Enough is Enough - Stopping an Addiction - Day 560

There is a specific power that comes with making a decision for self and living that decision into a proven fact in reality, and this specific power is self empowerment. What is self empowerment? To me, I have found this empowerment is the ability to move myself in my reality within self awareness in a direction that I create. So much of our days move with stimulus being pushed in our face, consumerism products, ways to escape life’s challenges, mind altering substances, the list goes on, though through it all and in the end there is a choice and a decision that one makes to either live out the controlled reaction of consumption or direct oneself to decide on if that consumption is something you in fact want to live out or not. So the power of self moves from this force to consume based on like a compulsion within self or an internal decision to move and decide for oneself in self awareness and direct action in reality.

The phrase enough is enough is supportive for the act of stopping an addiction one has, though one has to get to this point and in many cases it does not even have to get to the point where one realizes ‘ok, enough is enough?’, but in most cases I have found at least in the beginning of stopping addictive patterns and habits, this self realization is in fact supportive to stop. For me, hitting rock bottom so to speak was a terrible experience, it was not comfortable and it was not easy, though what i realized about myself in that moment is that I have to get up and I have to stop, I can not continue on this way or my life is going to go to shit and be a waste. I had to do this for myself, my life, and my functioning in my reality in a way that is best for me and continues to support my enviroment the best i am able to. In short, i realized instead of continuing to destroy myself how about I actually support myself and the potential i have seen many times and creates this infectious passion that drives me to grow and expand. This is what I want my life to be about self expansion, self growth, and not only supporting myself, but supporting as many as possible to realize and reach their highest potentials as well.

Stopping an addiction is not going to be done with just a phrase though, yes it supports with self realization, but to stop an addiction one has to decide and then apply that decision every day until the addiction is transcended. And you will be challenged throughout with temptations, with new dimensions opening up, with physical stimulus and desires being triggered, but within oneself there is a power that resides and this power is the power to decide, live, and thus prove to oneself that I can in fact stop and change. Once this is realized, this creates a confidence and a self authority that no one can take away from oneself and will only support who one is in the life that will be lived. Though in the meantime as one walks the process of stopping the addiction, these questions supported me, questions such as understanding why I am stopping my addiction? What is the purpose? Am I doing this for me? What will I do if I fall? Also, answering questions such as why am I so addicted to this point? What comfort is it giving me? What am I trying to escape from? What is my capacity? Who am I? What can I rather do or create that’ll support me? What is my strengths?

I work with the desteni I process as well which is a process of supporting oneself through one’s mind and behaviors with self forgiveness and self corrective change in writing and living. This process and self forgiveness specifically works with the inner workings of self that is happening and that is in fact driving our behaviors in many ways to do what we do, and thus to understand why and also find solutions for it. This platform is laid out in a structured way and definitely supported me to stop and transcend many addictions such as alcohol, weed (heavy user), masturbation, self sabotage patterns, and I am continuing.

There is also the 21 day support process where I have stopped an addiction for 21 days, if I fell and I went into the addiction again I would start the 21 days over until I was complete with stopping for 21 days. For heavy addictions, I would walk this in phases, so 21 days, then 1 month, then 3 months, then 6 months, then a year until I no longer have any desires. Again the desire does come up once and a while, but not as strong and potent. All the while through that process, working with my mind and thoughts to why I kept on with the addiction, working with fears, working with insecurities, working with self judgments, and writing out self forgiveness and self correction solutions to then in real life living be equipped and prepared to live out the correction as solution that I wrote out for myself. It is also helpful to speak self forgiveness when the moment comes up to to support with real time moments of change needed or to release built up emotions. There is much more on these points in the sites below so please follow the links for more or can ask me questions in the comment section if need be, I would be happy to support.

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How I Stop Addictions with the Desteni I Process - Day 535

Here I discuss how I have been assisted and lived the tools of the desteni I process for myself where I stopped a number of addictions in my life. Have a listen and give yourself this gift of support for yourself to so we can all direct ourselves to our highest potentials. This to support a world that is best for all and stand as a steward of the earth for all who are here and yet to come. For more information on the tools and understanding more how to apply them, check out the links.

