Stubbornness Dissected - Who am I within this? Day 439

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I have come to realize that I am quite a stubborn person, I have a hard time not getting my way and having to adhere to another’s way of doing things. I have for a while wanted to deny this aspect of myself or simply run away from it because to look at this means I have to face it and change it. I find that within this fear of facing myself within stubbornness, I fear losing my stand I have believed myself to have with others in my world of getting my needs met and making sure that I survive or get taken care of, because in essence if I don’t take care of myself, who will? Though, I have taken this belief of myself to an extreme point where I have believed myself to be able to handle everything, I don’t need anyone in my life, I don’t need help, I can take care of myself, and within standing within this stubborn belief of myself, I have in ways stood alone.

There is benefit’s to having this stand within self as this allows for self sufficiency and self empowerment, but also it can lead to an unbalanced relationship with other people in my world where I push them away and not embrace the ‘gifts’ they have to share with me, be it the treasures of companionship or the harsh reality of facing who I really am in the eyes of another. This truth of self especially coming from an outside source is where I go into a wall of stone cold, where I have an extremely difficult time allowing someone to show me where I am doing something wrong or where I can improve on something. This is specific to the person as each person I meet I find there is a different relationship that develops, but with specific people I have created myself in relation to them in ways where I find myself comfortable and my nature or who I have created as my personalities catered to based on the personality of the other, these relationships I desire as there is an easement to them and I am usually able to get my way eventually.

Now with endeavoring on the desteni I process and standing as a point of living example for those who come after me, I am here and have committed myself to see myself for who I really am, change my nature, and report openly and self honestly to those who will read this. I am finding that I have to correct and change myself to fit into all walks of life, the easy and the difficult, the comfortable and the uncomfortable, I can no longer escape into my comfort zone of just seeking the easy and comfortable path, I have put myself in a position where I stand until I in fact do or stand to lose much in the way of not standing. As within reality there is always consequence to the decisions we make, I no more can pretend that all will be good and the universe will take care of me, as I realize I am a universe unto myself and I am the creator of myself so no one is going to take care of me, I have to take care of myself meaning I have to correct my living to align with life and what is best for all. There is simply no other logical or harmonious way to go about living my life realizing these facts that what is best for all is the law of the universe and treating and considering others as equal and one to self is life.

So I have come to start writing and correcting myself within this current realization of seeing myself within the understanding that I am stubborn and am determined to get my own way without considering all the dimensions of this desire push. I have currently been facing this in my agreement so will walk some self forgiveness in relation to this as well as walking the correction process.

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Interview Support on the topic of Stubbornness:

Stubbornness: Introduction - Atlanteans - Part 154
Stubbornness: Overcoming - Atlanteans - Part 155
Stubbornness: Practical Application - Atlanteans - Part 156
Stubbornness: Self Forgiveness - Atlanteans - Part 157
Stubbornness: Redesigning - Atlanteans - Part 158
Physical Sound - Atlanteans - Part 159
The Consequences of Speaking - Atlanteans - Part 160
Stubbornness: Independence, Dependence, Interdependence - Atlanteans - Part 161

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Hearing ‘Bad’ News – Day 377

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Yesterday I heard some news that was consider within my mind, bad. I wished that this news would be different, that I didn’t have to face this news and I could go back in time and change the scenario to be happy news, news that is not so emotional, news I can live with, but it was what in fact in reality happen so it’s news that is here. I don’t really know how I will walk and open up this process of hearing bad news, this news is based on a personal issue that is related to me indirectly. The fear I see coming up is more in the line of loss and despair, such as there is nothing I can do about it. But I realize giving into these fears will only make the whole situation worse and create more consequences for myself then necessary.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear getting bad news about things that will personally effect me because I fear the loss of things/people in my world and this creates a feeling of despair.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the loss of others and things in my world and not in fact move beyond this fear and look at what it is in fact in the physical I can do to support and assist the situation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create and follow the feeling of despair in my world and so believe that within this feeling I will loss myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create more fear within the point of looking at things through the energy of despair and seeing that there is no outcome that will be created that is desired because I am only looking through this point of the news through this energy of a loss of hope.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to look at the news within a hope of everything working out and being ok.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see the news within a point of polarity of hoping for good results and becoming disappointed within it’s the opposite of these desired results.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hope for good results with the news that I was given, and within this hope I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hope in my mind for the results to be good as I realize that this is only based on my mind reality and so will create a point of dependency of desires and becoming disappointed if they are not reached rather then sticking to the physical and working with what is here and the physical steps needed to practically move and direct the point as best I am able to.

