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Saturday, October 31, 2015

Time and Process – Day 482

One of the sayings I have heard for a while and never really integrated was this one, “All of nature never rushes, yet the grass still grows, the tress still stand, the bees still buzz, everything get’s done in nature within the rhythm of nature itself”. I paraphrased that, though I am assuming the point is clear for this blog. What I have always resisted was to slow down enough based on the speed and movement of nature, which in essence is the movement of our physical breath. In and out, in and out, there is a rhythm to our breath, it is not fast nor is it slow, it is simply a movement of hereness I would call it. When you become aware of your breathing and stay focused on it, the mind stops and you suddenly hear all the earthly noises, the cars moving outside the window, the heat radiating through the vents, the stillness of the room, the birds chirping in the trees outside the window. There is so much going on here in breath that I have been missing because I am in my mind listening to the thoughts and the pace of thoughts and the mind movement which is fast, super fast.

The fear that exist within this seemingly ‘natural’ noise that occurs within the mind is that without the noise, what’ll happen? There is a belief of the uncertainty that without hearing the noise of thoughts and having the mind which is so familiar guide us and talk to us and think for us, we will be lost, we will not know how to function, we will not even know if we will live? Though, this breath is always here, no? I mean it is in fact keeping us alive, the mind doesn’t give us the breath of life, what that is, what gives us life is our physical body. Now, this is an important realization I have found that the physical body is equal to nature as they are both part of this earth, which is the physical existence itself. Nature and the physical body are both made up of the same organic material and they each have a breath of life within them. So this breath of life of the physical body is then equal as life of nature itself, we are in fact one and equal with nature itself based on the physical reality we live in. So that point of walking at the pace of the breath of life is in fact a rhythm we can all live within because just as nature does not rush, does not fret, does not react to it’s circumstances, but in fact lives and within that get’s everything done, this can also be applied to us human beings cause we are the same, we are physical, we are life, we are breath. We can get everything done if we walk as breath, in the mind this is not so easy.

I have found that I waste more time and energy when I rush in my mind as thoughts and emotions and fears, then when I am becoming aware of myself within what I am doing, being specific, applying myself in my breathing awareness. Life becomes more simple and more rhythmic when I am here, When I am in my mind, things become more chaotic, unclear, and more emotional, I am more apt to judge myself, to ridicule myself, and so this I will also do to others in my environment causing a seperation and a isolation that is suppressive and limiting. When I am in breath, there is an understanding to it because within myself I understand why and how I am doing something because I am in fact present with myself and the task as this breath awareness creates an awareness of the here moment, what is happening in reality, and so I am become more precise and create more perfection within reality. This breath awareness also creates an an accessiblity to see my mind move and how to stop it in moments because when you are here in breath you are moving slower, more precise, and with more presence, which counteracts the speed of the mind which is fast and filled with emotion. This takes time and patience as you walk the tools of self forgiveness, self honesty, and self correction, but if you stay committed and disciplined in this venture, you will align with breath and start to let go of the minds control and direct it as yourself.

I have always had a deep affinity and respect for nature and this was due to the fact of this aliveness, stillness, and gentleness that I was present within when I would stand within the middle of the forest, and witness that there is no force, there is no emotions, there is no conflict, no bickering, there is just hereness, living, and existing. So a realization to walk with is that time is not relevant within walking this process in the sense that it does not determine who you will be, moving faster then what it’ll take to walk a point will only in turn make the point extended and draw out cause of not being here in breath and so missing what is here and moments of opportunity to change. And so not being here where life is, but in my mind thinking about how I want things to move faster, there is a consequence and that is that you fuel the mind's illusions and miss yourself here as life. Breath is the key to being here where life is as the physical reality is what is real, the mind is illusion as it's based on dimensions within self, these we can't see or touch, but it certainly effects our day to day living. Walking the desteni i process has moved me within my daily application of it from mind chatter to breath awareness, it takes dedication and patience, though it is worth every moment. Enjoy your walk.

More Support on the topics of Time and Process:

Time Dimension Compression Possession
Energy Trumps Physical
Never Enough TIME

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Desteni I Process Lite - Free Course to Start your Journey to Life
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Desteni Wiki - For All Things Desteni Related
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Self and Living Store
Eqafe - Self Perfection Support
Equal Life Foundation - Site

Saturday, May 25, 2013

Day 308 - Are you in Control of your Mind or are you Mind Controlled?

What I have understood through the desteni material and realized through my own practice of the tools they share through the ‘process’ that is recommended to walk is that the mind is not just a simple thing that is to be mistaken for a part of human life, we have never really spoken about the mind in any authority as we do with the physical world because we have never understood why in fact we speak as thoughts within our mind, and where and how these thoughts and thinking are created within us. We know the physical in a sense because we can see it, dissect it, study it tangibly, and test it to gain a relative definition and understanding of what the physical is in our world, with the mind though such as a thought, we can do none of this. We know the effects of these thinking patterns have on the behavior of a person and at times what feels like possessions that come over us through bouts of emotion or feeling that are created through the thinking, but again, no one can explain in detail and specificity, where emotions and feelings come from, how in our body/mind they are created, what are they for, and questions such as how can they be natural if we know nothing about them?

