Time and Process – Day 482

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One of the sayings I have heard for a while and never really integrated was this one, “All of nature never rushes, yet the grass still grows, the tress still stand, the bees still buzz, everything get’s done in nature within the rhythm of nature itself”. I paraphrased that, though I am assuming the point is clear for this blog. What I have always resisted was to slow down enough based on the speed and movement of nature, which in essence is the movement of our physical breath. In and out, in and out, there is a rhythm to our breath, it is not fast nor is it slow, it is simply a movement of hereness I would call it. When you become aware of your breathing and stay focused on it, the mind stops and you suddenly hear all the earthly noises, the cars moving outside the window, the heat radiating through the vents, the stillness of the room, the birds chirping in the trees outside the window. There is so much going on here in breath that I have been missing because I am in my mind listening to the thoughts and the pace of thoughts and the mind movement which is fast, super fast.

The fear that exist within this seemingly ‘natural’ noise that occurs within the mind is that without the noise, what’ll happen? There is a belief of the uncertainty that without hearing the noise of thoughts and having the mind which is so familiar guide us and talk to us and think for us, we will be lost, we will not know how to function, we will not even know if we will live? Though, this breath is always here, no? I mean it is in fact keeping us alive, the mind doesn’t give us the breath of life, what that is, what gives us life is our physical body. Now, this is an important realization I have found that the physical body is equal to nature as they are both part of this earth, which is the physical existence itself. Nature and the physical body are both made up of the same organic material and they each have a breath of life within them. So this breath of life of the physical body is then equal as life of nature itself, we are in fact one and equal with nature itself based on the physical reality we live in. So that point of walking at the pace of the breath of life is in fact a rhythm we can all live within because just as nature does not rush, does not fret, does not react to it’s circumstances, but in fact lives and within that get’s everything done, this can also be applied to us human beings cause we are the same, we are physical, we are life, we are breath. We can get everything done if we walk as breath, in the mind this is not so easy.

I have found that I waste more time and energy when I rush in my mind as thoughts and emotions and fears, then when I am becoming aware of myself within what I am doing, being specific, applying myself in my breathing awareness. Life becomes more simple and more rhythmic when I am here, When I am in my mind, things become more chaotic, unclear, and more emotional, I am more apt to judge myself, to ridicule myself, and so this I will also do to others in my environment causing a seperation and a isolation that is suppressive and limiting. When I am in breath, there is an understanding to it because within myself I understand why and how I am doing something because I am in fact present with myself and the task as this breath awareness creates an awareness of the here moment, what is happening in reality, and so I am become more precise and create more perfection within reality. This breath awareness also creates an an accessiblity to see my mind move and how to stop it in moments because when you are here in breath you are moving slower, more precise, and with more presence, which counteracts the speed of the mind which is fast and filled with emotion. This takes time and patience as you walk the tools of self forgiveness, self honesty, and self correction, but if you stay committed and disciplined in this venture, you will align with breath and start to let go of the minds control and direct it as yourself.

I have always had a deep affinity and respect for nature and this was due to the fact of this aliveness, stillness, and gentleness that I was present within when I would stand within the middle of the forest, and witness that there is no force, there is no emotions, there is no conflict, no bickering, there is just hereness, living, and existing. So a realization to walk with is that time is not relevant within walking this process in the sense that it does not determine who you will be, moving faster then what it’ll take to walk a point will only in turn make the point extended and draw out cause of not being here in breath and so missing what is here and moments of opportunity to change. And so not being here where life is, but in my mind thinking about how I want things to move faster, there is a consequence and that is that you fuel the mind's illusions and miss yourself here as life. Breath is the key to being here where life is as the physical reality is what is real, the mind is illusion as it's based on dimensions within self, these we can't see or touch, but it certainly effects our day to day living. Walking the desteni i process has moved me within my daily application of it from mind chatter to breath awareness, it takes dedication and patience, though it is worth every moment. Enjoy your walk.

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Day 63- There is Not Enough Time for Me

Looking at this point where during my day I desire to just have time for me, seeing the responsibilities that I agreed to are too much, and wanting to break free from them so I can enjoy myself. Realizing this mentality and living out is the reason for starvation in this world as we are all searching and desiring for this me time and to live out our own desire for happiness missing the fact that the 'me only' mentality is missing the rest of life as the who I am one and equal with, and within this accept and allowing the suffering and abuse to billions while searching for my happiness in my own bubble world. Life is bigger then just me and my world, I walk to correct this point through self forgiveness. 