When and as I see I am going into the polarity of desiring good news and so becoming disappointed if the news is not good and falling into despair, I stop and breath, and realize that these energetic reactions I engage in within my living is creating the experiences within me of feeling overwhelmed and run down and not able to move, when in reality I am still here and I realize I can use what is here in support and assist the situation to an outcome that is in fact the best it can be.

I commit myself to move beyond the fear of getting bad news and so let go of the desire for good news.

I commit to breath through the desire to go into the positive energy as getting good news and so dissipate the energy of becoming disappointed and so I commit to live here in stability in what is here to walk through and direct in self honesty and common sense.

I commit to find practical solutions in the physical that can assist with the situation and become a stable support if and when I am needed.

I commit to remain practical and reality based in my living within the situation and let go of the energies to become emotional.

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Walking from Desires to Agreements - Day 357

A point came up tonight where I had to really look at the starting point of something that I desired quite strongly, and within myself I saw when I was met with opposition to my desire by another in my world, I went into an immediate point of defense and protection. It’s the same as like putting up a shield of armor and doing battle with an opposing army, that is what the experience and feeling feels like within my body the moment I see I will not be able to fulfill my desires as I had planned and expected.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to come into a decision point within my life with another in a point of resistance and expectation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect to be able to do what I want and planned for it to go my way without hearing the others point of view.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use manipulation within myself towards others to get my desires met at any cost.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not live principled within each breath, but have my self interest come first and do harm onto another.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into a point of resistance and defense when I found my desires being questioned and so potentially not being fulfilled.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the energy of the picture in my mind of me having my desires met with my will of manipulation before even speaking and hearing what the other had to say.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be right and so have the final say.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give into the desires within my self interest way of living rather then letting it go and standing as an equal with others and hearing them and considering them equal to how I would want them to hear and consider me.

When and as I see I am going into manipulation to get what I want I stop and breath, and realize that this will only in the end cause self compromise cause I am fighting and manipulating against myself, and so will not come to agreements with others because it’s impossible if I don’t see them as me and so treat them as an equal as how I would want them to treat me.

When and as I see I go into the mind into a desire through a picture, scene, or imagination, I stop and breath, and realize that this is going into the mind dimensions and I am not taking the physical reality into consideration as I am not here within the conversation that is being addressed.

I commit myself to breath when I see this playout of imagination or pictures come up and stop participating.

I commit to stop the point of trying to prove my point or manipulate the situation or the others to get my way.

I commit to hear the other and self honestly consider the others words and perspective equal to myself and decide according to all the information gathered on how I will proceed.

I commit to come to agreements with all parties involved where there is an observed consideration by all and all are heard, and so all come to a decision that is agreed upon after deliberation that is best for all.

Through the tools I have been walking with desteni, they have supported me in stopping this point of going into the self centered actions of trying to move reality to favor me through manipulation and passive force, and learned the act of considering others as my equal. Within this point that was brought up tonight, I was able to after a few moments of seeing the desire increase and the potential for reaction towards the other start to accumulate, I stopped myself and looked at the whole playout of what I was doing within myself and what the other was saying and expressing within him, and found I was able to release these desires and actually hear what the other was communicating towards me about the reasons he objected. And so I was able to, say in a quantum moment, look at the consequences of what the different outflow potentials that were able to occur and so I then could see the direction that was best by opening myself to all the factors and deciding and directing myself in the moment based on the principles I am living, one and equal with all beings in my environment. So it’s cool that with a shift in perspective and priorities, opening myself up to more of what reality is showing me, and choosing the direction within myself I will take after consideration of the real time assessment in the moment, I am able to change myself in real time to stop my desires to be selfish and consider another as an equal part of my world and make a decision based on this equality and understanding.

We came to an agreement about the point I desired, and it was done, no emotions where used, we did look at the emotions though and address them, but it was within a point of self correction and not used in a point of manipulation. So I see I am starting to integrate more into a reality based communication with others in taking the desires and emotional experiences out of the daily occurrences that happen in my life, and make effective agreements based on all the information that is gathered with all the people and factors involved through a decision to do this in fact within myself in the moment it is happening. This making for a peaceful transition from self centered desires to a reality based decision, and working with the physical world around me and the people within it as equal contributors to the final agreement that has to be made. Making for less friction and conflict free living environment because all are considered and all had the chance for an equal say. It’s not an easy thing to give up desires at first, but once I have seen the benefit of this through seeing my world becoming more peaceful and efficient, I have to ask myself the question ‘what took me so long?’

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