My Journey to Life: stopping an addiction

Sunday, October 8, 2017

Enough is Enough - Stopping an Addiction - Day 560

There is a specific power that comes with making a decision for self and living that decision into a proven fact in reality, and this specific power is self empowerment. What is self empowerment? To me, I have found this empowerment is the ability to move myself in my reality within self awareness in a direction that I create. So much of our days move with stimulus being pushed in our face, consumerism products, ways to escape life’s challenges, mind altering substances, the list goes on, though through it all and in the end there is a choice and a decision that one makes to either live out the controlled reaction of consumption or direct oneself to decide on if that consumption is something you in fact want to live out or not. So the power of self moves from this force to consume based on like a compulsion within self or an internal decision to move and decide for oneself in self awareness and direct action in reality.

The phrase enough is enough is supportive for the act of stopping an addiction one has, though one has to get to this point and in many cases it does not even have to get to the point where one realizes ‘ok, enough is enough?’, but in most cases I have found at least in the beginning of stopping addictive patterns and habits, this self realization is in fact supportive to stop. For me, hitting rock bottom so to speak was a terrible experience, it was not comfortable and it was not easy, though what i realized about myself in that moment is that I have to get up and I have to stop, I can not continue on this way or my life is going to go to shit and be a waste. I had to do this for myself, my life, and my functioning in my reality in a way that is best for me and continues to support my enviroment the best i am able to. In short, i realized instead of continuing to destroy myself how about I actually support myself and the potential i have seen many times and creates this infectious passion that drives me to grow and expand. This is what I want my life to be about self expansion, self growth, and not only supporting myself, but supporting as many as possible to realize and reach their highest potentials as well.

Stopping an addiction is not going to be done with just a phrase though, yes it supports with self realization, but to stop an addiction one has to decide and then apply that decision every day until the addiction is transcended. And you will be challenged throughout with temptations, with new dimensions opening up, with physical stimulus and desires being triggered, but within oneself there is a power that resides and this power is the power to decide, live, and thus prove to oneself that I can in fact stop and change. Once this is realized, this creates a confidence and a self authority that no one can take away from oneself and will only support who one is in the life that will be lived. Though in the meantime as one walks the process of stopping the addiction, these questions supported me, questions such as understanding why I am stopping my addiction? What is the purpose? Am I doing this for me? What will I do if I fall? Also, answering questions such as why am I so addicted to this point? What comfort is it giving me? What am I trying to escape from? What is my capacity? Who am I? What can I rather do or create that’ll support me? What is my strengths?

I work with the desteni I process as well which is a process of supporting oneself through one’s mind and behaviors with self forgiveness and self corrective change in writing and living. This process and self forgiveness specifically works with the inner workings of self that is happening and that is in fact driving our behaviors in many ways to do what we do, and thus to understand why and also find solutions for it. This platform is laid out in a structured way and definitely supported me to stop and transcend many addictions such as alcohol, weed (heavy user), masturbation, self sabotage patterns, and I am continuing.

There is also the 21 day support process where I have stopped an addiction for 21 days, if I fell and I went into the addiction again I would start the 21 days over until I was complete with stopping for 21 days. For heavy addictions, I would walk this in phases, so 21 days, then 1 month, then 3 months, then 6 months, then a year until I no longer have any desires. Again the desire does come up once and a while, but not as strong and potent. All the while through that process, working with my mind and thoughts to why I kept on with the addiction, working with fears, working with insecurities, working with self judgments, and writing out self forgiveness and self correction solutions to then in real life living be equipped and prepared to live out the correction as solution that I wrote out for myself. It is also helpful to speak self forgiveness when the moment comes up to to support with real time moments of change needed or to release built up emotions. There is much more on these points in the sites below so please follow the links for more or can ask me questions in the comment section if need be, I would be happy to support.

For more support on self and life, please check out the links:

[Eqafe - Every Question Answered For Everyone :) ] (http://www.eqafe.com)

[Desteni I Process - Self Development Support] (http://www.lite.desteniiprocess.com)

Soul - School of Ultimate Living - Living Words Process and Support:
https://www.facebook.com/schoolofultimateliving/

Earth Haven - Sustainable Living Environments -
Built on the Principles of What is best for all Life
https://www.patreon.com/earthhaven

Forum support:
www.forum.desteni.org

Desteni Wiki:
wiki.destonians.com/Main_Page

Eqafe Facebook Page:
www.facebook.com/Eqafe-359136...

7 year journey to life Facebook group:
www.facebook.com/groups/journ...

Friday, January 29, 2016

Is it Possible to Stop Judging Life? – Day 496

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I have recently started looking at the point of a belief I have participated in and accepted in my living for most of my life and most of my process I have been walking with Desteni. I can see that the cycle of not only judging myself in a positive or negative way, but also judging my world in the same polarity cycle of negative and positive has effected my relationships and interactions greatly. I found within this that I had the belief that I can not stop the judgment of the external world, and within looking at this I am seeing that I have to stop the judgment of myself first to stop judging my world absolute. I have to create a definitive correction process to stop the process of judgment through living words and practicing my living through self movement. The minds automatic response I have found is to judge with thoughts and backchat fueled with energy of myself which then projects onto my world. Here I am looking at first doing the self forgiveness to stop the belief that it is impossible to stop judging myself and projecting it onto reality.

Self Forgiveness on the Compromising Pattern:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe the act of stopping myself from judging myself and others is impossible.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I don’t have what it takes to stop the judgment of myself and others in my world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that it’s too difficult to stop judging others and myself in the day to day life I am living.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to come to believe that stopping myself in each moment is impossible and so stopping my thoughts of judgment is impossible.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that stopping my thoughts is impossible.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that stopping my thoughts is not the issue but not participating in the thoughts is the act of stopping participation in the judgment and so stopping the pattern of judging myself and others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that I not only have to stop my negative beliefs about myself but also the positive.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am these negative or positive judgments of myself and so believe and create this within my external reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that stopping the participation in these thoughts will stop the energy they produce and within time the pattern will diminish and stop influencing me completely to be able to see reality directly and within fact.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into a form of fear when I see that I have to stop all my participation in my thoughts and beliefs that I can’t do this.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that stopping my participation in my thoughts is impossible when in reality I can stop in each moment from participating breathing here in reality.

Self Correction to Live that I Commit to:

I commit myself to stop participating in the thoughts of judgment when they come up by breathing and moving into my physical body.

I commit myself to practice this self movement into the physical until I am here and through this I align this self movement with the oneness of life focus realizing all is here as self and we are all one thus judgment is non sensical.

I commit myself to live the word acceptance and oneness within the act of moving from thoughts to here in breath in my physical body grounding my beingness to what is real by accepting all here as me as life in the physical.

I commit myself to utilize the word ‘No’ when I see a judgment thought come up and move into the alignment to life here as and within the physical reality.