This is self honestly for yourself to consider and have a look at in your own life, you can see evidence of this involuntary and absolute certainty of the mind creating these thoughts and emotions within an anger outburst for instance, it comes up due to thoughts accumulated towards another over and over that can not be voluntarily stopped, and then the emotions will rise and rise until eventually you will be triggered by an external force and blow up and release the energy of anger within what has been accumulating. So we are moved due to our thoughts and then the accumulation of energy through the thinking of these thoughts over time to then have a outburst that is not self directed nor self controlled, but is what feels like forced through the mind to engage in the environment in this way as a release of all the energy built up within oneself, so the question here is are we really in control as we presume we are or is it all our mind?

We speak often of mind control, like monks and sages having control over there minds and thus being able to direct there body into extremes within human capacity that the ‘average’ human couldn’t believe could be possible. I remember when I was in primary school, a father came in and he was a tae kwon do master/teacher, so he was highly trained in this martial art, and he said something that completely baffled my young mind at that time. He said he sat still for 8 hours with out moving once. I couldn’t believe that this was possible, I put myself within his shoes and tried to imagine myself being able to sit for 8 hours, and I just could not fathom that it was possible, I didn’t have the patients, the control of my mind and my body to stay put for that long, but the question still remains is, is it beyond the human capacity to control the mind and thus direct self for instance in this case to sit for 8 hours? No, as proof of this tae kwon do teacher, it is possible, one need to use tools, and realize in physical reality how this is possible and walk the steps to master it. The imagination of me as a child though was not controlled and thus was not directed within reality in common sense, so I completely got possessed by this line of thinking in my imagination, and from that point on never believed it would ever be possible for me to do such a thing, it’s too hard, I am to impatient, I would be so bored, what would I do, and so never allowed myself to walk this path as I had given up before I even tried due to the mind controlling and possessing me into the imagination thought pattern of defeat.

Now, here this is an interesting way of seeing our reality, me as a child in this instance, being taken over in that moment by the mind and absolutely giving up before I even tried, and really having absolutely no desire for movement to do anything in this sort of manner, of controlling the mind, having self discipline, mastering patience, breathing through uncomfortablity, angst, and committing myself to become a person who is able to direct myself to do something that is not within the realm of what I could believe myself to do. Although I don’t advise to sit in one spot for 8 hours, the act of self discipline, self control, mind control, and stability this teacher showed is quite honorable thing though as it definitely takes a form of effort and self will and mastering one’s own capacity of belief and stimna.

But my point here is the point of where the mind as me as a child so easily took me to self defeatism, self giving up and giving in, self sabotage as these thoughts and imagination scenarios, like a tv show going off somewhere in my mind in another realm or dimension within my body I can’t, see, touch, nor smell, but it in all ways has absolute control of who I am. And what kind of human being did this create within me as this mind that I was listening to and allowing and accepting to direct me in this one instance out of countless instances within my life up to the point of finding desteni, it brought me to become a person that is not in control or has little to no self will and thus within this outlook of myself brought on no real point of self respect or self directiveness. I suggest to read my earlier blogs for proof of this claim and evidence of the way in which I saw and behaved towards myself and my world, all within the starting point of self sabotage and self inferiority, and I am sure you will recognize these patterns as well within yourself.

The mind has complete control of the human being in this life, we don’t really know what this mind is nor what it consists of or operates from or as, and thus is this something we should blindly trust and become directed by so easily as we do? Is the mind a point of life affirmation and creating an optimum world and betterment for the life that is here? No obviously, ok, if not, why not? We can see through the evidence of this world, this creative power we call our mind is not our own, is not self power as life power as self direction, but has a mind of it’s own within our minds as our physical, quite a tongue full, lol, but worth investigating. Study and research the links for more unprecedented and mind blowing material, videos, articles, and first hand experiences with walking the mind of self, and how one can walk a process to control it and thus direct it not only for what is best for self, but what is best for all to create a world worth living in.

The mind is not the enemy nor the victor, it is us, we have to take self responsibility as it and direct ourselves in all ways of considering life in equality and what is best for all, using the mind as an equal part in this equation through accepting and allowing what is best in self honesty, and always correcting self to live in this standard into eternity. This is not a process that can be walked alone, there is support and much research done on the mind and self within it, I suggest investigate desteni to find out more.

I leave you with another fitting quote by Loa Tzu, enjoy:

“If you correct your mind, the rest of your life will fall into place.”