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to go into this spitefulness towards life and what I am doing within my responsibilities because I feel too busy with points I am working with and desire to have more me time. I realize and understand that whats here to be done is points I have fully accepted to participate in and now are my responsibilities to live them out as I have made a commitment to others and to myself to walk points through to completion as the living word of who I am.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to go into a feeling of spitefulness towards life and what I am doing due to the desire to have more me time. I realize and understand here that I have more then enough time during my week to relax and get some rest in between the responsibilities I hold.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to desire more time within my day to hide the fact that I desire not to live up to my responsibilities based on the fact that I see that it's too much and I don't get to enjoy myself as much as I did when I didn't hold as many duties. I realize and understand that this desire to have more time for myself is only based on self interest in desiring certain experiences for my own happiness, but within this I realize I do not accept this type of living in desire as this is only considering myself and not life as a whole. I live and walk into and as the oneness and equality of life and push myself to walk the best of my ability for all and to make this world a place that support all life. I realize and see I can be doing more, so I walk this correction as myself and push myself to do more each and every day.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to waste time with points that are irrelevant to who I am as a being walking what is best for all as I am allowing and accepting the mind indulgence of 'i deserve this' or 'it's only an hour' realizing and seeing that this time usually turns into longer then I anticipated and based on these thoughts of 'i deserve it' and 'it's only an hour' I will justify my actions of wasting time simply because I desire to not do it.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to indulge in the thoughts of 'i deserve this' and 'it's only an hour' when I realize and see that when I start participating in these types of thoughts I am justifying my action to accept resistances and not pushing myself to use my time most effectively in walking what is here to be walked in my daily responsibilities. I realize and understand to be a being who walks to her full potential I must walk equal and one to the physical always in what needs to be done and doing it to the best of my ability in self honest as any point of justification for desire is allowing mind to direct me in self interest, which I understand is separation and abusive to others as myself.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to go into self interest and accept the resistances to not do what is necessary to be done within my daily responsibilities and accept and allow the mind to direct me into separation as my own self experience to have nice feelings and be relaxed all the time while in another part of the world a being like me has to work hours upon hours for hardly any pay and suffers daily because they have no resources. I realize and understand that it is my duty as a life being to stand up for those who don't have a voice and are not being supported equal and one as the physical and how it should be for all, and thus I always walk and push through my desires and resistances to have a nice feeling and indulge in just doing nothing because I don't want to do it, this is unacceptable and I push myself always to walk the best I can throughout my days in self honesty and push myself to do what needs to be done and complete my daily tasks so I live the statement 'I am doing my best and pushing myself to live the best I can be'.

I commit myself to stop indulging in thoughts that are self indulgent and in self interest and walk what is necessary each day to push myself to walk the best I can be to support a world that will be best for all.

I commit to stop the mind from directing me into resistances and self interest, and walk in self honesty in the best I can to walk through all points in my daily responsibilities and complete what I set out to complete.

I commit myself to not accept and allow myself to indulge in the mind as thoughts of justification and remain here in the physical to walk what is required and what is here to be walked in practical physical reality stopping the desires to live from my mind for my own self interest.

I commit myself to stop my living for myself and walk the equality of all and stand up and live for the best life for all in all moments of my day no matter where I am.


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Day 56- There's not Enough Time in the Day

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to exist within this point of time and defining myself by time. I realize and see that time is not a definer and a holder of who I am, thus I can use time as a placement for movement in my life but not as a definer of who I am and what I am capable of.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that there is not enough time to get all my tasks done within my life and thus I go into anxiety based on this belief I hold that I will miss something. I see and realize that time is irrelevant in the sense of having enough or not, but it is all due to my application and responsibility to get the tasks done and complete and make enough space and time to get these tasks done so I do not go into fear.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to go into anxiety and fear when I realize I have not calculated my time management effectively and thus am not able to complete all the tasks I set out in front of me thus instead of correcting this point I go into these points of suppression and self diminishment. I realize and see that the effectiveness and stress reliever is due to me balancing myself and pushing myself to make time for everything, don't allow resistance and distractions to cause delay, but walk what needs to be walked in a balanced manner so all tasks are completed when due.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to go into anxiety and stress and then blame others for myself being ineffective in getting my tasks done and seeing that I am not able to do it so thus to let off steam I blame others and try to make it there faults so I don't have to face the point that I screwed up. I realize and see here that I am only using blame to hide from the fact that I didn't do what I was intended to do and due to ego and trying to look good for others I go into blame to try and push blame onto others when I realize it is my own self irresponsibility.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to blame and place fault on others when I realize and see that it is my own doing and my self irresponsibility in not managing my time effectively and getting everything done when due.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to go into ego and try and make others look worse then me by blaming and pointing fingers when I am the one and realize this that I am the one who did not walk what needed to be walked and caused the tasks to be done not on time. I realize and see that ego is not necessary and only diminish me as it's showing that I am abusing life for my own gain and separating myself from others so I can be better because I had known I had not done what I was suppose to.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to be irresponsible with the tasks in front of me instead of walking patience's and self perfection within my living not allowing resistances or distractions side track me from getting what is necessary done. So I realize and understand that I must walk the correction by stopping the resistances and distractions by walking a balanced task schedule and making time and space to get all my work done that is needed to be done.

I commit to walk my responsibilities to completion when they are due by setting a balance schedule in front of me and allotting enough time per day to get tasks done in a timely manner.

I commit to stop resistances and distractions and walk my responsibilities best for all as I would wan them done for me.

I commit to accept myself, walk patience with myself, and walk the perfection in living by walking in breath and slowing myself down.



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