believe the problem just goes away? Of course this is not the case, more abuse is shown, more abuse is happening, and more extreme actions are taken because the message of what these types of actions are showing in our reality is that those who are abusing others need to be re-aligned to life. We need to walk correction processes with these people, we need to create solutions for the problems of this world that'll last, we need to start understanding and standing as supports for those who have made mistakes in life and are ready to correct themselves.

Though the key here that each one has to realize for themselves is we each have to take responsibility for our own mistakes and find the will to walk the correction process ourselves for ourselves, and those who are willing to support themselves will be given support by the very nature that they are showing they care for themselves. Give life to yourself and you are given it in turn, it’s the nature of life. Life supports life. So we as humanity are at the stage were we are in the process of becoming aware at how fucked up we are, what we are creating within this world is the reflection of who we are within ourselves, and those who are willing will be the one’s who stand as the examples for those who come after of how to walk the correction process back to life. This is what desteni is about, realizing that the correction process is here to stop the abuse of life as we stop the abuse of ourselves, and then live this in our world. This will require patience and perseverance because this will be a real time process walking step by step, the change has to be physical and the change has to be proven through time with consistency and cross-referencing, though as more walk the path this will become easier for those who follow as mistakes will be learned from and shared with others and so avoid as this is the principle of efficiency through time.

So as we give to ourselves and start the correction process of who have become as abuse through self forgiveness and self correction in writing and living, we then become capable of helping those who can not as of yet help themselves. There is a specific alignment that is occurring and will resonant throughout yourself, your life and the lives of those you touch, it may not be seen at first, but through time the evidence will start to show as the physical integration starts to take place. Obviously, we as humanity realize that the physical abuse of any living being is unacceptable and we all require to forgive ourselves for our own abuses and correct into a new way of living that is best for all. So it will be a process, one that is not linear nor clear at times, though it will be able to be understood and walked if one is willing. So it comes down to who I am within this life and what I will accept and allow, and so that will determine everything, self honesty is the path to freedom as this is the birthing of self truth in what is real, as self walks the path of self honesty, the road becomes clearer and clearer and the abuse starts to transform into support, this is the process we all will face and have to make a decision, no one will be judged, we can only judge ourselves, who are we humans? How will we stand?

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Wednesday, May 6, 2015

Care to Be Gentle Dear Lady? - Day 459

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Gentleness I have written about before, though I have not yet incorporated it into my daily living. So here in this blog I want to explore the word and definition and find a re-definition I can live with that’ll support for myself as I move through what is to come within walking my mind layers specifically opening up the ‘evil’ side of myself in which I have not lived best for all and have not as of yet investigated to the truth of who I am in self honesty, this is where I am heading.

“Gentleness is the quality of being kind and careful. The original meaning, from around 1300, was "inherited nature," but by the 1600s it had come to mean "freedom from harshness and violence," with the Latin root gentilis, "of the same family or clan." (Vocabulary.com)

I am looking at this word from the perspective of not only being gentle with other’s but also being gentle with myself because I have a tendency of being too hard on myself and so become quite rigid. So within this I see that gentleness as a living word I implement into my daily life will help to transition myself into a balance of living where I am firm, but expansive within who and how I live with myself and so with others as well. So correcting the relationship within myself will then equally correct the relationship with others in my world, this is based on the principle of as within, so without. As I can see currently as I am hard and rigid with myself, I also am like this with others in my world at times.

So playing with the sound of the word Gentle:

Gene Tell

Generation Entail

Generous to Life

So what I see within this word exploration of the sounding of this word, is two points that it is dealing with, one the origin of ourselves as the word gene as well as generation is within the word sounding, and within the definition I placed here it is interesting that it says that the original meaning of the word from the 1300’s was “inherited nature”. Also, the Latin root of the word is of the same family or clan. So within this point we are looking at our origins, the fabric of our existences, who we are within the make up of our beingness, and to embody and live out the word gentleness, one would have to be able to understand and so stand within the genes of who I am, the fabric that is of creation of myself as this physical body which is life itself = physical matter. If one does not understand oneself within who they are as life then how can I live that which is ‘generous to life’ as the second point to consider because if I don’t know myself as life then I can not give that to others and so live generously.

Though as a direct definition, I see the fact that walking my process is essential, though walking it in a way where I consider others as equal to myself and so considering myself as equal to others and giving to others as how I would like to be treated and so treating myself as how I would treat others. This will be lived in different ways with different people, and this will support with the expression of myself, which is cool as this is supporting the process of what is best for all. So for gentleness, I will implement, being generous with myself in the sense that I give to myself equal to what I would want from others and this in the way of the origin of the nature of who we are as life, so caring for myself, loving myself, accepting myself, understanding myself, correcting myself, giving room for correction through time to myself, and so then living this with others. I would say the point has to manifest and be proven as myself and this will be in the way in which I treat others in my world. The physical living will be the proof so to speak. Once I am able to live this as myself and start to shift into living it with others in my world, then I know I have walked this point through and am becoming gentle as a living expression of myself. This is all I have for now.

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