Desteni-I-Process Lite Beginner course -
www.lite.desteniiprocess.com

Soul - School of Ultimate Living - Create yourself through Words!
www.schoolofultimateliving.com/

Self Supportive Material -
www.Eqafe.com

Forum support:
www.forum.desteni.org

Desteni Wiki:
wiki.destonians.com/Main_Page

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DIP Lite on Facebook:
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Day 245- I am An Addict - Opening Up More on Vengefulness

Looking more at this point of vengefulness within me and how and why I have created myself in such a way, I see within looking at myself in such a scenario is when I am in a belief of myself that I am in a way defending what it is I think is mine because I believe someone is threatening my chances of getting what I desire. These beliefs are not based within fact as physical evidence, but in my mind as thoughts, emotions, and memories I have created as a report for myself as the preemptive for attack, but the problem is its not real it’s all illusion, it can’t be duplicated, and thus it can not be trusted. Though within this current character as vengeful as an example of this illusion over reality, I am constantly facing my consequences that I am currently facing with people seeing me as bossy and unapproachable because when people are accused or not treated with respect and it’s not actually provable true what I say, there will always be resistance and conflict.

So this desire and belief that ‘I am not able to get what I desire because another is preventing it’, creates a strong point of urgency within me based on addiction interestingly enough, I now over time have become addicted to getting and indulging in things that make me feel good. For example these can be compliments from others, being seen as better then others, getting attention from someone I admire, getting to do things or go somewhere that I really enjoy, and within this addiction of the feelings of happiness, achievement,satisfaction of this indulgence consumed I feel better about myself, I feel more complete, feel more worthy of life, feel more accepted by others, feel more accepted within myself. And so when I do not receive that which I desire and that which I expect and have found a point I perceived that another is taking this from me, I go into survival mode and attack. 

It’s like a drug addict not getting their drug and another person is the one preventing them from getting it, one go into withdrawal and go out of control within themselves because there is an overwhelming desire to get that fix again, to get the high of the feelings again, the experience of wonder that one can’t get by just being here, searching, seeking, escaping, and when one stand in the way of another’s desires there will be a wrath attached to that as the person obviously is not self controlled. This is how I would describe the desire of my apparent needs and not getting them due to another preventing that, and the rage that is built based on this counter force of encompassing desire to get my energy fix.

But this is not life right? No this is not living, but coping and covering up the problem within me which I am trying not to have to see and trying not to have to face, and this is the point of actual change, actually willing myself to stop my self abuse, actually willing myself to stop my addictions to desires and my apparent happiness, stopping the self sabotage of life, actually stopping my abuse within how I treat others and the hurtful things I say, but I want to stay within the easy life, the quick fix, the instant gratification. At what cost though….this will cost me my life. Like the overdose addict, they do it to such an extent that it consumes them eventually and they slip away into non-existence.

But all the while, this whole time me as the addict is aware, I can see what I am doing, I can see the effects my words, my emotions, my forces are having on others, and how I am not actually considering and living equal with others, but only trying to satisfy my own self indulgences. I am creating this whole experience of self dissatisfaction within me because I am allowing addictions to direct me, I am allowing feelings of instant gratification to consume me, deciding to go with a moment of feeling a good feeling over the life that I am visible harming as I have wrote in early post of making another cry, this is not who I want to be.

So I have realized especially within this deliberate abuse within vengefulness I go into towards others, that it’s time to walk my decision, live my decision and become the decision as myself, the decision I have already made to stand for life, to be an example of what life is in equality and oneness, to stop my addictions to the mind as energy, and so breath through this to reach the end result that will come as self direction, self determination, self creation where I allow nothing to escape me, but I stand and live my own self responsibility, I do onto others as I would want done to me, I live my words and stop my abuse in my world and then eventually as the world at large, what I live is what I create, what we live as life is what we create as life, we are directly responsible with and without.

Being vengeful and seeking revenge is the ultimate slap in the face to life and those who are pushing themselves in this process to be an example as life as I have stated that I am walking, I see the deliberateness within my actions when I accept this character to play out, and it’s not something I will accept any longer. I will break all these points down within blogs to come and create my own guidelines to live to walk through the storm and direct myself out to the other side, there are solutions we just have to be here to realize them not in our minds, we here in reality within our living are our own solutions, I just have to live It

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