Living Self Courage – Day 427

Courage -  “mental or moral strength to venture, persevere, and withstand danger, fear, or difficulty”

Within recent days I have found myself investigating this word courage, and what does that mean to me. I got some perspective from another who shared that courage is never giving up, even when one fall’s down, you get back up and keep going. Here in the definition it states that courage is strength to venture, preserve, and withstand danger, fear, or difficulty.

Within my world, I can see and have experienced many experiences that bring emotion such as fear or anxiety, and within this I have faced this decision to stand within courage or fall into the emotions as fear and anxiety. What I have found is that I have existed too much within a desire to create a back door or an easy way out, where I have disempowered myself to live courageous and live empowerment within myself. I have disempowered myself because I have not found the resolve consistently to live self courage, to live the strength to stand by myself and the tools that I realize support me to become stronger within my resolve, stronger within my skills, stronger within my stand within who I am, and for this I have to ask myself why have I done this? Why have I disempowered myself? Why have I not been courageous?

And what comes up within asking these questions is a source power within me that is still standing, that is still here, that exist within me that is remaining vigilant and ever moving to stand within this word as self courageous. But within this I realize that this is all just a form of potential, this is something that exist here that I can become if I will it, but I realize that it will not exist if I don’t create it. I have to put in the time, the effort, the consistency, the living breath to move myself and so live the word self courageous. What does this look like to live self courageous in my day to day living?

This looks like moving myself beyond my limitations and boundaries I have set and become comfortable within, the patterned behavior I exist within day in and day out, and realizing that I am doing this myself, no one else is responsible for the way I am existing and experiencing myself but me. And then within this realization not just seeing it and going into an energetic experience of despair towards the thought that I am not living to who I expect or desire to be, but letting go and moving through this emotional experience of myself as all the falls and mistakes of my past, but understand that what exist is what is here as me in the presence that is here as myself as breath in action. I am still here, I am still breathing, I still have the opportunity to change and so move beyond my limitations and live self courageous in action. I have to act on my words I speak and write, I have to act on the commitments I write and commit to, I have to move within sounding myself in the physical to a new being that exist within self honesty and self discipline in each moment, and also I have to live out self courage by facing the resistances and fears that come up that have in the past cause me to stop moving, stop my living action as myself, and so exist I continue to get lost in my mind. The mind as myself is here, it exist as me this is a fact, but I realize that I don’t have to fear it. I have been fearing it as too powerful and so within living this as a belief of myself, I have allowed myself to disempower myself to move beyond my fears. But I see and realize by living this word courage, I can move into action as within the realization that living courage is never giving up no matter what is here and moving within my resolve of facing fears, building through this myself as the living of me aligned with the words I speak, I start here with living self courage.

I will continue more in my next blog. Thanks.

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Do the Clothes I Wear Have an Effect in My Communication with Others? Day 422

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I listened to an eqafe interview on assessing ourselves within our daily decisions, one they mentioned and it fits within the topic I am currently writing about within communication, and it is who am I in relation to the clothes I wear and how does it effect me with communication with others? Clothes I have found are a huge contributing factor in the way I experience myself each day and how I will approach others in going to communicate with them, I do notice that I am interested in the way the colors look on me and if I see I look ok then I will experience myself as ok. If I see that something doesn’t suit me, then I will go into an experience of judging myself energetically as I see the feeling within me goes sour. This I have attached to this over all perceived belief within myself that I am not worthy or in some way missing something, and so when I see something I wear that doesn’t please my eye right away, then I will go into this energetic experience of low, validating my belief about myself that I am less then and not as good as those who would look good in such clothing that I am not wearing well. So I am setting myself up within my reality to be doomed so to speak as I am seeking perfection in this instance within the clothes I pick out, but realizing that not all the clothes I try on will suit me and fit properly as the clothes are made for all shapes and sizes. The clothes I wear do not define me as a human being, it is simply just cloth that covers my body for warmth and protection. This may seem quite non-relevant, but within the experiences of myself within the way I feel or judge myself in certain specific clothes is showing there is a problem as I am defining myself not by how I live in each moment, but on what I look like and how I will be perceived. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself based on the way I feel in the clothes energetically as an excitement and/or a depression because of a judgment I made in relation to the picture I saw in the mirror.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself based on the picture I see in the mirror and so accept the energy as who I am within these moments.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to question energy absolutely within me and never question it’s reality and who I am within it and why I am doing this in the way I am as diminishing myself and/or exalting myself about others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek attention from others through positive remarks and compliments I may get within the clothes I wear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to then fear getting negative remarks from others and feeling the energetics of negative emotions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define who I am by external people and within as energy reactions to the external, I see and realize that this is disempowering self as I am only in a state of reaction and seeking, rather then directing myself in focus and stability in what is best for all and self.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself and how others will treat me based on the clothes I wear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am defined and determined within my reality by the way I experience myself in my clothes and so go into future projection scenarios on how others will perceive me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into future projections about my clothes and what I am wearing based on how I think others will perceive me and judge me in a negative or positive way based on this.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being judged in a negative way by others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to determine myself based on the fears of not being liked and accepted and base my decisions on these fears rather then what makes sense to be done in the moment practically.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have to look a specific way to be accepted by others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others for the way in which they look and perceive them in specific ways without first getting to know them and seeing who they are as a person.

When and as I see I am going into a point of fear and judgment towards myself or others when I am determining what clothes to wear, I stop and breath, and I realize that this will only compromise my effectiveness in communicating with others and so my effectiveness within living in a way that supports me and others because I am not here living within in reality, but distracted by fears and worries based on how others see me.

I commit myself to assess my clothing based on practical factors such as the activity I will be doing as well as the comfort level of myself within it physical.

I commit myself to look within me self honestly and assess who I am within the clothes I chose and I commit to ensure I make the decision based on my own self direction and so I commit myself to stop judging myself and others based on clothes and get to know who the being is and even why they chose the clothes they did.

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