One thing I am noticing recently about myself is the lack of
patience I have which I have written about before, though it is still here. I am mostly noticing this within my day to day living such as
becoming annoyed at someone driving slow in front of me, my dog barking at a
neighbor, my dog sniffing a spot for too much time, the birds chirping outside
my window, my pillows not being positioned in a way I am most comfortable, my
room being too small, and the list could go on if I include my irritation
toward the people in my world at times, I mean I go into annoyance often enough
where I am now writing a blog about it and correcting it once and for all.
Obviously walking my process from consciousness to self awareness, I am
investigating all things and keeping that which is good, and the fact that I am
creating a source of conflict within myself toward the my external reality
through living out the act of impatience by shouting or speaking fast or
becoming rude or not considering another equal to myself is showing that there
is a point of self interest I am accessing, and so not adhering to the
principle of prevention is the best cure as well as accepting all here as self,
which is in fact what is real as all life is equal and one.
Now, this is a point I am writing about because I am still
showing that I am being dictated by irritation and this steaming from my lack
of patience’s with my world and so this external impatience mirroring the
internal impatience I have with myself. I see in a way where these impatience
actions outflowing into irritation is steaming from ideas/beliefs/desires/fears
that I have created within my mind and projected it onto reality, so within
this I am living from the alternate reality through my mind as my
fears/desires/ideas/beliefs instead of moving with the pace of breath, here.
I have an example, which I can better explain what here as
breath means, I take henri my dog on walks, and we go down paths with big
trees, henri likes to run ahead and sniff around and explore the woods around
us. I had the idea to hide behind a tree to see what henri would do, and I found
I could not stand behind the tree for more then 15 seconds because I went into
the emotion of feeling guilty based on his reaction of alertness and wonderment
of where I was. I assumed within him he is going into fear, so I pop out behind
the tree and he sees me and turns around and continues to do the exact same
thing he was doing before he noticed I had disappeared. So here is an example
of ‘being here’, Henri was living within the present (here) moment, where we
are walking and he is sniffing, he looks back and sees I am not there and based
on the reality of his situation, I am no where to be seen, he goes into an
alertness where his ears perk out and he goes stiff to be able to listen
intently. He does not do what I did in that moment, which is react in emotion, he
goes into his physical body and uses his resources to solve the problem, making
for much more efficiency in his resources within himself and not creating extra
‘baggage’ so to speak with going into the alternate dimensions of for example
thoughts such as “she left me, does she not love me anymore?” “oh god, I am
going to die out here, I don’t know where to go?” “what a bitch, where did she
go?” (Henri hypothetical thoughts).
And when I pop out, he is not thinking “you are so mean,
don’t do that again”, or goes into any physical indication of emotions like
crying or aggression, he simply turns around and continues on with what he is
doing, there was no reaction only stability. He was showing he was moving
within what is here, he took in information in each moment, assessed, and moved
within a common sense path using his physical body as support, he remained
stable and continued to be stable for the entire duration of the exercise.
So a cool example for me to see what this moment of ‘being
here’ looks like, it’s one where emotions/feelings are not visible or accessed
but a physical presence of stability is shown, I obviously realize through
walking this process that emotions and feelings are created through thinking,
so when I access the thoughts as I used for example with Henri’s hypothetical,
you can see how much more baggage and more taxing our bodies go through due to
all this participation in thoughts and energy as emotions and feelings we go
into. I was more tired after that ordeal within me because of the spike of
guilty emotion laced in fear due to my thoughts that he was going to suffer in
some way if I didn’t show myself. Dogs have a different purpose then humans do
on this planet, and I suggest to check out the links below to find out more
information of dogs history as well as many other animals, but for my process
here I am looking at what thoughts, emotions, and feelings I am accessing and
continuing to fuel through participating and living out the personality of
‘irritation’ and ‘impatience’ and the many dimensions that this includes.
I will continue in my next blog, thanks for reading.
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