Enough is Enough - Stopping an Addiction - Day 560

There is a specific power that comes with making a decision for self and living that decision into a proven fact in reality, and this specific power is self empowerment. What is self empowerment? To me, I have found this empowerment is the ability to move myself in my reality within self awareness in a direction that I create. So much of our days move with stimulus being pushed in our face, consumerism products, ways to escape life’s challenges, mind altering substances, the list goes on, though through it all and in the end there is a choice and a decision that one makes to either live out the controlled reaction of consumption or direct oneself to decide on if that consumption is something you in fact want to live out or not. So the power of self moves from this force to consume based on like a compulsion within self or an internal decision to move and decide for oneself in self awareness and direct action in reality.

The phrase enough is enough is supportive for the act of stopping an addiction one has, though one has to get to this point and in many cases it does not even have to get to the point where one realizes ‘ok, enough is enough?’, but in most cases I have found at least in the beginning of stopping addictive patterns and habits, this self realization is in fact supportive to stop. For me, hitting rock bottom so to speak was a terrible experience, it was not comfortable and it was not easy, though what i realized about myself in that moment is that I have to get up and I have to stop, I can not continue on this way or my life is going to go to shit and be a waste. I had to do this for myself, my life, and my functioning in my reality in a way that is best for me and continues to support my enviroment the best i am able to. In short, i realized instead of continuing to destroy myself how about I actually support myself and the potential i have seen many times and creates this infectious passion that drives me to grow and expand. This is what I want my life to be about self expansion, self growth, and not only supporting myself, but supporting as many as possible to realize and reach their highest potentials as well.

Stopping an addiction is not going to be done with just a phrase though, yes it supports with self realization, but to stop an addiction one has to decide and then apply that decision every day until the addiction is transcended. And you will be challenged throughout with temptations, with new dimensions opening up, with physical stimulus and desires being triggered, but within oneself there is a power that resides and this power is the power to decide, live, and thus prove to oneself that I can in fact stop and change. Once this is realized, this creates a confidence and a self authority that no one can take away from oneself and will only support who one is in the life that will be lived. Though in the meantime as one walks the process of stopping the addiction, these questions supported me, questions such as understanding why I am stopping my addiction? What is the purpose? Am I doing this for me? What will I do if I fall? Also, answering questions such as why am I so addicted to this point? What comfort is it giving me? What am I trying to escape from? What is my capacity? Who am I? What can I rather do or create that’ll support me? What is my strengths?

I work with the desteni I process as well which is a process of supporting oneself through one’s mind and behaviors with self forgiveness and self corrective change in writing and living. This process and self forgiveness specifically works with the inner workings of self that is happening and that is in fact driving our behaviors in many ways to do what we do, and thus to understand why and also find solutions for it. This platform is laid out in a structured way and definitely supported me to stop and transcend many addictions such as alcohol, weed (heavy user), masturbation, self sabotage patterns, and I am continuing.

There is also the 21 day support process where I have stopped an addiction for 21 days, if I fell and I went into the addiction again I would start the 21 days over until I was complete with stopping for 21 days. For heavy addictions, I would walk this in phases, so 21 days, then 1 month, then 3 months, then 6 months, then a year until I no longer have any desires. Again the desire does come up once and a while, but not as strong and potent. All the while through that process, working with my mind and thoughts to why I kept on with the addiction, working with fears, working with insecurities, working with self judgments, and writing out self forgiveness and self correction solutions to then in real life living be equipped and prepared to live out the correction as solution that I wrote out for myself. It is also helpful to speak self forgiveness when the moment comes up to to support with real time moments of change needed or to release built up emotions. There is much more on these points in the sites below so please follow the links for more or can ask me questions in the comment section if need be, I would be happy to support.

