Day 54- Suppressing Myself based on Self Judgment

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to suppress my self expression based on seeing myself as less then the others around me. I realize and see within who I am and who I am with, we are equal in physical reality, we are one within and as life, and that I am only creating this feeling of less then within my mind due to the fact that I am comparing myself so thus I realize I must stop comparing myself and stop judging my self within all aspects of who I am as expression for myself to live in freedom to just be me.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to suppress myself based on the fact that I desire to be seen within a specific way based on not seeing myself within who I am because I don’t like myself and who I am. I realize and see that within this desire to be seen within a specific way I will always be in a point of compromise because I will always compromise myself to this idea to be a likable by others and thus suppress myself when I see that this idea will not be lived up to, so thus I stop the self compromising myself by stopping the living into ideas that I have to be liked by others, but realizing that the true self is here within and as myself and my acceptance of myself in all it's facets and dimensions and correcting this to life.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to suppress myself with others to an idea that I need to be more then just being me here because I don’t like myself and I see myself not equal to others so thus I try and create this equality with others based on the way I manipulate the situation to favor all points I see as good about me such as using my body, word placement, cloths, or hair, to thus have others become more attracted to me because otherwise I don’t see myself as attractive to anyone. I realize and see within living within this point of self compromise where I try and become a specific being for specific people I will always walk into suppression and be depressed as I am not allowing myself to express in freedom thus living within and as separation to suit my mind and not live as physical thus separating me and causing me to diminish myself for the acceptance of others. I realize I have to accept myself to stop this suppression and live equal. 

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to hold an onto an idea of myself that I need to impress others and manipulate situations for others to like me because I see myself as ugly and that I have to become perfect by creating this or I will not be able to enjoy life and be in the lerch so to speak with no one because I don’t see another way to be with others if I am not able to win them over with a point of self acting to have them see me as cool/beautiful/perfect. I realize and see that within this desire to have others like me and see myself as ugly and not worthy I will never be able to be settled and stable within myself because I am living within a polarity play out of negative/positive and never seeing myself within in it, but only to impress the outside world while my inner world suffer. So I see and realize that I have to walk self acceptance and stop these ideas and beliefs that I have to do something or be something for acceptance from others, but be me live how I would want to be treated with others, and accept myself so thus I can accept myself as others. 

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to compromise myself to others because I desire a certain outcome, a certain picture and thus I am not able to ever live here because the picture I desire to be doesn’t exist, I am trying to exist for a idea that is impossible and thus I realize and see that this idea of perfection of trying to be a certain outcome as perfect will not be possible because I am not perfect within an idea through illusion as the mind, this self perfection can only be through my living into and as equality as life within this physical as what is real.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to separate myself from others because I fear people, this fear is based on me holding onto the fear that I will be humiliated in front of others and not be able to hold my own if challenged. I realize and see that this fear is based on the point of seeing myself as weak and others better and thus I must stop this polarity play out of seeing me as weak and others as more to be able to walk the point into correction as standing here stable with all. I realize when in fear my expression is stifled and diminished as I am tense and not in reality but in my mind thus I use  my breath as physical support to get myself back here in equality and oneness with the others as the physical.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to exist within and as fear and allow it to direct me when I realize and see that I am able to direct myself in the physical in common sense with others in practical points so I must walk this by stopping the self judgment of myself, stopping desire to be perfect, and stoppin the fear when I don't live up to this. I realize I must live here with others as myself, stopping going into the mind in fear.

I commit to accept myself here with others as myself and express in the moment openly and freely to thus build self confidence.

I commit to walk and breath into self perfection in living as me in each moment to thus have the ability to walk points for self and be self sufficient and stop my dependence on others.

I commit to stop my self judgment adn self compromise by living in practical reality with others as my equal and walk solutions for what is best for all.

