Day 4 - love and desire

 

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be loved by another and create a belief that this makes a happy/good life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to  desire someone to give me the compliments and loving embrace and within this fall and love into points that cause self consequences that create the opposite as the polarity balances it self out to hate, and within that go back into the desire to be loved.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to love others and in this seek a return on my investment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not give as I’d like to receive, and in this create a lack I myself where I fill it with energy as the love experience instead of walking and living in common sense.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to live for the love energy and become misguided and confused when it stops or no longer is here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not redefine love and in this find a definition that creates an outcome that is best for all and in this will be best for me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in hate when the love energy is taken away as I see, realize, and understand that I am fooling myself as the outplay is the same lack and consequences as I did not stand in the common sense of giving all this as a living experience and not stop until that outcome is the result, but seek self glorification and self interest in gaining energy as it feels good for some moments.

 

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Survival Programming - Sadness and Walking the Correction - Day 396

Please see blogs below for more context to this series:
Survival Instinct Programming - Day 391
Survival Programming Correction - Part 1 - Day 392
Survival Programming Unpacked - Part 3 - Day 393
Survival Instinct Programming - Fear of the Unknown - Part 4 - Day 394
Survival Programming - Why Such the Long Face? – Part 5 – Day 395

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within the experience of sadness for a prolonged period of time where I wallow in it and become consumed by it where I am not able to see reality clearly and desire some experience of positivity to get me out of it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get caught up in the experience of sadness and miss reality and so miss the opportunity that is here to change myself or the situation to become something that will beneficial or help myself and others to move through what caused the sadness and so see what can be learned/gifted from it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within sadness due to the desire to have a positive feeling where I can move out of this feeling of sadness and so feel better.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to create an experience within me through following the mind into what ifs, creating fear through the accepted mind dimensions I am creating of scenarios that are not real and/or fact.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create future projections where I scare myself instead of remaining here as breath and moving within reality where I have the response-ability to direct my world in each moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist in fear and so create the opposite of joy as experiences in the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within my mind instead of here where I am able to direct situation and see situation in a benefit for all rather then creating scenarios in the mind with no direction from myself but just a follow of energies.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become addicted to energies rather then being here and taking responsibility for myself and my world to be that of real substance rather then exist in polarities of energy made through the mind dimensions of illusion.

When and as I see myself existing within the mind in future projections and following energy experiences, I stop and breath, and realize that this will just accumulate and accentuate the energies that I am already existing within carrying me farther away from reality and so where I am not in any ability to direct myself and my world effectively.

I commit myself to move within a point of stopping energy and moving to the physical in breath.

I commit to breath until I am stable and not in reaction to what is happing.

I commit to consider all the points I am able to in a moment and direct in the best way I am able to using common sense.

I commit to stop thinking and projecting into the future and so I commit to bring myself here with my breath awareness, and move into real actions that will support all.

Eqafe interview support I recommend:
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Sadness: When Relationships End - Atlanteans - Part 103
Sadness: Sounding Self Forgiveness - Atlanteans 104
Sadness: Seeing the Gift - Atlanteans - Part 105

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Survival Programming - Why Such the Long Face? – Part 5 – Day 395

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Please see blogs below for more context to this series:
Survival Instinct Programming - Day 391
Survival Programming Correction - Part 1 - Day 392
Survival Programming Unpacked - Part 3 - Day 393
Survival Instinct Programming - Fear of the Unknown - Part 4 - Day 394

Here I am looking at the experience of sadness and why we as human beings experience this within ourselves. Obviously, the common points of sadness is based on mind thoughts or memories or preconceived judgments or desires placed on to physical reality. When we exist in such a way of separating ourselves from the actual reality of what is here and instead only exist within the mind reality the mind generates and creates through energy feelings the sadness, which is not a real experience and does not indicate what in the physical is actually happening as self is not in the physical. Self is in one's mind, the mind is not physical cause it can't be touched or physically worked with, it's to be worked with in self awareness as it can easily direct self into self compromise. So the point is that the experience of sadness in a moment or even the experience of happiness is not a real experience from anything outside of self, but is being created and lived within self through accepting the mind components that are keeping them going that compromises one's own self direction and way of life.

For the experience of sadness, I am looking at first the thought dimensions of my mind, what are the thoughts that created such an experience, and the main thought is about someone dying close to me, this thought I have allowed to become a part of my day to day thinking where it will come up and I’ll follow it. This accepting the thought and so energy of sadness that is attached with it as I experience it when I have this thought, when we follow thoughts they will grow to more thoughts and projections of the that one single thought and when the single thought is not self directed within reality based living and awareness eventually you will create a possession that can take you to extremes of emotional experiences.

So this is how we create ourselves to be emotional either in the positive or the negative, and from this one must realize that the source of this energy is being created and used for it's own benefit by our mind being taken from our physical substance/bodies. So it’s a relationship I have to balance and equalize, where I no more use the mind to determine and direct me into the dimensions of illusions as thoughts moving to future projections as possession points, but here in the physical in breath, directing myself from what is actually happening and how to best direct the physical situation into solutions that will be best for all.

Self forgiveness and self correction writing to follow, thanks for reading.

Eqafe interview support I recommend:
Sadness: Understanding Sadness - Atlanteans - Part 102
Sadness: When Relationships End - Atlanteans - Part 103
Sadness: Sounding Self Forgiveness - Atlanteans 104
Sadness: Seeing the Gift - Atlanteans - Part 105

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Hearing ‘Bad’ News – Day 377

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Yesterday I heard some news that was consider within my mind, bad. I wished that this news would be different, that I didn’t have to face this news and I could go back in time and change the scenario to be happy news, news that is not so emotional, news I can live with, but it was what in fact in reality happen so it’s news that is here. I don’t really know how I will walk and open up this process of hearing bad news, this news is based on a personal issue that is related to me indirectly. The fear I see coming up is more in the line of loss and despair, such as there is nothing I can do about it. But I realize giving into these fears will only make the whole situation worse and create more consequences for myself then necessary.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear getting bad news about things that will personally effect me because I fear the loss of things/people in my world and this creates a feeling of despair.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the loss of others and things in my world and not in fact move beyond this fear and look at what it is in fact in the physical I can do to support and assist the situation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create and follow the feeling of despair in my world and so believe that within this feeling I will loss myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create more fear within the point of looking at things through the energy of despair and seeing that there is no outcome that will be created that is desired because I am only looking through this point of the news through this energy of a loss of hope.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to look at the news within a hope of everything working out and being ok.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see the news within a point of polarity of hoping for good results and becoming disappointed within it’s the opposite of these desired results.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hope for good results with the news that I was given, and within this hope I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hope in my mind for the results to be good as I realize that this is only based on my mind reality and so will create a point of dependency of desires and becoming disappointed if they are not reached rather then sticking to the physical and working with what is here and the physical steps needed to practically move and direct the point as best I am able to.

When and as I see I am going into the polarity of desiring good news and so becoming disappointed if the news is not good and falling into despair, I stop and breath, and realize that these energetic reactions I engage in within my living is creating the experiences within me of feeling overwhelmed and run down and not able to move, when in reality I am still here and I realize I can use what is here in support and assist the situation to an outcome that is in fact the best it can be.

I commit myself to move beyond the fear of getting bad news and so let go of the desire for good news.

I commit to breath through the desire to go into the positive energy as getting good news and so dissipate the energy of becoming disappointed and so I commit to live here in stability in what is here to walk through and direct in self honesty and common sense.

I commit to find practical solutions in the physical that can assist with the situation and become a stable support if and when I am needed.

I commit to remain practical and reality based in my living within the situation and let go of the energies to become emotional.

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