For more support on self and life, please check out the links:

[Eqafe - Every Question Answered For Everyone :) ] (http://www.eqafe.com)

[Desteni I Process - Self Development Support] (http://www.lite.desteniiprocess.com)

Soul - School of Ultimate Living - Living Words Process and Support:
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Earth Haven - Sustainable Living Environments -
Built on the Principles of What is best for all Life
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Forum support:
www.forum.desteni.org

Desteni Wiki:
wiki.destonians.com/Main_Page

Eqafe Facebook Page:
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7 year journey to life Facebook group:
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Clean Room High - Day 324

Today I cleaned my room, it was quite dirty because it’s been raining here on the farm for the past few days, so my shoes have been all muddy, tracking it in to the room. Also, there is dust build up and spider webs and clothes and junk just collecting all over tables and chairs and closet doors, so it has become a mess. When my room is messy I have a point of anxiety within me because of the point of losing control within this and allowing it to get so messy that things will permanently stay this way, like getting a stain on the floor or ruining linens or something like that, whether or not this actually is the case is irrelevant, but I think about it and thus the anxiety grows. So we have a visitor coming tomorrow, Dan, we cleaned his room as well, this inspiring me to get my butt in gear and clean mine. I found this awesome little vacuum cleaner that works very well, and so I went to town in Dan’s room and then in mine, being extremely meticulous and thorough, and the results show. Also, the mopping was easy pezy because the vacuum was done properly, which is very practical.

Now that my room is clean and very organized, there is this air about me when I come in, like all is right in the world, of course this is not true, but in my little bubble world it is so. I enjoy very much cleanliness and having things organized and orderly. To get to this point is not always easy though of having things clean, but I find putting in the effort, and working hard always pays off with satisfactory results.

But the point I am going to do self forgiveness on is the point of creating an energy relationship to having a clean room and feeling lighter when I walk in here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a relationship of relief when I enter my room after cleaning it and feel ok and good within myself, this I see is a point of positive polarity to the negative points I am feeling in my world and having like a point of lightness to seeing a clean room, but really it’s an energy movement of satisfaction because it changes my expression. I realize in reality a room is just a room and cleaning is a point of enjoying through living in each breath while cleaning, it’s not a rush as I walk in the room, but an expression as me here living it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use cleaning as an escape to not have to face the points within me that I am facing of anxiety and for a moment have a serenity to go into and not have so much anxiety, but this is just a point of suppression and not dealing with the points that will continue to be here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hide within myself and my actions deceiving me in using a clean room for instance in a point to make me feel good because I am existing within my world in the opposite as fear and worry.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within fear and worry due to unknown events that will come my way and thus fear failure and rejection within this.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear rejection and failure because I have defined myself as useless if this is what happens.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself in relation to failure and rejection as useless and feel bad about myself in judgment rather then seeing the point that did not work and walk next time to correct the point.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to miss the point of the opportunity to physical correct myself within the gifts that are mistakes or failures or rejections, to use these to my benefit and change the point that did not work to work for me, if this did not occur the failure for instance, I would be much more difficult to know what to do otherwise.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself and be within my mind as polarities of good or bad and miss reality here, where I have the opportunity to live the change that is necessary if I would stop existing in illusion and see reality for what it is, not defined and thus a point of my own creation and will if I direct it as such.

When and as I see myself go into a point of escape and relief due to the external reality, I stop and breath, and I realize that this is due to a point of self sabotage and that I do not have to continue living in such a way, but can live in practical support within what reality is showing me and make the necessary changes accordingly. I will have to check within me whether I am suppressing a point or not facing something to ensure that I am not deceiving myself and able to stand clear in reality and make the necessary changes or directions that will be best.

I commit myself to let go of the desire to always have things clean and thus also stop judging things that are dirty, and simply clean when it is time to clean and enjoy myself within it as an expression of my living.

I commit myself to flag point and write about the points that I am not facing and trying to avoid such as fear and worry through escaping such with cleaning, and walk the necessary steps to clear this and stand stable in reality.

I commit myself to see failure and rejection as an opportunity for learning and stop the judgments as I stop the past from influencing me by stopping the memories from directing me.

I commit myself to correct myself in my living when I have seen that I have fallen or missed a point of what will be best in my life to walk and thus what will be best for the world, always considering and aligning these points the best I can.

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