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Day 43 -Sup-Press Me Down Please, I'm Afraid

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to suppress myself in front of others because I fear sounding stupid when I realize and see that this is only my self projection of the judgments I am having of them and thus I am limiting myself due to the judgments I hold of others.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to suppress myself due to the fear of failing at what it is that I am expressing in and will be seen as less then others.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to judge others and thus be in competition of others when I meet them as my starting point.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to exist within suppression of myself because I am competing with others and allowing fear of being less then others direct me.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to exist within and as competition towards others and thus define my living based on how I will be able to win and become more then others and thus go into suppression if I see that I will not be able to win.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to go into suppression to escape and hide from having to put myself out there in front of others and be vulnerable.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear putting myself out there and being vulnerable because I fear I will get hurt.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear getting hurt by another and fear another seeing me as less then who I am here based on the belief that I will get hurt if I don't walk this point into perfection which caused me to feel this vulnerability.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to suppress myself because I fear being seen less then others here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to suppress myself because I fear being seen as stupid.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to suppress myself because I fear being seen as boring.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to suppress myself because I feared being called out by another.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself because I fear being humiliated or embarrassed.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to suppress myself because I see myself not as good as others and thus give up before I even give something a go.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to suppress myself because I see myself less then others and not as capable as others thus always have the belief that I will fail and not be able to succeed completely in what it is I am doing thus I use suppression to not have to face the failure in front of others so I just don't even try and just get comfy in the depths of suppression of myself.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to suppress myself because I don't accept myself here and see myself able to do anything worth while in a meaningful and perfect way.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to suppress myself because I believe that I will hurt and diminish others.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to suppress myself because I fear letting others down and having to face them when the shit hits the fan so to speak.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to suppress myself because I fear facing people.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to suppress myself because I fear that I will not make it.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to suppress myself because I hold myself up to a standard of perfection and thus do not actually live and walk perfection which is a process but expect it every time in immediacy which is not realistic nor practical and actually impossible because it is not being walked in real space time but here and immediate within my mind showing it is not real but a belief made up in the head and showing the irrationalbility the mind exist within and as in this reality because how can I be perfect when I don't know what it means to be perfect because I haven't walked the understanding of it as this take time and direct participation.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not give myself the opportunity to live and express myself in freedom because I am allowing fear and feelings of self diminihsment to direct me thus I accept and allow myself to go into suppression so I don't have to face myself here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to go into suppression to escape myself.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to use fear as a means to not have to face myself and thus I realize this is only a point of self interest where I am not walking through the fear which is not real but allowing and accepting diminishment of myself here as fear and allowing the mind to direct me as fear is a mind creation is not real, is not substantial thus not rational to allow something as fear to direct me that does not in fact exist but I have made up within myself.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to separate myself from myself here as life and allow suppression and fear direct me instead of me here standing directing myself in what has to be done to walk equality and oneness as myself for what is best for all and walk the process that is here back to life as who I am as all in oneness and equality to what is real as this physical existence where all are.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to go into beliefs about myself and others within allowing and accepting polarities in self interest so I can be comfortable and not have to push myself out of my comfort zone to have to walk the change and stand as life as what is real and what is best for all meaning push my comfortability and walk in instability for a moment to become stable for real.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to be directed by beliefs and polarities which I realize neither are real as they come from the mind in separation to me here as life and thus I stop participating in them and walk within the physical and correct myself by stopping the energy participation of myself in these separations as belief and polarities.

When and as this point to suppress myself comes up in my world to escape taking responsibility for myself or not wanting to face a fear, I stop, breath, and immediately walk into and as what I resist and want to suppress and face the responsibility I created and walk through the fears and judgments I am holding. I walk within the focus and understanding of who I am here and keep it physical with what is real and what is common sense and can be directed in practical terms for what is best for all. I realize and see that the only way to transcend this feeling of fear and desire to suppress myself to hide is by facing myself each and every moment and using my self honesty to walk my resistance and walk the process of myself to re-align with who I am here one and equal with all life.

I commit to stopping going into suppression and facing my fears and resistances in self honesty.

I commit to give myself some room to breath and not expect myself to be perfect when I haven't walked self perfection yet in my living.

I commit to be humble with myself and gentle and allow myself to breath and move at a pace I am comfortable with not going into ego to win or do this for others, but walk my SELF support to walk this for real and transcend this fear of failing and facing myself here within and as my world.



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